HIJRAH LOVE
Above His Power

That night I pulled over, looking for a place capable of silencing the secret of Khadijah. Because I thought Arumi would give me some important news about Khadija. It could be one of the secrets about Khadija, so I don't want anyone else to know that secret.

"Nl...." There was no response from Arumi.

I pulled back the number that said Arumi's name. And not long after that Arumi finally received my call. After that, I asked him about the news of Khadija that he brought for me. Likewise with Arumi who provides information about Khadija accurately.

"Aisha, what you thought was true. Khadijah who gave you a letter with Khadija the daughter of Bu Ratih is the same Khadijah. And now Khadijah is in the city of Surabaya, where Bu Ratih lives there. The news had soared in the city of Edinburgh, even when the man you were telling me about broke into prison. And none other than that man is Khadijah's father." Arumi looked at me through a video call.

Instantly I fell silent, digesting every word Arumi said about Khadija. My brain thinks of Khadijah's father, who committed violent behavior against him. And I don't understand why Mrs Ratih would prefer me to look after Khadija, and I don't know who Khadija really is? And one of the things that made me even more anxious to meet with Khadijah was to want to know the origin of himself and his family. Because when I last met with Mrs Ratih, she looked hurt even as if she hated Khadijah's presence.

"Arumi, are you sure that Khadija is currently in Surabaya?"

"That's the news I heard, Ayesha. Sorry if I was wrong about her whereabouts."

"Ah, no, Arumi. You don't have to apologize to me. But, I really want to meet Khadijah. Can you help me to confirm his whereabouts?"

"I'll do it, Aisha. Yes, I have to end our conversation, because I have to follow Islamic activities here. Assalamu'alaikum." Arumi turned off my call after I answered her greeting.

After the conversation between me and Arumi ended, I still kept silent on the balcony while thinking back about Khadija and a letter from Bu Ratih that I had not read until now. And while I was still daydreaming about it, I suddenly regained consciousness after I felt a touch from Yulian.

"Aisha, what's wrong with you? I called you from earlier, but why are you daydreaming here?"

"Sorry, Mas. I just finished talking to Arumi. I just...I just imagine if I met Arumi again, surely She was more beautiful when wearing a hijab, like this time." I lied to Yulian even though my heart seemed to want to refuse.

"You're right. Yes already, it is better now you shower and pray. I'll wait for you downstairs with the kids and Papa." Yulian gave a faint smile to me.

I nodded slowly to confirm Yulian. After that, I rushed to the bathroom to clean my body that felt so sticky, because the sweat that was pouring soaked this body. Air shower I lit, and then wet my body evenly. And when I accidentally stare at the glass screen in front of me, I am surprised by what is currently worrying me.

"Sniffles?"

As soon as my shower turns off, I immediately look for tissue to clean the blood coming out of my nostrils. The blood stopped, but I stayed in the bathroom to make sure it would never come out again. After a long time in there, now I decided to get out of the room and pray maghrib.

I have done three rakaats for about fifteen minutes, and I end with a prayer for me, my little family and the family that is already in heaven. This self also resigned if God had willed for everything that happened to me how later. Even I have resigned if my life will be taken immediately. Because it is above His power and destiny for me.

After praying I immediately prepared and went down the stairs to meet all of them who had been waiting for me downstairs. And over time the guests were present alternately enter and even filled the room provided for the evening study. After everything was ready, the final lecture event had now begun. Me and the others also read the short letters and also the letter of Yaasin. A letter that must be read during the study.

After a few hours then finally the event that we title tonight is over and running smoothly. Even today the guests who attended alternately gave greetings to say goodbye. And instantly this house was again deserted after the event was completely over. There is only my husband, my children, my daughter-in-law and my father-in-law.

"Rightly what Abi said, you guys are also still guarding the ablution." My welcome confirmed while giving a smile that might look faint.

After hearing the words from Yulian and I, they rushed to prepare for prayer. But before that, Ahtar proclaimed the iqomah before we prayed the Isya' prayer in congregation. And prayer we have done until the rutinan after prayer we run that is, berktikaf with dhikr.

"Alhamdulillah, O Allah, the Lord of the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful. Thou hast done all our business in the world, and may Thou not do all our business in Thy Hereafter." I also offered prayer.

The day passed quickly, the night was now changed with the morning of dawn filled with the chants of the holy verses of the Quran. Likewise with me, I do my duty by reading the Quran after two special rakaat I run. After reading the Quran, I woke up my beloved husband, Yulian.

"Mas, wake! It's dawn, let's pray!"

I rubbed his cheeks gently, and finally he opened both eyelids slowly. And not long after his consciousness recovered, he immediately got out of bed which made us both feel comfortable when closing our eyes that felt sleepy. Yulian rushed to clean his body, after which he ran two rakaat. As for me, I had to battle with some kitchen utensils to make breakfast together this morning.

"Assalamu'alaikum, hello sir!

"Waalaikumsalam Mr. Yulian, please excuse me if I interrupt your morning time." sounded a serious tone from across.

"Oh, no problem sir. Is there anything you're calling me this early?"

I also heard Yulian's conversation with someone from across the street. But I don't know for sure who was talking to him. To make sure I asked in sign language, so that my voice did not interfere with the conversation. However, Yulian only asked me to be quiet with sign language, where she placed her index finger in front of her thick lips. And I nodded to fulfill his request. While waiting for Yulian who was still busy with her phone, I also cleaned the bed and tidied it up again like before me and Yulian ruffled everything.

"Tests." Fresh blood on the floor.

I immediately went to the bathroom to make sure about the blood. And what I'm worried about is happening again. The fresh blood came out of my nose and dripped all the way to the floor. I began to feel anxious about my health condition, could it be that I have an illness? Or is this nosebleed just because my body and body feel tired? To make sure I decided to go to the hospital after breakfast together.

"Kricik, kricik, kricik." Sound of urine tap water.

I immediately cleaned up the traces of blood coming out of my nose. After I finished I went back to meet Yulian to take him to breakfast together, because the clock was already showing at 06:30. And we will all prepare to do our own activities after breakfast after we do.

"I'm sorry, Aisha, I can't keep what I told you. And I have to go right now!"

"It's okay, Mom. This is beyond our understanding as human beings. It is above His power that we can still endure to this very moment. A lot of gratitude will definitely feel more beautiful." I gave a smile to encourage Yulian.

"Thank you for your understanding, Ayesha." That hug was put on for me.

It might feel so hard to let it go with the distance and time that would separate me from her. But it is above His power that we have been tested. Only patience should be ingrained within as a heart booster.