A Piece of the Past In White Grey
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I can no longer cover. About how I felt about Gara and all my efforts to stay away from him. I was shocked to hear my story at length. But that's not what I'm thinking right now. I don't care how Sela will look at me anymore. Here my heart is a mess made by Gara.

“Agatha, you why torture yourself so anyway?” My crying stopped when I heard Sela's words. His hand even brushed my shoulder slowly. He was really comfortable talking.

“You are not a sibling or a step-brother. Admit that feeling and keep it up. No one will be angry, Agatha. I'm sure Om and Auntie would understand how you feel. After all, it is natural that feeling grows you live on one roof without any blood ties. It's very hard to avoid. The blooded ones sometimes have trouble limiting their hearts.” Sela's long words made me stare at her deeply.

“How can you say that, Cell? I'm Gara's sister. Am I a child who does not know thank you to Mami and Papi, love their child. I owe them so much. It's a shame that I'm going beyond my limits, Sel.” Heads down.

If only I were a child of a decent and honorable person, maybe I would confidently confess my feelings. But I do realize where it came from. Even to this day I don't know where my real father is. To look for him I have absolutely no intention. It was enough of my suffering with Mamah before without her caring about our fate.

“Agatha, your Mommy and your Papi are good and educated people. Their minds are broad. It is impossible to question your debt or who you are. What is clear is that since childhood they have been well educated. It could be your return to them by loving their children and taking care of them until old age. Kan isres.” Sela smiled. But hearing his words, I felt it was absurd. I can only shake softly.

Talking to Sela will definitely end up discussing Gara. I chose to sit quietly thinking about what I should do. At last, the school hours were almost here. I got ready in Sela's room and called Mikael. Asked him to pick me up. Hoping with a lot of time that we spent my feelings on Gara would disappear by itself.

“Tha, where are you going?” Sela ran after me out of the room.

“You go to campus. I go first, huh? Thanks for the ride.” my word passed away. Sela who continued to chase until the main door was forced to stop.

“Ikut dong. How come Mikael is the same? I can be in the back too.” Sela gave a flirtatious smile looking at the man who had already gotten out of his car.

Mikael looks handsome. I refused Sela's request. It was enough last night that Papi let Mikael down. This time no one can bother us. And I'll prove it to Gara if I can be with a good man too.

Okay, this time I'm gonna apologize to Mikael about last night. And then I'll accept Mikael if he wants me to be his girlfriend. Because I can't stand in the way of all this.

“You're out crying?” mikael asked when we were in the car.

“Hah? No.” I replied quickly.

Mikael just smiled faintly at my answer.

“Em about last night I'm sorry, Mik. Papi I was so because I was too afraid I could not be treated as good as Mario used to be.” said I felt bad when I said it.

“It’s okay. That's not a problem kok.” We both enjoyed the trip to campus feeling equally awkward.

Obviously I saw the moment Mikael's hand moved to grab my hand. He held my hand without me stopping. It feels normal to me. I don't know why I don't feel nervous at all right now.

“Tha, I want to say something to you..”.

“Gosh!” I screamed in shock. Not only did Mikael continue his words suddenly a car blocked our trip. And Mikael who reflexively stopped the car suddenly made me scream.