Khadija
A new fantastic POV

“When do you make a podcast again? Already asked the same Blue.” asked Dumbly on the sidelines of the busy Kha cutting the stems of fresh roses.

“Make what?” ask Kha back with the sarcasm.

He glanced at a glance, staring at the silent trembling with furrowed brows. “Kok make what? Yes because miss you, definitely.”

“If miss that meet, Mas! Not just want to know how I am doing through the voice.” said Kha slightly raised his tone, “ini, here, there is a child of him who In the Lord will come out soon. But, even though Blue mas has no intention to see or just touch.”

“But 'right, Kha ..”

“But what? I still have to be patient? Should you understand the situation of Blue mas? Then then?! Would Blue want to understand my situation?” tears started to pool in the pot. After arguing with Barid yesterday, Kha has tried not to overthink with Blue's decision. Pun tried to make peace with the circumstances that forced him to 'himself'. However, his conversation with Dumbness again made his chest feel tight.

“I sincerely if you have to be far from the husband, if indeed in this way mas Blue can feel relieved. But does it have to be like this? Until when do I shut up, wait for Blue to see me again? Honestly ... I'm getting tired of all this.”

“Kha! You can't believe it. Blue to like this too because it protects you.” snapped Dumbly.

“Because of that too we are all here not silent! we try as much as possible to find evidence and ways so that the Blue mas can be free, right?” answer Kha. “don't me. Mas Blue doesn't need to see me, but look at Papa's efforts with Mama so far. What they've done for Blue mas, for me so I'm never alone. Can't she appreciate it a little?”

“You clearly know the reason for this Blue laskin, Kha.”

“Gak, Mom. I don't know. All I know is that I'm the only one who doesn't want to be met with Blue. Wh why? What is the same to me? It's impossible for Blue to be ashamed, isn't it. Or ... Is it because he wants to split with me?”

“Kha! I'm just here to ask you about the podcast, why not talk about it!” sentak Dentar was surprised by Kha's words, “asal you know, you are the most important form of achieving life goals for Blue. Separate with you? It can't be on her mind, Kha!”

Kha scrunched his forehead. Mouth fizzing. He felt something strange from inside his stomach, it was like hardening and cramping. “go, Mas. I'm gonna take a break. Just tell the Blue mas I was busy not having time to make it, but if the Blue mas want to meet, I will definitely come.” said Kha and then turn around. Climb to the top floor with a limped step while supporting the stomach with his hands.

He slid his body to the left. His hands did not stop stroking the stomach that felt stiff. Kha was not surprised by the symptoms, because often he felt stomach cramps and went to the doctor. However, again just a symptom of regular cramping due to too much movement or stress.

There is no longer the desire to try something that is only to be enjoyed Blue itself. If Blue misses, Kha is the same. If Blue tormented Kha too. The more here Kha felt what Blue did was very selfish. Therefore he decided to stop telling Blue through anything. She wanted to make it clear to her husband that she also had the right to meet him. Behind the insecure Blue feels, but why only Kha who does not want to be met, while other family members are free anytime to meet.

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“Sorry, Bi, again Kha is not perfect for,” said Gentar on Blue in the holding room, “but he is healthy, really, nothing to worry about. His stomach is very big, if you see Kha must be pangling, his big solution is not only the stomach but the bodies.” continued Gentar chuckled.

“Tar, what is possible Kha ..” Blue hung up her sentence, then shook her head expelling the disturbing bad thoughts.

This was the umpteenth time that Dumbness came without bringing what he longed for. Last Kha said if the age of the womb is 19 weeks, it was 2 months ago. Without Kha's voice, Blue felt lonely, silent, and lost his spirit. Then, bad thoughts begin to tease the mind, he is afraid if Kha feels tired, bored, or even wants to give up on their circumstances.

“Bi, if I may give you advice, should you not permit Kha to come?” said Dumbly while staring at the blank look of Blue eyes.

“But ready?” sahut Dumbfounded cut off Blue's speech. “Bi, you think not? Kha is pregnant with your child, do you not wonder what Kha is now? How is your child's development? ever since your verdict hearing didn't even give Kha a chance to come.”

“Gue knows, I understand how you feel, Bi. Just, my question is the same as Kha, until when? I, Om Awan, Aunt Dusk, Barid, even Barsha can be free to come. Lah this bini Lo itself until not in love a day so that!”

“Gue is still scared, Tar. Surely Kha was very disappointed with my decision, let alone her pregnant I should be next to her, nemenin her, Tar.”

Silent. Blue was deep in his own thoughts.

“Bi, thank God you have a wife like Kha. She's a strong, great, patient woman. Without me to talk you must know it, if you are still determined to make punishment, as much as give Kha a chance to meet. He just wants it, Bi.”

Now, Blue's downcast hiding his head in the folds of his hand. The crying sounds soft but feels so bad. Deep in Blue's heart, he may not want to be free and return to his family. However, again the shadow of the family of the victim he killed haunted his mind.

“Gue how to do, Tar?”

“Bi, please think carefully about my advice. You are wrong, but back again the same victim's actions are also not true. He could not give a family meal with illicit money as a hitman. How many lives has he lost as a hit man? We don't know. Don't think the same responsibility the victim's family should be with you rotting in jail. Try using another option.” said Gentar trying to find a solution to despair Blue.

“Option others?” ask Blue.

“Hmm, Lo can be in charge of his wife's son Hendar by replacing his position.” bargain Deterrent.

“Bang**sat, Lo! I mean I married the son of Hendar?” blue Shouts.

Dumbness laughs out loud got another response from the intention of his words, “Nah right, not a bird lo doang rusty, it turns out your brain also karatan!” shibir Gentar, “I mean, Lo replacein position just so the breadwinner was born! Born yes, born! Not equally so!”

“Oh-he means, every month I give money to them, as a form of substitute responsibility?”

“Iya! It can also you login to parole submission.”

Blue nodded in understanding, then took a deep breath as possible then exhaled slowly.

“Gue give me advice like this for the good of all, Bi. Make elo, Kha, family, also your business. Do not let the decision that you think is good, but instead make the ships shipwreck. Inget! You're the captain of two ships. One household, and the other one effort that you have built make tears, blood driet also.”

“Am I not selfish if I take that road, Tar?” tanya Blue is still in her worries.

Undaunted to shake his head, he patted Blue's shoulder gently, “Nothing is selfish here, Bi. If you take my advice, it will benefit two parties.”

“Gue ... Still belom sure.”