DISPUTE OF HEART
No Must Always

From a distance Briyan looked at the back of Asha who was now busy looking up at the head staring at the sky, the cold air of the peak getting night biting more, making Asha more and more close the thick cloth made of soft feathers on his body. 

Tonight, after finishing the fires and eating with everyone decided to go to sleep in their respective rooms, but Asha was still at home staring at the night sky more dark. 

Briyan could only stare at Asha from a considerable distance away, unable to get close because of the fear that dominated her, fearing that Asha would stay away from her or hate her even more if Briyan desperately approached Asha again. 

“Sha ... how much time do you spend in solitude?” Briyan stared at Asha's back, her eyes almost glazed over when she remembered the time when she had thrown Asha away with heart. 

“How many tears have you shed for lamenting our destiny Sha?” Briyan hardened her jaw, holding all the turmoil in her heart. 

“I am the most sinful man on earth over your life Sha, I made Papah and Mamah have a bad thing to end horribly, I also made your life become like this Sha” Briyan closed his eyes, his hands felt his own eyes, these eyes are Papah's eyes, Briyan knew that.

“What should I do now Sha? What should I do so that I can atone for all my sins for you?” 

The test!

Finally Briyan's tears fell as well, her heart was not that strong to endure the thousands of pain and millions of guilt that always plagued her heart. 

“I'm wrong Sha, I promise, I will always take care of you until the end of my time, no matter how you behave to me, no matter what obstacles will happen in front there” Briyan wiped his tears, his heart ached again with a body that returned to tremble when his mind always remembered the dark times, Briyan decided to go into his room, locking himself with the vibration of the body that was getting crazier. 

Meanwhile, Asha outside was still staring at the star that was twinkling above the horizon, her hands tightening the thick cloth that covered her body, initially Asha wanted to go home to his Villa which was not far from the Villa of the Briyan family, but Mamih asked Asha to stay overnight, Mamih did not let Asha live alone in his Villanya. 

“Mamah, Papah ... Asha miss” the girl shrunk the corner of her eyes, repeatedly her eyes winked with a clear liquid that began to flow. 

Asha is so longed for the figure of Mamah and Papah who lately often appear in his dreams, smiled gently at Asha and embraced Asha full of longing in a warmth that Asha never felt back. 

“Asha to be hugged Mamah and Papah” 

As strong as Asha lived her life, in fact Asha is a fragile woman, her heart is so weak, it seems that Asha is able to smile when meeting many people, laugh cheerfully and act spoiled when chatting with Mamih, she said, but Asha often wept bitterly alone when night greeted him. 

“Asha wants to join Mamah and Papah” murmured again. 

*** 

“Woooaaahhh .. good morningiiii” Asha approached Papih which is now drying her body under the morning sun, she said the morning sun contains vitamin D, and good for bones, and, Papih who is just seriously ill, of course, chooses to dry himself with a gust of wind that is so cool to calm. 

“Good morning dear, how did you sleep?” Papih smiled at Asha who this morning greeted him so cheerfully. 

“Alright, now how about we go for a walk together?” Asha prepared to push Papih wheelchair, Papih who still often felt tired even just to walk chose to use his wheelchair to help him walk. 

“Alright, we dated” Papih chuckled then nodded in agreement, finally they took a walk this morning, circling the flat streets that have now been repaired, a lot has changed from this place, he said, even tea plantations that are not far from the Villa have been built several villas that are no less magnificent. 

“Many have changed from this place” Papih opened their voices when they were already sitting by the roadside with corn burn in each hand, the air was so cold biting, so cold it bit, making Asha's teeth a little chattering but soon the girl diverted her bite to the roasted corn. The scenery is so beautiful as the eye can see, making Papih look at the green expanse far away. 

“Hmh ..” Asha nodded in agreement, with her mouth full of grilled corn. 

“The wean is old, and sickly, Papih hope between your relationship and Briyan also changed again, uhuk ... changed for the better again” Papih had coughed and held his chest slowly. 

“Pih ..” Asha kept the grilled corn, then approached Papih, glanced at the old man beside her, Asha could already guess with certainty, what words Papih would say next. 

“Papih please, Asha would like to forgive all Briyan's mistakes in the past” continued Papih expectantly. 

“Asha has forgiven Briyan Pih, from the beginning” replied Asha, his view also on the scenery that stretches far away there. 

“Really?” Papih looked up with a glowing face. 

“Of course, Papih is Asha's parent, Asha has already forgiven all the faults of Asha” Asha's family smiling sincerely.

“Thank you very much dear” Papih said with full look haru. 

“Sama-sama Pih” Asha nodded. 

“Papih hope, between your relationship and Briyan improved, you are both adults, Papih hope you can be a companion for Briyan, Papih is old, sickly, sickly, no one knows where the age of Papih will be, Papih hope you understand the purpose of Papih Nak” Papih back coughed by rubbing his chest, his speech again paused. 

Asha squatted her body, then held the handle of Papih's wheelchair, looking at Papih so gently. 

“The seed will live a long life, Asha always prays for it, as long as Asha can, Asha will always be at Briyan's side to give support and encouragement for whatever Briyan does, Papih knows right? If Papih and Mamih are also Briyan and Bintang are Asha families, as fellow families, should we accompany each other, right?”

Papih closed his eyes tightly, Papih knew exactly what Asha said.  The old man had lost his life spirit since being sentenced to be seriously ill, his dreams had become so simple, there was no longer any ambition about the world, his desire was now only to see his children happy, he said, then in his old age he will spend his time with the care of his grandchildren, just as simple as that Papih's true desire, but again reality is no longer in line with the wishes, but again, Papih has tried a lot and now Papih has lost his way. 

“Papih hope, Asha can accept Briyan back as Asha's life companion, as Asha” Papih's husband still hopes, his net will be full of requests. 

“Company and support should not always be husband and wife right Pih?”