HIJRAH LOVE
My decision

I lowered my head and was unable to look at Yulian as she stood before me. Even when every word that was thrown from her lips was so difficult for me to reply and it was also so difficult for me to give a truthful answer in my heart. It was as if my tongue was so twisted and stiff for me to move. However, it was like my decision was immediately implemented by Yulian. Though I will feel a deep destruction.

"What does all this mean, Aisha? What do you want?"

"A-a-i...." I averted my gaze then, stepping away from Yulian.

"Arjuna, Umi strongly implores you to immediately give the handling to Khadijah. She ... He already feels pain. Look at!"

I approached Arjuna and begged him to immediately give a follow-up to Khadija who was already in pain on the banker, who was currently his bed. However, when I clasped Arjuna's hand and pleaded with him, there was no answer or word he gave me at any of my requests.

"Arjuna, why are you just silent? Look at your patients!"

"Aisha, there's no need for you to hold them accountable for me. Didn't I tell you to let me out of this world! So, let me go in our last meeting." Sela Khadijah with a weak tone.

"No. I will never let you go, Khadija. I ... will keep saving you and the baby." Firmly I then, stepped back towards where Yulian was still standing upright.

I tried hard and put aside all the unwillingness, hurt and destruction I felt so deeply. Because, my decision will still happen that day before death actually comes to me. And I hope that Yulian's happiness will continue even though I have left later.

Without speaking a word I pulled Yulian's arm just like that and pulled over for a moment with her. It was then that I begged Yulian to keep the marriage with Khadija after the baby was born through Caesar.

"I know, you'll never want to do it even if I keep asking.but...."

"But what, Aisyah? Did you never think about how I felt when you asked for it? Look at me Aisyah, and tell me that your wish is not true." Yulian pulled my arm.

I felt cornered as I leaned against the wall and was locked by Yulian who stood before me looking at me sharply. However, I deny the truth for the sake of a decision that I consider to be true. And I looked into the pair of eyes of my elf that I longed for every moment. Because to me that look is full of love for me.

"What I'm saying is true, Mom. I beg you to marry Khadijah after the baby is born." I stared hard at Yulian.

"No, Aisha. I still don't want to. I don't know who that woman is, after all my love is enough for you and not for the others. I am not a Prophet who can share fairly with his wives. So don't force me to do it." Yulian looked at me fixedly.

For a moment I was silent, trying to think of a way to persuade Rayu Yulian to want to do a sacred marriage with Khadijah. With all my might I tried to do so even with compassion I pleaded with Yulian. Yulian finally wanted to do the marriage with Khadijah. And my ring as a sign of marriage to Yulian I now give it to him to give to Khadijah.

"Yes, Mum." I smiled at him.

"But I'm not a perfect man, Aisyah. I did not escape all sins. And I also don't want to hurt you over this marriage. I'm afraid .. I'm afraid that if, I'll hurt two hearts when I can't be fair to you." Yulian leaned against the wall.

Yulian wiped away her tears as she was about to return to the operating room. Even his body that was leaning against the wall slowly slumped down then, his legs were bent over covering his face. And when I saw him hurt over my selfishness, my heart really felt a sense of destruction. But I don't want it if after my departure it's going to hurt her even more.

"I'll never get hurt, Mom. This has been my decision and my wish. And I'm sure you can be fair to us, your wife." I put my hand to give her strength.

Yulian slowly raised her downcast head, then looked back at me. And at that moment I nodded my customer's head to reassure him that I was fine and unharmed. And I should be able to sincerely accept all of that, especially when Khadija became my husband's second wife. After a long time I persuaded Yulian, Yulian and I finally stepped in to return with those who were still in front of the operating room.

"I'm her husband, Sust. Get used to me signing all that!"

Finally, Yulian gave his signature as a sign of approval from Khadijah's representatives. And a piece of paper with ink in it, can now be used as evidence so that Khadija immediately get further action, namely, Caesarean section. However, I was wrong to think that after Yulian signed the dossier, Khadija would soon be running a Caesarean section.

"But don't expect if, Juna will perform that Caesarean section." Arjuna walked away.

"Moonj." I'm yelling.

Arjuna stopped his steps. Then, I caught up with him and spoke slowly to him. Because I know, Arjuna also will not approve of Yulian's marriage to Khadijah. However, I again tried to persuade Arjuna to persuade him to approve the decision I gave. Although it was quite a while, it finally came to fruition according to what I expected. After that, Arjuna prepared to immediately perform the operation Caesar Khadijah.

"Set up the operating room right now!"

Arjuna ordered the medical team to immediately prepare the operating room and everything necessary while the C-section was in progress. And just as Arjuna was about to go inside, he nodded slowly convincing me to love him in performing the usual Caesarean section. And wholeheartedly I also trust my son in carrying out his duties, besides that I do not stop me from saying a prayer to Allah SWT to be launched during the operation.

Not long after the operating lights were turned on, which indicates that the operation of Caesar Khadijah had begun. And that was when the atmosphere instantly turned silent. There was no sound that shook one bit. Even our heads were bowed asking Allah to be waged in every doctor's struggle while carrying out Caesarean section Khadija in there.

Fifteen minutes into the operation, we heard the sound of a tiny baby crying from inside. And at that moment I and others expressed their gratitude to Allah SWT for the operation. Even so happy without realizing that I and Yulian were hugging each other.