Hating Love
My Presence is Like Your Shadow

It turns out that from the beginning you and I were never together.

There's still so much you've hidden from me, there's so much I don't know about you. It's my fault for trusting too much in your presence that you're totally devoted to me, but in fact you never thought you existed.

I am too much of a dream as if I really have you but actually I am also the one who distanced myself from you because of my selfishness.

It seems like I have to start closing my heart. There was no point in my struggle all this time. Keeping it like an antique glass glass but in his eyes I was just a bottle of junk that was often scattered on the road boat.

From the beginning I had too many dreams about you. Perhaps my biggest mistake was getting to know you and making you special in my life but my presence was like your shadow.

The difference between me and the shadow is that the shadow is present in your light while I am present in your darkness like the light of a star at night.

I know I'm not as special as him, in your eyes I'm nothing. I realized my existence was just a complement when he was gone, when he left you looked for me here and there wishing he was next to you but in fact there was only me beside you waiting for you to comfort you and make you laugh again. Even though I don't know what you're really feeling. I do not feel the presence of you when I am with you, now we have been separated no longer by distance or time but by my existence which you do not appreciate. I'm sorry for everything that happened if there was a mistake in me that made you hurt please forgive me because I don't know what made you this way.

There's no trust between us, you don't trust me anymore and I don't trust you anymore. So what does all this have for? You and I exist for trust and now everything has disappeared so I'm sorry if I slowly dodge and stay away not for no reason but to be honest I'm a little disappointed with your recent attitude. I don't know what to do but I know that I'm no longer needed so I've decided to step back slowly I'll walk away from you leaving you alone but if you need my help, I'll take it, I will always be ready to be by your side and be the first to lend a hand to you. Whether you accept it or not I don't care but when you ask for my help I will still be around you and willing to help you. Hopefully without me you will be fine.

I hope my departure leaves no deep wounds in you may this departure not be a regret in your heart but with these words I make sure I will recycle your departure and learn to come back alone because from the beginning without you from before knowing you I am a lonely person who does not care about insults and nothing I struggle with but a life full of happiness and possessions until I get to know you, what I'm after is no longer happiness but how I can protect you without the pain and hurt of being hurt by others.

I'm still there for you I'm behind you, I'm your shadow that will never leave even in the dark.

Happy fighting my beloved...