HIJRAH LOVE
Jealous (not) Blind

Under the big tree I was with the Light was sulking in a soothing atmosphere. There we give each other understanding as fellow women. And I also assured the Light that in the built house there will never be a winding if there is a confidence in each. Because I think the foundation in the household is none other than mutual trust. Moreover, I realized and knew that now I was the wing that Yulian needed to get into His heaven.

"Umi must be honest with Light, that Umi felt a burning jealous fire at the restaurant earlier, right?"

"No. Who said that Umi was jealous, Light? Umi behaves normally, just like when meeting anyone." My elak covers the truth.

"liks. The light heard everything when Umi and Madame Arumi were talking in the corridor earlier. But sorry, it wasn't Light's intention to eavesdrop on Umi's conversation with Mrs Arumi." The light revealed what he had heard without my knowledge.

I am silent with a thousand languages. I want to confess and not deceive the Light or myself, but I also cannot continue to harbor the fire of jealousy in the soul. It is the sincere heart that will give understanding and eliminate all the turbulent flames of jealousy. Nor does God want His fellow-people to hate each other and to have a damning nature that will decide but brotherhood one day. So I said to the Light after thinking long enough to give the exact answer to the question.

"Huf! It might be true that you already knew and heard when Umi and Arumi were chatting in the corridor earlier. But Umi sure, that what you heard was only part of it and not until it runs out. So forget about it!"

"How could Umi say such a simple thing to the Light? Forget Umi? There is no way that Light can forget that easily, because Light loves Umi as the birth mother of Light and Light will never be willing to let the Umi household with Abi destroyed by other women."

The light just blew away his anger. His dislike for Arumi has now been recognized by him, even as if hatred is just entering his heart. However, I as her mother do not want if, my daughter has hatred or resentment towards others, even though I realize that I am only a daughter-in-law's mother. And now, again, I must quell his anger and give understanding to the Light. Even if I could, I wanted to remove the sense that Light should not have in the heart of Arumi, a kind woman but, being looked at one eye for misunderstanding from a gaze.

"Light, please listen to Umi just once! Umi knows that Light began to love Umi and considers Umi as the birth mother of Light, but .. jealousy that had stopped in Umi's heart will not make a blind eye, a hardened heart, and a strong heart, selfishness and hatred or resentment towards Arumi. So, Umi guess you also do not need to have things that should not be in your heart." I also stared fixedly at the pair of pitch-black beads that were in front of me.

The light was silent with a thousand languages. However, a pair of withered eyes slowly glazed over and finally clear water drenched his cheeks. I don't know why he was crying? I don't know for sure what he's feeling, either the anger that still hasn't dampened or the feeling that's more than that. And to soothe all the turbulent taste in his soul, I held a warm embrace to his body, even gently rubbing his shoulders.

"Don't cry! Why are you crying light? Did Umi hurt you over Umi's words?"

"No-no, Umi. The light just thought, how could such a soft heart exist in this world? But .. forgive Light, somehow Light still does not like Madame Arumi as a woman." The light looked at me with teary eyes.

"Emm, here's the light! In us, we must be able to apply what God has commanded to each of His people. Like Surah Ali Imran verse 103. Do you know how Allah's commandments are written in the Surah?"

The light fell silent again while shaking his head slowly. And he looked at me, as if he were asking for an answer to what I had told him about Surah Ali Imran verse 103. After I saw such a meaningful gaze, I also gave an answer to the Light.

"It's okay if, you don't know it, Light. And it's Umi's duty as your mother as well as friends, relatives, relatives and everything. So, listen carefully to Umi's words!"

"Ishi of Surah Ali Imran verse 103: And hold all of you to the rope (religion) of Allah, and do not divorce you, and remember the favor of Allah on you when you were (in the days of Jahiliyah) in a row, then God united your hearts, and you came to be because of the favor of God, those who are brothers and you are on the brink of hell, and Allah saves you from it. Thus does Allah explain His signs to you that you may be guided." I clearly stared at the Light.

"So the Light, God also does not like if His people are hostile to each other and will enter into the edge of the abyss of hell. God loves all His people more than his despicable nature and all his prohibitions. And this is the guidance of God, the patient heart. So that no hardened heart, covered with mere hatred."

I nodded slowly assuring and convincing Light to understand how a woman is able to keep the string of brotherhood against other women, women who do not have to be in line with us. Because Arumi herself is none other than a woman who converted to Judaism. So that He is not so concerned with the correct way of dressing as the advice of the Islamic Shari'a. As He only wears a mini dress that slightly shows his two mountain piles. And part of it makes me feel uncomfortable when we're together.

After a long time talking with the Light, we decided to surround Nicolson Square Gardens for a while and enjoy the atmosphere there before dusk had arrived. It will turn the day dark at night. I continued to push the Light sitting on his wheelchair to look at the green grass. And while I was still walking, I was in deep thought about a neurologist.

"Light, can Umi ask you something?"

"Of course, Umi. Just ask!"

"Umi just wants to know how can you be paralyzed like this? But if you mind answering Umi's question, you may not answer it." I pushed back the wheelchair in front of me.

Suddenly Light clasped my hand which was still holding the handle of his wheelchair. Then he turned his eyes towards me. And he said, "No, Umi. Light did not mind answering Umi Aisyah's question at all. Actually, one year ago Light had an accident that left both of Light's legs unable to walk normally."

The light bent his gaze, as if he felt embarrassed after recalling his crippled and imperfect legs again. And somehow I imagined as if the Light was able to walk normally. Both legs are fully functioned and able to return to the activity as usual, long before the Light was reunited with Arjuna.

"Oh yes, Light. Did the doctor ever say that your feet can be healed like they used to?"

"The doctor once said he could, Umi. But it is impossible for the Light that the family alone has nothing. So, inevitably the Light must be able to accept the circumstances that make the Light itself feel fragile and worse. However, after the Light entered the family of Umi Aisyah and Abi Yulian, the Light did not feel that bad. Moreover, there was Mas Arjuna who always understood Light." Reveal the Light by painting a smile.

I returned the Light's smile, and I invited him to return to the Edinburgh Central Mosque. Because I don't want Yulian and Arjuna to have to wait for our long arrival at Nicolson Square Gardens. And I immediately helped Light to get into the car we were about to drive. After it was over, I turned on the engine and drove the car at moderate speed.

"Ssttt,"

Suddenly I stepped on the brake pedal to stop the speed of the car I was driving. Because I can't stay still looking at a sight that to me is not pleasant to look at.