GREY MARNI
The Blaze of Confusion

The two were with Rudi on a boat floating on the calm sea water. The south direction is full of glittering urban lights and the north direction presents the most beautiful scenery, a long-stretched bridge with sparkling lights.

Salsa looked happy, tightly holding onto Rudi's cold hand by the air. Rudi was amazed to spread his eyes in the dark of night with the glitter of lights and stars. How Rudi watches over Salsa with the naked eye, fusing many things including misery.

"Sa.." call Rudi slowly.

"What's up Rud!" answer Salsa.

"It seems I'm in love with you,"

"We haven't fallen in love before."

"Hahaha, I just want to make sure of one thing,"

"What's that?"

"Are you going to mind if I invite you to share a breath for the rest of my life?"

"I'm yours if that's what you want." replied Salsa by leaning her head against Rudi's shoulders.

They are united in the beauty of time, holding hands and being silent. Where beauty meets. Rudi has not yet started his story, he waits for time for such a complicated thing.

"Rude! Am I good enough as a woman?" ask Salsa slowly.

"There's nothing to doubt about a woman like you."

"Hahaha, don't overdo it. I'm afraid there's a regret."

"If there's the worst regret of my life, maybe it's that I didn't know you before"

"Hahaha, did any poet possess you?"

For a moment they were joking and trying to understand each other. Deeper discussion and leading to the speech of the heart. Slowly Rudi felt it was time for him to tell Salsa the truth.

Rudi allowed his sitting position.facing Salsa and holding both hands and staring intently at both eyes.

"What's up Rud?" Ask Salsa.

"Emmm... Promise me you'll listen until it's over."

"All right"

".... Actually my name is not Rudi, but Doni. I'm the son of a fishmonger who eats a lot at the restaurant you work at..."

"Well! Don't worry.." cut out the salsa.

"Listen first." said Rudi by putting his thumb in Salsa's lips. Salsa also nodded.

"I have no plans other than to wander here and find a woman who will accompany me for the rest of my life. Even my father came to your restaurant, it wasn't on the basis of my knowledge. I didn't know about it until the first time you told me."

"Yes, I left the company I used to manage to run for three months. After three months I will decide to go back and take care of my father's company again."

"I still don't believe your story, are you really the son of Salman the salmon king?"

"Yes, I'm serious! About everything I'm really serious"

Salsa was silent after hearing Rudi's story. As if not believing and as if being joked by Rudi. Salsa does not know what response he will give to Rudi or at this time he knows as Doni.

"Sa! Are you gonna be mad at me?" Ask Rudi slowly.

"No! No. gabe... I'm just confused, how do I call you? How should I do to you? How should I respond to your story? I'm confused Rud!" Salsa said by holding her head and turning her eyes away from Rudi.

"Call me as you please, do as you please, respond as you please. I love every single thing about you."

"Take me home, I need some time to think"

"Alright.." answered Rudi spontaneously.

Without asking or telling Salsa to stay with him, Rudi complied with Salsa's request. Rudi drove Salsa home to her doorstep; Salsa entered without saying a word. Rudi too so, he just kept quiet and slowly left Salsa's room.

Walk slowly to his room and pick up the guitar.

Rudi plays irregular guitar strings. The resulting melody was filled with endless darkness. There was nothing on his mind, he was not trying to guess what Salsa would say, he was not thinking about how this would go. He only plays guitar with a blank look and occasionally smokes cigarettes.

...****************...

...Will I find the blue sky tomorrow?...

...After I poured so much ink up there?...

...There is no light in this heart...

...Full of resignation and hope that is still gray...

...Maybe even an orange afternoon will be reluctant to meet me...

...I left everything to you...

...I'm handing everything to you...

...***************...

The night was so cold and silent, there was no sound from the night birds staying up. Salsa and Rudi looked at each other at the roof of the room in confusion in silence until they fell asleep in the dark eyes closed.

They both rest each other body and mind. Salsa with a shadow of distrust and Rudi full of emptiness. He just wanted to come back with the flowers he had picked from the blasphemy fields.

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