HIJRAH LOVE
My Gratitude

I breathed the morning air with freshness in every dew that dripped on the leaves. And slowly, I felt warmth as the sun began to emit its light. So that makes the city of Medan began to turn yellow and provide warmth to the entire city, which is able to build a sense of spirit in every person who wants to do activities in this morning. Likewise with me, I am very excited in welcoming the morning that I will start with some activities for some series of events that will be held later tonight.

"Alhamdulillah, after Arumi and I came back like before, made me much better as a friend to him. May you remain my best friend, Arumi." The memory of that night is still in the memory.

After I had calmed down enough on the balcony, I now had to be kept busy with Hafizha, my little princess. With several activities in every morning such as, bathing Hafizha, drying for a moment her tiny body then, go to Aisyah Galery. However, not with today because, one full day I will be busy in my beloved home. And one by one what is needed for the celebration later tonight has been completed together. Building cohesiveness was easy in my family, especially during events like this. Even today Papa Adhi took part in welcoming Hafizha's presence in my family and gave thanks because Ahtar had succeeded in reaching the first step towards his success. And it makes us all feel proud of what he achieved.

"Aisha, should I help you?"

"certain." I also gave a smile to Arumi.

After that, Arumi and I were busy with the Hafizha fashion that will be worn today, because surely there will be many people holding it later, so that Arumi and I prepare clothes and others as beautiful as possible. Because Hafizha is still too small, so it's okay if the clothes are not entirely covered, enough baby clothes are appropriate.

"Aisha, look! Hafizha looks so much like Khadijah." Reveal Arumi as she stared fixedly at Hafizha in her carrying.

As I approached Arumi and Hafizha, I stared at Hafizha, who revealed her beautiful aura. And I paint a smile when I look at the tiny face of Hafizha, implied I think of Khadija which I still do not know where she is. After feeling enough to decorate Hafizha, Arumi and I laid it back on her bed. Then, Arumi and I must be busy with other activities such as arranging decorations, preparing catering, uniforms for all family members and also many other things that are soon completed before tonight.

"Mas, what if the decoration is given white, and the theme is also my little angel. How, did Mas Yulian agree?"

"As far as you are! If you think it's good, then do it!"

"Thank you, Mum. I love you." I gave a spoiled smile and wink to Yulian.

Yulian who looked at me instantly smiled amusedly while shaking her head slowly. As for me, I stepped back and stayed away from Yulian to continue my duties. Today I was really busy with various activities, until I forgot myself in taking care of my body. Never mind eating, drinking a glass of water I rarely do today. For me today I felt neither hunger nor thirst, so I forgot about it.

At exactly 12:00 pm I took a short break to perform the prayer dzuhur then, give milk to Hafizha and put her back to sleep until completely asleep in my arms. Staring at Hafizha with her innocent face, made me again ask myself, "Hafizha, what if someday Umi has been called the same God? Are you not going to get genuine love from a mother's heart? Can Abi Yulian give you the love a mother and father deserves, son? O God, You are the God I love the most, and there is nothing against the destiny You have laid down, including the destiny for Your servant. But, the one I ask for, take care of Hafizha and my whole family. May You find Yulian with Khadijah someday. Make them partners who are able to keep holy promises with You."

My tears slowly dripped down my cheeks, but it did not last long. Because, I must immediately highlight it and hide the sadness behind the happiness that is being felt by all family members. Especially when Yulian suddenly entered Hafizha's room, which made me not want him to see the sadness and worry that enveloped me. And to hide it I gave a smile as she looked at me while taking a slow step towards where I lay my body on the bed with Hafizha.

"Is Hafizha asleep?"

"So soon, so don't be noisy!"

"OK." Yulian nodded slowly.

"Your face paled Aisyah, take care of your health!"

The word came from Yulian's lips when I saw that I was not wearing a veil when I put Hafizha to sleep. And at once I thought, "Maybe my face turn pale because of that sickness?" I didn't want Yulian to feel suspicious about the pallor of my face, so I switched our conversation aside with a small joke.

"No, my mom. Maybe it's because my lips haven't been wearing lip cream and stuff, so it looks yeah .. pale." I smiled thinly.

"Emm, so it's like that. But ... Without any makeup on your face, you're still my prettiest woman, Aisyah."

Yulian suddenly looked at me deeply, her pair of eyes showing love for me. And this is what I'm worried about even being afraid that the woman he loves will suddenly disappear. Which forced him to eliminate all those feelings in his life. A hit? It will definitely be experienced, which leaves a wound in me when I remember it. "I'm sorry Yulian, maybe my finger won't be able to gently wipe and defend you again when you want to be pampered by me. And these eyes will never again look at your handsome face charming. In fact, this self will not be able to accompany you until old age. Maybe this is fate, the destiny that you and I must live in keeping the love hijrah to become better people. Again forgive me, Yulian."

As I stared fixedly at the pair of eyes filled with love for me, suddenly the door was knocked slowly from the outside. I don't know who's behind the door, because the man didn't immediately open his voice. So that makes Yulian have to open it immediately to make sure who is there?

"Square."

The door has been opened and looks like Inem is carrying a tray in his hand with some equipment for the Hafizha event later tonight. Bik Inem looked so good that he carried the wide tray, that Yulian had to help bring him into Hafizha's room. After that, bik Inem said goodbye to continue other work such as work in the kitchen. Likewise with Yulian, who soon came out to help everything that was not resolved. Because the day was getting late, where the time of the event was getting closer. So that everything must be completely settled before Maghrib.

"Umi will come out again, dear Hafizha. You sleep well here!"

I lightly kissed Hafizha's cheek before I left her on the bed. After that, I went to find Inem's bik to ask him to look after Hafizha while in the room. As for me, I have to prepare some things for my son and a little for Yulian. I really feel busy and busy. I don't even know how I'm gonna stop this leg from stepping up and pounding my ass for a second so I can rest. However, I don't think that crossed my mind at the moment. I don't know? Maybe I was too excited or something else was pushing me to do it.

At four o'clock in the afternoon, it was all over. There's very little left to fix, and I think I'm enough to fix it. And four o'clock less I can finish all that. After that, everyone rested for a while, including me. However, I just sat with them for a while, because Hafizha had to take an afternoon bath.

I bathed Hafizha for half an hour and put a beautiful dress on her body. And look graceful my little princess while wearing it. Which made me smile to myself as I stared at her innocent little face. After that, I continued to go to the bathroom to clean my body that was sticky even smelled of sweat. And after fifteen minutes in the bathroom, I prayed ashar and sat down at the dresser.

"Indeed, my face turned pale. Could it be that my illness has spread all over my body? And somehow I feel like someone who's going to die staring at my face like this? What the hell is going on?"

I tried to affirm and dismiss all the feelings that plagued my mind about the cancer I had. I polished my face thinly then, I put nude lipstick on my lips so as not to look pale when Yulian saw it. After that, I prepared to carry Hafizha and bring her to the living room.

Time goes by so fast_and finally the series of events one by one has been held. All look happy, smiles are painted from their lips all _the ones I love so much. And it makes me unceasingly grateful to be in the midst of their happiness. However, when in the crowd of events suddenly my head felt dizzy, dizzy and my body staggered. Even the shadow of everyone increasingly looks blurry.

"Bruck."