
"Well, what a nightmare is this? I have never dated anyone. She was suddenly accused of being about 5 months pregnant. My stomach is flat. Who the hell's been framing?"
"Imagine the viewers, I have to get married all of a sudden just like people who don't love each other. Where I'm just the bride replacement of my twin again. It's not funny, it's sadistic. Argh.." - ...." I said that I kept getting indistinctly angry in front of the mirror in my room. My hair has been shuffled unclear because of crying.
Each individual creature has a different life journey. But often when we are in trouble, we always assume that life is never fair. In fact, life is always side by side, between happy and sad, between problems and solutions, between grateful and kufur. Whatever we go through, that is our journey. Allah has said, And (remember) when your Lord declares, "Verily if you are grateful, then I will add (merciful) to you, but if you deny (my mercy), then my punishment must be very heavy."
For me, it will be very difficult to accept something that always goes against me. I have a non-identical twin sister, her name is Alesha Adnan. We were born about 7 minutes apart. Almost everything in us is different, nothing in common. Our common ground lies only in the same day, date, and year of birth. The rough way, which I like he hates and vice versa. What he likes I don't like.
In fact, my existence is just a shadow that my own parents never wanted. I feel like I'm just hitching a ride in Mama's womb. After I was born, I lived without their love. My life being Alisha Adnan was the hardest.
I grew up ambitious in every way, just because I wanted to be recognized by my parents. Until my best friend always warned me not to charge all my energy.
"Ck, Al,"
"Alisha Adnan, please beat me up first!" you are not tired of what, keep learning? We are just capital mgeliatin you are already tired." Azura said that she was already upset earlier. They chose me wrongly as their best friend. Those who are too relaxed lean towards being lazy, while I am a very ambush person. We are equally intelligent, but the way is different. They just breathe immediately understand what is explained by the lecturer. While I really need to focus on understanding the material described by the lecturers. We are entering the third semester of Fashion Designer at one of the leading private universities.
"Not yet, it's only been three hours." Obviously I did not look at their faces at once to answer them casually.
"Lagian yes Al, Sunday was held for rest, not even an ambition to learn. If you keep learning, when is the break?" Sabiya finally opened her mouth after successfully spending a jar of 200 milli.
"His name is also ambian" I said.
"Well, I'm tired of telling you to stop studying. You know, the weirdest guy in the world knows? Other people are allergic to learning, well you're a hobby of learning." Azura said to Sabiya. I intentionally make them nag like that, the sign is they are the same attention I am. Because no one is watching me at home. The weird thing I ever wanted was, I wanted Mama or Papa to tell me to study. But unfortunately, I was just their shadow.
"Is not learning good? moreover, Indonesian literacy is very low. Even according to UNESCO data, Indonesians who like to read it is only 0.001 percent. Just shadow, if for example we do not learn, automatically will be lazy to read."
"At least I belong to humans in a rare percentage of 0.001 percent." Obviously, they both nodded not understanding, but resigned.
"Don't be too ambitious Deh Al, learning can be smart, but rest is necessary. If you continue to grow up like this, you may get sick." Azura-Si said human advisor among our friendships.
"Remember, everything that is excessive is not good. At that time, I was watching videos of students or students dying, as a result of most learning." Sabiya said, just why did he say, do not poison me to study Al, I was too allergic to see every design material. Surprisingly the boy even plunged into the world of fashion. Even though on campus always sleep or massage the head. Miraculously again, when there is a quiz or a sudden test, the value is always high.
"Keep, you want me to die? What kind of best friend are you two?" I said tidying up the binder book and the ballpoint pen and cell phone in the blue dongker denim backpack.
"Well, because by chance my neck is also sore, I'm done. Thank you for the ride home Azura is kind. Before you kicked me out of your house, I thank you for everything." I said very dramatic.
"I have great respect for your advice. But this time I'm sorry, because I won't hear what you say. You're always upset why I'm always desperately studying, desperately wanting to be the best, I'll give you a reason."
"We are tired of hearing your reasons that make us more emotional" said Azura.
"This time no, I'll tell you the truth. You don't know anything that actually happened to me." I said I made the two of them immediately put on a serious face listening to my continued explanation.
"I'm doing all this because I want to be seen in Mama's and Papa's eyes, if I'm his son." Obviously I made them instantly silent without a twist. I did lose a lot to Alesha, my twin. Alesha is beautiful, beautiful. Smart, liked by many people including the golden boy Mama and Papa. Height is about 175 inches, his nose is really sharp not bent. His skin was slightly reddish white, especially when he was in the sun, he would look very charming like a Caucasian.
I was just a shadow between the lives of those around me, like a shadow that would never be considered special. That's me, that's me,
...Sha & Sha...
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