When My Bed Shakes Back
3. Trying Strong

...Happy Reading's...

When Sabrina was still taking me medicine in the kitchen, suddenly there was a soft voice of a middle-aged woman who I loved so much like my own real mother.

" Kiddo... Why are you? are you sick? why are you so weak?"

She was my mother-in-law, a loving mother who cared for me, cared for me and loved me more than she cared for her own children.

" Mom." Mommy."

I was immediately taken into his arms, without feeling my tears immediately spill there, I don't know what it would be if he knew his son's behavior and more painful again, one day if I had to lose him, he said, I can't seem to imagine all that.

He is a figure who can be invited to chat seriously, sometimes can be like a friend, like mother even he is a role model who is very wise. But I don't know why William could be like this.

Could this be my fault? but my husband didn't say anything to me, how could I know where my faults and sins lie?

" God... You got a cry, son? must be really sick, huh? where William is, why didn't you see him, sick wife left behind, why the hell was he?"

Again busy making love mah, even in my room, a place that every day I use to pray for the happiness of my small family.

I seemed unable to enter the room of the remnants of their romance tonight.

Of course mamah immediately sewot, let alone seeing me weak helpless as if there was no blood flowing in my body.

" This is Gem's medicine, take it first."

Sabrina even ran towards me barefoot, she was carrying medicine and a bottle of mineral water in her hand, whether she threw her high heels.

I am so grateful that, when I fell down and betrayed the person I love the most, God still gave Sabrina to comfort me and accompany me every step of the way.

" What are you sick about, son?"

My mother-in-law even helped me massage my head slowly, after one painkiller had entered my throat.

" Aunty's heartache."

Sabrina is indeed a person who often talks about ceplas ceplos, especially when being emotional.

" Hush. You don't say that."

I immediately glared at my best friend, however it is not my mother-in-law's fault, she does not know anything about this, she has raised William's mas lovingly, maybe William was the wrong one.

" It's real, right?"

Sabrina made my mother-in-law more confused, her face looked doubtful and wanted to ask, but Sabrina's face looked unfriendly, so I think my mother held her back, because she was a very sensitive figure of parents.

" Yes, let me find Willian first yeah, you just wait here."

" Don't mah!" I immediately pulled his arm, I was afraid to see Mamah hurt by the behavior of her son.

" Loh... Why the hell, son, what's wrong?"

" Just let the Gem time, what the hell to cover up, he's emph..."

I immediately poured the remaining mineral water I drank into his mouth while pressing my teeth to him.

" You're thirsty like Na, drink a lot of water to drink."

" Why, son, is there something you cover from mama?" Mom looked confused from now on.

" No, no, nothing."

Trying to stay strong is something I have to do now and never know when.

" Why are you gathering here? is there a mommy too?"

" What are you doing? don't you see if your wife's not feeling well like this?" Surely Mamah immediately nagged my husband, because I was his favorite daughter-in-law who always made him laugh.

" really? you sick yank? it was okay, wasn't it? going to the hospital now?"

" No, I'm just a little dizzy, a short break might be better.

My husband came straight at me, the fragrant fragrance of my favorite soap splashed from his body, it seemed like he had taken a bath after an illegitimate ferocious battle for him.

" Aish.. My eyes suddenly hurt, my body creeps here, I stay ahead yes Gem, healthy fast, let strong face reality."

Sabrina is a very difficult person to hide the feeling, if she already hates someone, just seeing that she does not like it, finally Sabrina chose to leave us in the living room, but I was relieved, he said, since I have a lot to do before the time comes, I will unload all the crazy behavior of my husband and sister-in-law.

" You want to rest in the room?" My husband checked my temperature by sticking his hands around me and gently rubbing my cheeks.

Our eyes meet each other, the look of the shade that always makes me fall in love repeatedly with it I look back, without feeling my tears just flow.

" Dear, what's sick? how come you cry like this?"

" Hmm. My head hurts a little bit mas."

It's not my head that hurts, but my heart that's broken by your uncontrollable madness.

No I doubt, if the attention of William mas nothing changed from the beginning I became his wife until now, he always spoiled me even though I often bring and whine to come here, bought this, bought it, he always followed even though he looked upset.

Is he too tired to face my childish nature like that? I thought that if I used to talk to her she would always miss my laughter, but I was wrong, after I thought, well, maybe it was all my fault.

But isn't he able to advise me, speaking from heart to heart with me, I will definitely be able to understand slowly, because of my affection with him even to what extent I can't measure as deeply.

That's why, when he betrayed me, the pain was so great, even at a time like this I couldn't bear to hate him.

He's been my heart's backrest all along, the man I really trusted after Lewis and Sabrina's brother, and now it's getting a little bit eroded.

But I cannot be weak, the weaker I am, the more people bully me and make me stupid, I must rise, but can I be without it?

For too long I depended on him, now I feel like I was on a boat and tossed uddy by the waves, in the middle of the high seas.

" Who was carrying into the room?"

He immediately wanted to hold me, but somehow I felt disgusted when I imagined being in his arms again, the sound of night screams himself and the woman, still ringing clearly in my ears.

" Don't do it, I'm still strong walking." Even my body feels goosebumps when it wants to be touched.

" Why, baby? you usually like me the most, don't you?"

She stroked my hair slowly as usual, whether it was sincere in heart or just in front of me, I could no longer believe it.

" I'm fine, I'm fine."

That was mas.. now it feels like I want to vomit when near you, aching mas...why did you incise a wound so deep in my heart, when I was always there for you?

Is this why you delayed my pregnancy all this time, after I had a miscarriage at the beginning of our marriage?

Have you ever since asked for me and played behind my back, with my brother-in-law or even with the others?

It feels like a thousand questions are not enough to represent how disappointed I am with this man.

The pain of being stabbed is not worth the pain of seeing you cheating in front of my eyes.

Congratulations on your betrayal that disappointed me, and thank you for reminding me of your awareness.

(Heart of the hurt wife)