HIJRAH LOVE
The Nicolson Square Gardens

"Arjuna, let Umi help the Light. You can go in with Abi."

I grabbed the wheelchair handle and got ready to help Light enter the Senteral Edinburgh Mosque or the central Mosque in Edinburgh. Likewise with Arjuna who agreed with my words, because we ourselves know that the place used for worship is indeed separated. So that there is freedom when taking ablution water and so forth, as well as myself who feel free when I open the veil that I use as the covering of the aurat.

"Light, you can take ablution water first! But if you can't God doesn't force his people, you'll just have to stay!"

"Okay, Umi."

The light painted a smile on his lips and so did I, instantly returning that smile. After our conversation was over, I immediately took the ablution water to perform the dzuhur prayer that afternoon. In accordance with the order when I was taking ablution that I wanted to keep until I was after the dictatorship at the Edinburgh Central Mosque. The freshness of the flowing water and wetting the tired face, now has felt a heart full of peace. And I want to immediately abort all the sins I committed today through my prayer movement. Not only that, I also want to complain to Allah SWT about what happened to me today.

"Bismilahbornrahmanirrahim,"

I started with the basmalah reading as a prefix that I felt obligated to pronounce it in every way. And I also tried to remain solemn in my prayer until the movement of my salutation was done as a sign that the prayer was over. However, my efforts continue with the recitation of dhikr that I can keep remembering Allah SWT and also Nabiku, Muhammad SAW. Because, in retribution I feel so close to the Creator and my heart feels so much more than when the roar of jealous fire has burned in the soul.

"Astaghfirullah hal azim, astaghfirullah hal azim, astaghfirullah pah azim." I keep reading through my fingers.

A few minutes later, I finally decided to end the effort that I felt reluctant to stop. However, I remembered that the light was tired which made us all have to stop at the hotel immediately. However, when I turned my body I saw Light sitting on his wheelchair waiting for me with a deep look.

"Light, is Umi taking too long?"

"No, Umi. But Light wanted to talk to Umi. Can Light chat with Umi just the two of you?"

"But Light .. didn't Arjuna just say that you were tired and we should go back to the hotel?"

"I'm sorry for the Light, Umi. Light deliberately said that to all of you because, Light knew about how Madam Arumi looked at Abi. And Light was convinced that Umi Aisyah did not like that look, did she?"

"O Allah, even the Light knows how I feel. Do not want me to deceive You from the flames of jealousy that pervades and momentarily stops in this self. But ... I will try to calm the Light and correct the misunderstanding." Break me in my heart, then look closely at the face of the Light in front of my eyes.

I sat crouching before the Light, "If that's your reason for talking to Umi, then Umi is willing to Light. But Umi guess, not here for us to chat. Because this place is the house of God that is not fit to be used as a place of gossip between other humans and other humans." My smile was drawn from behind the veil that covered my face.

"But how do we tell Mas Arjuna and Abi, Umi? Will they let us?"

"Trust! A soft heart will be easily broken. So, Umi makes sure Arjuna and Abimu will allow us to go both." I nodded slowly reassuring the Light.

"Assalamu'alaikum,"

"Getishalam." Julian answered along with Arjuna.

"Have you finished praying?" ask Yulian to make sure.

"Yes, we're done. However, Umi and Cahaya want to go both to a place, Nicolson Square Gardens. Does Abi allow it?"

"Is there something important so Umi and Light have to go alone?" sahut Arjuna's.

"Arjuna, Umi just wants to ask for your understanding as a husband. If it's just the two of you, it's important business for women. So, Umi beg you to let us go there." Look at me with pampering.

The two feet in front of me were staring at each other. It was as if they were thinking about what would be their decision. And finally, my two men nodded slowly simultaneously which signified that I had agreed that I and Light would go to Nicolson Square Garden. After allowing my request Yulian said, "Are you sure you don't need company to go there?"

"Of course I'm sure, Mas. I will not be lost or even why later. God willing, I have memorized all the streets of Edinburgh. Yes ... even though only through a writing from google, but I'm sure I memorized. So don't worry about that!"

After convincing Yulian, the car keys changed hands. And I will drive that car, which will take me to Nicolson Square Gardens with Light, a garden filled with ornamental grass plants. So that it shows a soothing scenery, even though that afternoon Edinburgh has been sparkling and vibrant. And for me, there I and the Light can speak with four eyes.

"I'll be waiting for you here, Ayesha. Don't take too long, which will make me worry about your situation." A short message has been sent to my phone.

I nodded slowly towards Yulian who was standing in the courtyard of the Mosque. After that, I said my greetings to say goodbye then, ignite the car engine and I advanced at medium speed. The atmosphere of Edinburgh made me feel excited to immediately surround him with Yulian. The city I had wanted for years.

A few hours later, I and Light arrived at Nicolson Square Gardens. Before plunging into the park, do not forget I parked the car I drove. After that, I helped Light to sit in a wheelchair again and then, I pushed him and we looked for a seat that provided comfort to talk together.

"Maybe here we can chat." I stopped my footsteps in front of the long chair in the park.

"Now speak, Light! Umi believes here we can be more free to pour out the contents of each other." My smile was painted back.

The light began to meet and give the questions that had been stored since. As well as me, I try to answer gently in every question that the Light throws at me. And for sure the question is still covered about Arumi. The woman who was suddenly present in my life.