Khadija
Hopeless

Khadija

Time keeps rolling, unknowingly days have changed weeks, and weeks are rotating to months. Kha thought, everything will pass easily. But time seems to be going so slow. As if affirming the torture of longing that greatly suppresses the inner. If Blue is sentenced to prison, he is condemned to longing. It is very emotional and torturous. Her whole body again bristled while remembering the tense incident that set her apart from her husband. Every time I came, tears fell without excuse.

It's been months, and Blue still hasn't allowed Kha to visit him on the lawn. Actually, what's just because it feels like a loser because Blue doesn't want to see Kha, or is there another reason? I don't know ... We never know.

Now the age of Kha content stepped on the 25th week. Her stomach is getting bigger, even people think Kha is pregnant with twins because her stomach looks more prominent for the size of the first pregnancy. It turned out that after undergoing a thorough examination, Kha only had a single fetus. Thick stomach plus a large fetus makes Kha's stomach look a little bigger. Even so, he continued his activities as usual. With his big stomach he still works even out of town. Because if he just stayed at home, then the day can be sure to mengabu and only contain lonely cries.

“Preparation make to Solo is in order, Dip?” ask Kha.

“Already, Tea. Just enter the fresh flowers. You're not going to Solo, are you?”

“Kok not coming? Indeed why?” kha said astonished by Dipa's question.

From the doorway suddenly Barid appears and interrupts, “you want to go to Solo, Kha? In this situation?” point Barid at his stomach.

“Indeed why the same stomach me.”

“Yang ngawur only! Already, starting today business outside Jakarta you hand over to your employees only. You can still monitor from here. Not here is also a lot of work.”

“I'm fine, really! I can still go abroad even once.”

“That said bang Barid, Tea. I can do it myself, please trust me and the rest of my friends. The day after tomorrow there is also a prewedding photo shoot here, which is the decorator who?”

“Tetep can not Mbak Dipa, as far as I know there are 5 location points and one of them in the mountains.” timpal Asti.

“Tuh, right! Keep me doing.” complained Kha.

“Same go I shop baby clothes.”

“Gak!”

“Ya I have just told my mom that you refuse to invite Mama.” threatened Barid.

Kha pursed her lips from behind the veil. During this time only Mama and Barid accompanied him anywhere, starting from checking the womb, or just gymnastics pregnant women. Trivial things that make Kha's night more tormented, because what he has been doing with others, for him Blue is the one who should accompany.

“Wait!” kha said then disappeared behind the stairs.

The words that Blue had told him were wrong. Blue says he won't be lonely because he's in the middle of his warm family. However, now Blue's statement is strongly denied Kha, in fact despite being in a crowded place and in the family friend of her husband Kha still feels empty. Wherever he goes as if he is not on foot, what is the power of a wife goes without permission from the husband. The circumstances that force him to accept and live.

“Because you do not want to see the gender of the baby, we buy clothes that can be used for baby girls as boys yes, Kha.” said Dusk.

“Terupon Mama course.” replied Kha resigned.

“Loh, what is it? This will make your child's needs, should the spirit dong milihnya.”

Kha's lentic beads look at the scenery inside the baby supply store. He saw the big smiles of the prospective mothers who were busy choosing his groceries, of course, not only that makes Kha feel envious. However, the happy smile was also clearly printed on the faces of the prospective fathers who accompanied his wife shopping.

Then ... Those words came back to his mind. It should be Blue here,

Blue Mas should accompany shopping,

It should be Blue who delivers the content check, though,

Should ....

“Kha, don't daydream! Don't expect something that he doesn't want himself. You just need to focus on you and your baby.” said Barid firmly, making both Kha's eyebrows wrinkled.

“Dia? You mean, Mas Blue?”

Barid's eyes were so sharp. His breathing sounded hunting as if he was holding back an emotion. While stepping foot closer to him, Barid muttered, “what am I wrong? Don't you wish there was a Blue Brother here? Free Kha! He just doesn't want.” cibir Barid.

“Not Enter Blue don't want to! I understand the reason why it should be like this!” the answer is no less loud. Kha felt her chest so tight. Not because of Barid's sneer, even what Barid said there was a point.

Blue people who don't want to be free! Blue refused to appeal!

His mind screamed, wanting to justify Barid's statement. However, he had put all the decisions on Blue, for months he had tried to understand Blue's limited situation and circumstances. Forcing themselves to follow the will of Blue who wants to be responsible to serve the punishment sincerely. For her husband, it was the only form of responsibility he could give to the families of the victims.

Kha turned around and left the store without saying goodbye to Dusk. He walked quickly while continuing to wipe his tears. Ignoring the faint call of Dusk sounded.

“Maafin Kha, Ma ..” muttered Kha without turning his head, then disappeared from behind the elevator door.