HIJRAH LOVE
Semu Shadow

The day began to change, the afternoon became the afternoon. And somehow I really enjoyed the sunset this afternoon when I was upstairs. It is so beautiful that the glory of God has been created to perfect the world. I even want to feel like I'm reaching for a sunken sun.

"Masyaa Allah! It is so beautiful that You have created for Your world." I did not stop admiring him.

As I was still standing staring at the sun, I suddenly saw a very familiar shadow about Him. She looked at me and gave a beautiful smile from her lips. And I was happy to see her smiling face to me. However, when I wanted to approach her slowly the shadow disappeared.

"Sister Maryam! Don't go, brother! I miss you all!"

I screamed like a madman barking from losing his mind. Even the clear water flowed by itself and soaked my cheeks. However, I immediately slammed back my tears after I remembered the God who loved them more.

"Astaghfirullah azim things." I say as much as I can to remember God.

My longing was again expressed in my heart which made me feel tormented if, given the bitterness of loss. And only the shadows about them still cling to my eyes. For a moment I thought about that day, a shadow about those who were suddenly present met me. After I racked my brain, it turned out to remember something. Where I had promised to do my studies after Arjuna's wedding.

"O Allah, astaghfirullah hal azim. Why did I forget my own promise? Better, tomorrow I'll have that lecture for you! Forgive Ayesha, Pa, Ma, Father, Mother, Brother Fadli, sister Maryam and my two nephews." Their faces are still in my eyes.

Adhan Maghrib also made me realize to immediately go down from the top floor and then enter the house, then close all the doors and windows. After that, I took the ablution water to immediately perform the Maghrib prayer which was the time. And when I was about to enter the space dedicated to worship, suddenly a soft voice called out to me.

"Mother,"

Instantly I turned my body to face the Light. He was wearing a beautiful face, which made his face so radiant. However, I did not understand what the purpose of the Light was to call me.

"What's up, Light?"

"Begini Umi, the Light wants to perform the Maghrib prayer with Umi again. After that, Cahaya wanted Umi Aisyah to teach Light to teach. Is Umi ready?"

"certain." I pulled both ends of my lips and painted a smile.

After confirming the Light's request, it was clear that his face was happy. And it also makes me feel happy when this heart and self ask someone to accompany me in remembering the migration of love to You. Although it feels so difficult the way of life that God has destined me to live, but I believe perfect just because I love Him.

I read the intention of the prayer, the takbir and the reading of a short letter until I said two greetings. And now three rakaat was over I run with the Light as makmum. After that, I opened two piles of Quran to read them with Light. And we also recognized by reciting the holy verses of the Quran. Although not yet fluent in reading fiqh, tajwid and others, at least these lips still remember the teachings of God addressed to His people.

"Shodaqallahulazim says. Thank goodness!"

Finally, we read the holy verses of the Quran. After that, we prepared to head to the kitchen and prepare some food that I had cooked with the aunt earlier. And when I was about to help Light up to his wheelchair, it was seen from the end of the door that Arjuna was waiting.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Umi-Light." That towering step has approached us.

"Getishalight." I answered along with the Light.

"Thank you Umi, because Umi has received the Light sincerely, even Umi wants to teach the Light to be more deeply into Islam, which should be my duty." Arjuna looked at me inside.

For a moment I gave a smile, then I gently rubbed my firm shoulders while saying, "If that is your duty, then it is also Umi's duty."

"You must be hungry! Better, we head to the dining room right now. How's it?"

"Umi and Light go there first, Juna wants to take a shower. Still stinks." Arjuna kissed his own shirt.

I shook my head with a small laugh after seeing Arjuna's still spoiled behavior towards me. Even I was surprised at the kiss he did on my cheek. Not only from Arjuna, but also Ahtar who suddenly came and embraced me. And this made me realize the fear of losing them.

"Umi, Ahtar is hungry." Spoiled Ahtar whisper.

Immediately I took off my laughter, then I invited them to head to the dining room. And once there the aunt had prepared everything to be served to us at dinner together. So it makes me grateful to have a messenger who helps me to catch everything.

"Thank you, Bik." I throw a smile at him.

"Yes, Mom. After all, it's my job to prepare everything." He stared at the dining table.

"Yes, I'm sorry, ma'am!"

"Wait Bik, Bibik where are you going? Come eat with us all!"

I forced him to join us until his rejection did not happen again. After that we all poked our asses to take a seat. Soon Arjuna followed along with Papa Adhi. So that the dinner was held with togetherness filled with pleasure and gratitude for the fortune that God has given us today.

We ran dinner for about half an hour. And after it was over, I asked them all to gather in the living room, because there was something I wanted to say. And those who follow my word.

"What do you want to talk to us about?" Ahtar asked me the question.

"Alright, Umi just get to the core of our conversation tonight. Previously, Aisyah wanted to ask Papa for an opinion. What if, tomorrow, we're going to do a study for them?"

For a moment I stared at the large, beautifully framed photo attached to the wall of the living room. After understanding what I meant, Papa Adhi agreed to my request. Not only Papa Adhi, but Arjuna and Ahtar also approved. As for Light, he did not know about the story of my family and also anyone in the photo. So that he just assented like the others.

Finally our conversation was over and we all left the living room to continue our activities. As well as me, I went back to the room to contact Yulian and tell him about my plan. However, there was no response from him after I repeatedly tried to call his number.

"Maybe Mas Yulian is busy. Come on, I'd better call Safira." I also dialed back some numbers to contact Safira.

And before long Safira answered my phone then, I explained about the concept in the wedding Jesica which will be held tomorrow at 09.00 noon. And I also asked Safira to come early because, I still have other business that will make me a little late to arrive at Jesica's wedding.

"Well, Miss Aisyah. I'll be here early for tomorrow's show." Safira agreed to my request with a tone of spirit in her.

After that, our conversation ended with a greeting. Then, I put my phone back on the nightstand and left it there. Remembering me who has not prayed isya', I immediately took the water in the bathroom. Then, I took a neatly arranged face, wrapped in a prayer mat as an outer cover. And I immediately started the four-rakaat evening prayer which I ended my worship with three rakaat prayers.

The pseudo-shadow kept passing through my sight, so I decided to send them a prayer. Even I was so impatient to want to go to a place where I was able to treat the longing that exposed my soul.