SYAHDU (Contract Sleep Friends)
Planned Run

...PoV Syahdu Larasati's...

I opened the door slowly as the two people had already switched topics.

"It's over?" Sapa Arvian's. She smiled sweetly at me. But in my eyes, her smile was like mocking that I was just Arga's whore. That bad thought came after I heard Arga's words just now.

Arga looked back. A faint smile appeared on his lips as he looked at me.

"If so, let's go back, bro. Thanks, yes." Arga stood up, preparing to leave.

"Yes-yes. After this you no longer need to worry like that, yes. Hehe."

Arvian then stood looking at me. "It's been explained, isn't it, same nurse?"

I nodded slowly. I also had a lot of talk about this KB paired. Until it lasts how long, and what are the side effects.

I feel, being me is too sad. If I am pregnant, then it must be aborted even though the bad effects are very large for the health of my uterus. Then now, to prevent pregnancy, I'm the one who has to run KB while she - I glanced at Arga cold-relaxed and laughed carelessly.

But well, here's the deal I've been working on since the beginning, on the grounds of my grandmother's recovery. Therefore, if grandma really healed later, I will run.

"Lo's still in shock, yeah." Arga asked as we walked down the aisle of the hospital. He asked because he saw me still limp and lethargic.

"Gue is so relieved. Huh.. Thankfully, I can't imagine being pregnant. Now I don't worry anymore. Lo inget, what Arvian said earlier. If you feel that there is a"

"I'll go to the toilet first." I cut the sentence. My head was still dizzy, plus hearing Arga's rant made me nauseous. I immediately stepped towards the toilet arrow.

"OKAY. I'll wait in the lobby."

He replied, while I was in the toilet. Wash your hands for a while, then quietly look at yourself in the mirror.

Depressing. Those words kept appearing in my head. It turns out I've been so pathetic all along. Even in the eyes of Arga.

He used to say I was different. I'm not like a whore. But it's only on Arga's tongue. In the end she still thinks of me as her personal whore.

I looked at my mirroring smile in the mirror. Yeah, well, what'd you think you were all this time, Syahdu? To make yourself a hire for an Arga, for the cost of a hospital that has almost reached 1 billion in three months, and you still consider yourself a good woman who deserves respect?

Heh. God fucking. I don't know why my heart feels so tight. I wanted to cry, but I held it. I've been crying for a few days and I'm tired of tears.

I looked at my face in the mirror. I clenched my hands tightly. It was my fault that Arga judged men differently. To be honest, I was actually amazed at him. He never refused my request. He always followed, even when he looked upset.

Actually, I had another thought for Arga. I can at least feel Arga's affection for me. Concern, attention.

But, all of that turned out to be a lie so that I felt at home with him.

Haha. I laughed without a sound, until my tears came out on their own. Idiotically. Syahdu is stupid. I curse myself, which is easily fooled.

Having satisfied. I wash my face and get out of the toilet. My steps stopped when I saw Arga chatting with someone. My eyes narrowed. The naya?

I hurriedly pulled out the mask and lowered the hat to a part of my face. Then walk out quickly. Fortunately Naya turned her back, and I could see Arga staring at me walking.

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"Where, mbak?" Ask the taxi driver when I close the door.

"Hospital of Our Hope, sir."

The driver nodded, then ran the car.

Thank goodness I could go home alone. Because I don't know how to behave with Arga for a while. Though I should be able to relax, because what Arga said was true. I don't know why I'm disappointed.

My phone shook, I immediately picked up the phone from Brother Wicak.

'Shahdu, where?'

"Ah, I'm the way to the hospital, sis."

'This, her rented mother called me. He said he wanted to continue, didn't he? It's been three months, right?'

I'll shut up for a second. Grandma's gonna get well, I definitely need a home. But I have other plans.

'Hello, Syahdu.'

"Ee. yes, brother. Continue aja. I'm there now take the money, yeah."

'Meet me at the city park. We'll go together. Can?'

Well, whatever. I don't care anymore. This time I want to think about myself and my grandmother. I'll leave town as soon as I can.

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"Sister.."

I approached Brother Wicak who was sitting alone on a park bench. She smiled sweetly when she saw me.

I sat next to him. He said nothing, only helping me tidy up the hairdo that flew in my face. Then, looking at me long enough.

"You still sick?"

I shook my head quickly, even though my head was still dizzy. But he doesn't want to worry.

"Well eat?" Ask and I shake again.

"Why? Still no taste, huh? What do you want to eat, let me buy you."

Ah, this guy is nothing. He's the best.

I leaned my head on Wicak's shoulder. Comfortable. Then I hugged his arm tightly. Nothing, Wicak, I'm really lucky.

"Capek, huh?" Brother Wicak stroked my head. "If you are tired, you need to rest. I don't want you to get sick. Strong women also have a power limit, right?"

I smiled while closing my eyes. Strong women. He always said that.

"Sister."

"Yes." Yeah."

"Come on, we're out of town."

Quietest. It seems she still keeps looking at me who's leaning on her.

"I don't like this city, and its people."

"What's wrong? Is anyone hurting you?"

I raised my head, looking into worried eyes.

"No. I just feel like city life is not much better than our village. I want to go to a village far from urban, beautiful village without people's gossip."

Smile again. "There is none, Syahdu. Everywhere there must be people who don't like us."

I kept quiet because what Brother Wicak said was true.

"Ah, but, I once wanted to take you running, anyway."

"Huh?"

Lizard laughed. "First, when my mother denied me contact with you, I thought I wanted to take you away. So that no one can find us. Weird, huh?"

A smile expands on my lips. Funnier. It turns out he used to think that way too.

"Where are you?" Tanyaku later.

"The name is Tebatu village. It's still beautiful there. Away from the people we know."

"Who do you know who the village is from?"

"Temen. There's a village there. But he's not at home. There's no electricity, let alone an HP signal."

I'm nodding. Could, too. Thought.

"If grandma's healed, I want to stay there." Overshipped.

"We go together, will we?" Take Wicak with vigor, and I nodded quickly. Ja. I want to move there with Brother Wicak and also grandma. We stayed there, forgetting all the growing burdens of my mind.

TB