DISPUTE OF HEART
Not Want to Surrender

“Mah! Asha wants a big jumbo sausage!” a girl runs to hug her mother's upper thighs, because her height is only up to her mother's upper thighs.

“Alright, let's burn jumbo sausage for Princess Asha” Mamah chuckled, then prepare a jumbo size sausage favorite of her daughter.

“Horeee” Asha shouts excitedly, then skips around tirelessly.

“Mah! The sausage made two! Asha wanted to share it with Kak Briyan” Asha cheered with sparkling eyes, making Mamah smile again happy, because she knew that her daughter was so happy to share.

“Alright, Mamah will make two for you and for Briyan” Mamah smiled gently, his hands were already absorbed in smearing the sausage with butter before putting it on the grill.

“Didn't Brother Briyan yesterday make Asha fall from the bike? Why does Asha still want to give Kak Briyan sausage?” Mamah crouched down stroking her daughter's hair who was now sitting on a ceramic table beside her.

“Because Asha likes Kak Briyan” with plain Asha laughs.

“Ck! My daughter has started to like the man” Mamah tickled Asha's body, until Asha laughed.

“Kak Briyan is handsome, so Asha likes” Asha again replied with his laughter is still scattered.

“oya? Which is more handsome? Brother Briyan or Papah?” Mamah looked at Asha who had just subsided from her laughter, for a moment Asha thought, then immediately replied confidently.

“Kak Briyan! Asha wants to marry Briyan!” asha replied with sparkling eyes, making Mamah shake her head, not thinking about her daughter who liked her best friend's son so much.

“Sha!”

A gentle clap from a man made Asha terjepang shocked, immediately his daydreams collapsed, Asha turned to the man who was now sitting next to her, Asha, grabbing the plate then filled it with breakfast that Bi Inah had prepared earlier.

“Ya Om?” Asha glanced at the younger brother of the Papah.

“Sha, your divorce filing has been processed by the court, if Briyan's side does not continue to complicate things, maybe things will get faster, Om hope that after everything is finished you can join Om abroad, Om can't leave you here alone”

Asha was silent, her mind wandered far away, then her gaze turned to Bi Inah who was washing dishes in the kitchen, should Asha leave everything behind?.

“Can't if Asha is here? Continuing the lecture here, no need to join Om outside Negri” Asha trying to make an offer.

“Can't Sha, Om will feel very guilty, if you don't join Om” Om Hans duck.

“It was enough before that Om made a mistake by leaving you and entrusting you first to Briyan, now let Om make up for all that guilt, he said, follow along with Om Nak” Om Hans looking at Asha with a pleading gaze.

“You will more easily forget everything, you can also start a new life that you like there Sha” Om Hans again give the lure to Asha, make Asha fixated, then nod weakly.

“Well Om”

***

“I will never divorce Asha! Whatever the reason I will never do it!” Briyan rebelled when Om Hans came back to see him, asking him to ease the process of his divorce from Asha.

“Om, Briyan please, give Briyan a chance”

Lowering his pride, pressing his ego to the bottom, Briyan stood up, then sat down in front of Om Hans who was now staring at him flat.

“I know, sometimes there are times when young people still have a very unstable attitude, I also know, sometimes young people can do things without thinking any longer, but ... I did all this is for the good of Asha, also your kindness”

Briyan raised her head, confused by everything Om Hans said.

“Try see this”

Om Hans gives a cell phone to Briyan, Briyan receives it with a wrinkled forehead.

“That is the expression of Asha when she receives every pain you inflict on Briyan, Asha has a psychological disorder, Berliana-ku is not as strong as we have seen all this time, Asha can die if she continues with you, then with this I beg you Briyan, let's just say this is a plea from a father for his daughter, or ... let's just say this is a plea from a fellow man, I beg ... divorce Asha well”

Bruk!

Briyan's body was getting mired on the floor, the man was getting more and more unhinged, his heart was in turmoil, Briyan did not know what else to do now.

“I know, I may be selfish, but .. for a Father, there would be no selfish word if it was to protect his daughter. Please watch the video then you decide for yourself later the conclusion, I hope you can decide this matter correctly, as a husband, as a man”

“Don't forget, Berliana always suffers when she is with you, you are the biggest wound for her, keep forcing her to stay by your side, just like giving a deep wound to Berliana”

Om Hans patted Briyan on the shoulder, then walked away from the body of Briyan who was still clasping with his hands tightly grasped the cellphone given by Om Hans.

“Sha ... I don't want to give up Sha”

***

Briyan sighed repeatedly, the corner of her eyes were wet, her jaw tightened, and her teeth were churning in anger.

His eyes continued to stare at a moving picture that showed Asha was rampaging because of her.

Briyan never knew, if her meeting with Raisya at school could make Asha this chaotic, even if she did, Briyan does not know how Asha struggles to cook for her and ends up destroying many things and hurting herself, when Asha knows Briyan threw away the food Asha gave her.

Briyan also just found out how many wounds on Asha's hand, when the girl fought hard to make her first clothes for Briyan.

Briyan did not know, if Asha would slice her own veins, when Briyan did not renew them at all, then Briyan's eyes caught how disappointed Asha was over every treatment of Briyan, but the girl always hid her sadness in front of Briyan. In front of her husband the girl always sulked and behaved spoiled, although ended up ignored.

Briyan's heart was so bitter when he saw every video recorded on the phone, all the videos came from CCTV in Asha's house, Briyan heaved a heavy sigh, he said, the shadow of all his evil actions on Asha again revolved, then the shadow of the murder of the two Asha parents caused by him also repeated, Briyan beat his head brutally, beating his head, the tears had washed his cheeks earlier.

Slowly his trembling hand grabbed a medicine that was on the nightstand, with the hand that almost spilled the small jar, Briyan downed the two drugs. His eyes began to close when the drug reaction began to be felt.

“Sha ... All this time I've been so selfish tying you up in prison of grief, now .. should I release you?”