When My Bed Shakes Back
112. Disillusioned

...Happy Reading's...

In front of a bonfire that was blazing gallantly, Gemintang was pensive while observing the flames that warmed the atmosphere of the night, but could not warm the heart of the Gemintang who had been frozen because of William.

While William painstakingly holds the foot of the Star and cleans his wound from dirt attached to the P3K box beside him.

Actually Gemintangpun is already careless to sit together at a time like this, especially with the atmosphere and air that is shahdu, making his mind breech to the past. But what power, somehow as if fate still wants to bring them together.

O Lord.. Why do You still meet us so often? is this a punishment, or maybe it's a test for me, to always be wary of a man, or what? I just want to keep Chris' heart, but why does he always appear to bother me in my new life.

" Are not Gem? clean up with this alcohol?"

William's voice broke the Gemintang reverie about his current lover.

" No, it's ordinary." He replied in a nonchalant tone, he still did not think, why William always appeared when he needed someone at a moment.

" Em... How does it still hurt with the wounds I made?" Ask William slowly, various ways he will do to get back the heart of the Star.

" Obviously, it's not necessary to ask again." The starry immediately smiled obliquely at the silly question from her ex-husband.

" If you were a doctor? mas will create a medicine that can heal the wound, until it can, even if you have to dive into any ocean, mas will do everything for you!" Said William steadily.

" Heleh.want mas nyari in pharmacies around the world will never be able to find it!"

" Then how about if I just let go of this precious heart mas for you, we exchange hearts let mas who feel the pain, mas already refresh the heart mas with new kok, kok, guaranteed ori and won't hurt you again, promise me?"

William tried to make the atmosphere comfortable, without any debate.

" How's the nuker? you want to joke or what?" Gemintang just smiled slanted to respond, he seemed not to care anymore with all his seduction.

" Well that's it, hehe. has long since not seen you smile and laugh just for mas, why are you so evil the Gem, every night always make the heart mengindu always, always, I'm so sorry to know Gem." William spoke as sweetly as possible, not difficult for him, because he used to be the most able to take the heart of the Star when he was angry.

" Ckk.. it's already mas, no need for more nonsense in front of me, will not affect me also mas." The star chose to throw his gaze far into the forest there, rather than having to stare at the face of his past.

" I'm sorry Gem. I'm sorry, emm. I know, even though a thousand words sorry you didn't accept, but I still want to apologize to you, I'm sorry Gem, I'm sorry, I'm a fool not thinking about everything in the future."

Although he also understood, if regret behind it was useless, but from the bottom of William's heart, he still wanted to tell Gemintang that he was really very sorry.

" I'm short-spoken, sorry now won't change anything!"

Whatever happens, Gemintang still wants to fight for his future, he does not want to fall back into the same hole, even though the old road is no longer hollow though, he said, he will continue his journey down a new path.

" But your adek is still long Gem, even though you never wear it again?" William tried to make a joke, even though it seemed crisp.

" Massh!" Gemintang immediately glared irritatedly at him, it was possible that he would discuss such a thing at this time.

Already his brain had just been poisoned by the sound of the villages of Han Peter and Sabrina, plus came a man of the past who even reminded about his favorite goods first if night fell.

" Hehe.. mas kangen also saw you pout like that!" William even propped his handsome face with both hands in front of the Star who even became increasingly sewer because of his behavior.

Satan, husss... Please get out of here, don't let me look back to this dark past, Chris...

" It's okay like my feet, I'm going back to my tent."

Because not to be lulled by his sweet words, Gemintang decided to return to the Tent, although maybe have to see a new drama again he thought.

" Later Gem, here I go first, you must be tired right up the hill earlier? in the past, if it was not stepped on, his sleep was not calm, turning right, turning left, muter continues, right?"

William even holds both legs Gemintang by force and kneels slowly, indeed can not be denied Gemintang, that William always knows what he needs every time.

" I'm tired of having to argue with you."

" Yes, don't argue dong, even though I'm not Doraemon who has a time player machine, but can't the Gem if we are friends again from the beginning, make friends Gem, just make friends?"

" Can't dong mas."

" I'm not forcing you to accept this handsome me, I just want you to take revenge with me, whatever you want me, I'm resigned, the important thing is that you are satisfied, even if you want to use mas to shaman, so that mas only crazy with you mas willing, what are the conditions so that mas love, want photos, hair, hair, clothes or whatever it is mas bawain, if you need to mas anterin you go to the Shamun all of you, how? when do we leave?"

William even seemed to surrender himself and resigned with the Gemintang, if only he would be willing.

" Pfftthh... Mas this is crazy or what? just the time someone asked for his own use, wonder." Gemintang finally smiled amusedly himself, feeling funny with the words of her ex-husband.

I miss your smile, baby...

" Yes Alloh Gem... You are so beautiful, thank you for laughing at me huh? do you want to wear a clown suit so you can keep laughing?" William was happy to see her.

" What the hell, don't be crazy!" The stars laugh more.

" Or do you want to see that K-Pop-style mas nari? I could look at me. How do you like that? bada bing bada boom.. boom.. how you like that, teret!"

" Ahahahaha..stop mas, don't go crazy dong!"

" Gem... You've met my personal doctor, haven't you? yesterday he told me that he'd met you and asked about my illness, right?" Suddenly William changed the topic to come back serious.

" Hmm.." The star just nodded his head.

" That means you already know why I'm such a craze?"

" Dad.."

Gemintang does want to forget all about him, but somehow there are things that make him pity.

" I'm not making it an excuse to persuade you, the important thing is that you know, that I'm like that not because of my personal desire or not my intention to torture you, even when I came into contact with Farah, when I closed my eyes, it was your face that appeared there. My body has been with him many times, but my heart has always been for you Gem, unchanged from before until now."

" But we can't be together anymore." The star turned it down again.

" At least we can be friends, right Gem?" Pinta William very much.

" Can't either!"

Because according to him, the relationship between men and women will not be able to be friends only, there will certainly be affairs of feelings that underlie their relationship one of them.

" We are partners of the Gem, chatter or joke friends are okay, the coffee was so deh, as long as you can see you smile."

" I already have someone I have to take care of, I know, I was loyal to only one person? until now the same mas, if there is already one does not want to find the other."

Gemintang did not want to give her the slightest hope, but William was never saggy in chasing her back.

Maybe that's why William used to easily let go of his wife, because no matter how strong he was to maintain their relationship, he said, he would definitely lose the trial with such strong evidence and that would definitely only make the Starlings even more resentful towards him.

" Was fast as a Gem?" William asked with a clear face, because he felt he was someone who was easily forgotten.

" When there's someone who's always there for me and helps me heal my heart, why should I refuse?"

" What shall I do to make amends Gem, that you may believe that I have repented?" William was still clinging to his wishes

" Can it? why not just before? we've been married for five years, and I don't know how many years I've been in contact with Farah, why not then? then now what can I believe again?"

" Gem... It wasn't that easy against my crazy nafsv that Gem was, I just didn't want you to get hurt again because of my ferocity, please understand."

" And now? with whom did you vent that depraved nafsv mas?"

Finally what makes him curious lately can get the answer he thought.

" God Gem... Can you not trust me anymore?" William actually refused to be honest about this one problem.

" What do you think is that easy to restore the trust of the mas, after all what happened?" Gemintang just curious, want to be answered or not about the question he will still reject William.

" I've been injecting drugs for a while, so I don't breathe anymore with that Gem."

But it seems that indeed he must say his sacrifice, so that the Gemintang can believe.

" HUH?" Gemintang was immediately surprised, although he did not know exactly what the drug was, but he really did not expect if William could do it.

" You can ask my doctor directly, if you still don't believe me!"

Up anyway?

" Your, why?"

" Because I want Gem's penance, I want to improve myself and that's the only way to prove it with you, I'm not like Gem, please trust me."

" Whatever it is, it's all gone, we can't go back to how it used to be, anyway and whatever the way, still can't mas."

" Yes... I just want to start a new friendship with you, just for friend Gemintang, without having to hate each other, okay?"

William reached for the two Gemintang fingers to plead, so that their relationship would still be fine, even if only as friends.

And it turns out, from a distance Chris saw the two of them with the glint of his two eyes that seemed fiery, without knowing what they were talking about.

Relationship is not always smooth. Various exams often come up to test the loyalty of a partner. And maybe this is what happened in the relationship of Chris and Gemintang which is still a corn.

Disappointment instantly re-emerged in him, as if what he was doing was all in vain. Because it will be easier to forgive ordinary people than to forgive the wounds given by loved ones

This time he deliberately only watched her from afar, did not want to hit her, or even get angry again with them. He chose to be quiet.

But when the two hands of the Gemintang were grabbed by William, and from a distance they looked at each other, that is where Chris walked back slowly and finally went running away from the place, without wanting to know what they are talking about.

It turns out that it is true, the highest point of disappointment for someone is Silence. Because I want to talk like I feel like there's no point anymore.

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see. But you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.