SYAHDU (Contract Sleep Friends)
Posttraumatic Stress Disorder

Syahdu dragged his suitcase, walking on the airport floor. Ever since their conversation last night, Arga hasn't spoken. Then when Syahdu left, Arga tried to persuade Syahdu again.

Various sentences and ways Arga issued for Syahdu to survive, but the girl remained in her decision, that she did not want to be with Arga and live in the city, for the same reason, that she did not want to be with him, that is guilt for Wicak who died 7 years ago.

Syahdu sat on the bench after the successful check-in he did. He's pensive. This is not the fault of Wicak. From the beginning it was his fault. Betraying and lying to Wicak many times, who despite having heard the ugliness of Syahsu but still chose to survive. Since the time of his accident, Syahdu also promised to accept any condition Wicak who also want to receive it back. But baby, at that moment Wicak went to leave him forever.

Shortly after that, Syahdu again accepted the fact that Arga would marry someone else. He can't lie to himself that he's also broken and it's hard to accept that Arga is leaving.

Up to the peak where he, for the first time, gave himself happily to Arga, and could feel that he also loved Arga, making him like a selfless man. Because where he had to run because he felt guilty to Wicak who had not one week died.

Without feeling Syahdu tears again melted. He immediately removed it, right along with a clap on his shoulder made Syahdu aghast.

"Shew?"

The girl turned her head, finding that a big man was already sitting next to her. He thought for a moment, then his eyes were rounded when he remembered the man who used to be thin and now had a thick body.

"Sister.. Khairul?"

The man smiled, then started to open the conversation.

"A long time no see." He said he was making small talk, without caring about Syahdu trying to wipe away the tears.

"Aah. Ja. How are you, brother?" Ask Syahdu with his voice.

"good. You how? Never looked at it again, you see."

"Flooding, brother."

"Help yourself, huh? But it's better now, isn't it?"

Syahdu just smiled. His gaze was straight ahead, recalling the time when he and Khairul were waiting for Wicak in the hospital.

The two of them remained silent for quite a while, until a sigh could be heard from Khairul's mouth.

"You're great. Can survive up here. I actually used to worry, because what I was horrified, you just left your grandmother, 3 days later Wicak who followed you."

Shahdu smiled again. All of that has been passed and he is grateful because there are indeed important roles that make it last so far.

"You... have you been back with Arga?"

The question made Syahdu look over. What say? Why did Khairul ask about that? Syahdu did not blink looking at Khairul.

"Haha. Don't look at me rich, dong. Most of the campus at that time also knew that Arga who suddenly became an Artist was singing for you. Spread that news. Don't know, right or wrong. But if according to what Wicak said first, it should be."

Again, Syahdu was wide-eyed. A wicker? What did that guy say??

"I thought you were going to Arga after Wicak died. I don't know if I was wrong. Arga's been looking for you through song, for years. Sorry yes, to accuse you of the non-no."

"Wicak.. said what, brother?" Tanya Syahdu.

"Witch, huh? The feeling is strong, anyway. Maybe the effect of love times, yes. So, he can see your change." Reveal Khairul, making Syahdu again subdued his gaze.

Back to Syahdu tears. His sight was blurred because of the already thickened water.

"Highly, when he followed you into one of the buildings, which he said Arga also lived there."

DEG!

Syahdu's heart was beating fast. The incident had been many years but still made Syahdu tremble. He could not imagine how Wicak felt at that moment. He could not bear it until his tears fell down.

"That was enough to shock him. But strangely he can still smile when he meets you. And.. All I remember until now, he said, even if you left him for Arga, he was sincere that the man had more feelings than him. He can accept that the man is genuinely affectionate with you, not toying with you."

Syahdu. He couldn't control it when his shoulders were shaken. True said Nani, all this time Wicak already knew his relationship with Arga, but the man was very smart to hide his feelings.

Maybe all this time Wicak only knew Syahdu and Arga were often together, and dismissed the bad shadow about the distant relationship between the two. Then when Syahdu was honest with what happened, that's when Wicak was angry because it turned out that Syahdu betrayed him, and Arga toyed with his girl.

"Shahdu, sorry. I didn't mean to make you rich.."

Syahdu received the tissue Khairul recommended. He finished his cry like it never dried up when it came to Wicak.

"Neverything, brother. I know." she replied in a loud voice.

"When you left and Arga took your nyari, only I knew that you weren't rich what people thought." He said, without knowing what really happened.

"Syahdu, Arga is really looking for you, right? You see, last night, at his concert, I heard he called your name that was present. And I see you're here now.. Then, you actually met Arga? But why are you even here? Want to go again?" Khairul asked with curiosity.

Syahdu nodded, while cleaning up the running water on his nose.

"Why?"

"I can't. Brother Wicak continues to be present in my dreams." The answer was short, for it was impossible for him to tell Khairul everything.

"If I think, it's because you're too psyched and carried away by the past. Wicak was also calm there. He also won't like it if you continue to be sad like this. Have you ever tried Pskiater?" Ask Khairul to Syahdu.

The pskiater? Syahdu frowned, "I-I mean, brother?"

"Postatrauma stress disorder. Your burden is so heavy that you can't escape it."

Syahdu. Whatisit? He doesn't understand. But the heavy burden Khairul said, it was true. Too heavy until the beginning of the incident made Syahdu tears continue to spill non-stop. Nani also admitted that, even in sleep she still cried unconsciously.

"Nightmare, restlessness, depressed mood. That, right?"

Syahdu could not answer Khairul's words. What the man said was true. Even Syahdu himself could not describe his feelings that appeared to be a sudden heartache. Difficulty sleeping well because sometimes the dream continues to appear. The same dream, which sometimes makes her tears melt while asleep.

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