Khadija
There are many roads to Rome

...71. There are many roads to Rome...

Without feeling now Kha pregnancy has reached the age of 4 months. To coincide with this, Kha held a 4-month tasyakuran review. If the Javanese say it 'ngapati', in your area what is the name?

In order to pray for the first child, as well as the first grandchild of two families, all families gather without exception. Even Nini and Aki, the parents of Abi Azzam also attended Jakarta specifically for Kha.

Minimalist house that every day is only dominated by the voices of Aming, Bhika, and Khabi, is now crowded and boisterous because of the meeting of two large families. A moment like this, should be a happy moment for Kha. However, what is the meaning of happiness without the presence of the main character. Not only awkward, but also bland. Yes, Tasteless! Like tea without sugar or coffee without milk, or maybe like vegetables without salt. Not complete!

Saddened? Don't ask, deh. Kha's world grayed after the center of his world forbade to be besuk. Blue, since 2 weeks ago no longer allow Kha to visit him in the field. The more Daunted he saw his stomach grow, the more Blue felt like a loser.

Astaghfirullahaladzim, Mas Blue .... Why can he think like that, but Kha always makes himself a hero who has protected himself and their children.

“Love Blue time, Tea. Maybe Blue feels that he has failed to become a husband,” said Umi calming, “important, Teteh do not give up for attention to Blue, said Umi, show that you are happy to be his wife even though Blue is in there.” continued Umi.

“Observation? How do you want to show attention if Mas Biru just do not permit Kha to come?!”  reply Kha with annoyance.

When Kha wanted to tell her that there was movement in her stomach, she had prepared herself as best she could from home. Dress as beautiful as possible even though it only appears on the eyes, but Kha still wants totality every time she meets Blue. With a little cake favorite Blue, Kha walked cheerfully on the toilet. Waiting for the arrival of Blue in the big room only his heart was restless impatient. Can't wait to tell the happy news about their child's growth.

However, Blue's reaction was quite unexpected. Kha thought her husband would also be excited when he heard the news. Turns out, Blue responded with her flat and cold face. The short meeting ended with Blue, which made Kha extremely disappointed, and angry.

“Back, Kha. Rest do not be tired. Oh yes, in the future you do not need to come here continuously. If anyone wants to be conveyed, just let it know through Gentar, or Papa.” said Blue at that time.

Kha came out with an outpouring of emotions that he had endured since seeing Blue's back pass. No crap, no peck on the forehead, even without touching the stomach where their child is.

After that day, Kha again locked herself in the room. Closing themselves from everyone who visited her house, even Dipa who came with work.

Finally Kha came out after the Clouds banged on the door nonstop. With puffy eyes Kha met the Clouds that came with Dusk and Dumbness in the living room. Actually, he was lazy to meet the person who would discuss his problem with Blue. However, Blue had already hurt his feelings.

“Kha ... When do you want to keep kayak gini?! You don't pity your son?” ask Cloud.

Kha.

“You torture yourself just as you torture a child in your womb, Nak.” Connect Clouds.

Kha is still flinching. He looked down with a sad face playing the tip of his hijab.

“Tar, tell me the same Kha, what you heard from Blue.” Cloud's speech managed to attract Kha's attention, he turned to look at Gentar with a face of anxious hope.

“Hmmm, yesterday Blue said, if every time you come he always feels very guilty, Kha. Guilty because it has made you feel the heavy burden alone.” Bright Undaunted.

“I mean Mas Blue, son I load so?” reply Kha ketus.

“Not That ... I'm sure Blue is really happy you're pregnant, but Blue is a boy, Kha. See you struggling to take care of yourself where you are again pregnant automatically for Blue sad. He began to think about how if you were born there is no him, then if one day his son is big what can accept Blue who is a narapida. Mind Blue so far, Kha, that's why she's upset, sad every look at you.”

The long sentence of Dumbness made Kha slightly begin to understand Blue's feelings. Kha felt that being himself was very heavy, but it turned out to be Blue who was only confined in a narrow place was even heavier because it bore the burden of thinking alone. It is natural that Blue feels sad, worried, instead of happy with her pregnancy.

After that, Kha began to get used to stopping seeing Blue. Sometimes he still sends food even through Deterrent. Kha also learned how to make podcasts. Podcasts that he made also only contain unimportant chatter, such as the daily story Kha that he passed without Blue, or about the growth and development of the fetus. Sometimes he inserts the sound of their child's heartbeat. At least, even without seeing Blue must still feel its existence.