Does Fate Have to Be Like This?
Learning With Giat
The midterm assessment exam will begin soon. Hearing the news of the exam will start soon makes me have to study hard. Even though I know, even learning won't make me understand, or smart. Because I'm not very good at learning, maybe it's because I'm always being bullied, and I don't have time to study during school.
My mind was completely unfocused on learning, as I always imagined myself being oppressed by them. The trauma had fallen too deep in my heart. Which always makes me feel restless, until sweat water soaks my face. Not only that, my hands also always trembled the moment I thought of them.
But Adrian is different from me, he is a smart kid, and very easy to understand various lessons. He experienced something similar to what they did to us at school. But Adrian remains a spirit of learning every night before going to bed.
Maybe that's all that makes me jealous of Adrian. He always made me jealous of his cleverness, maybe his cleverness came down from his father. Right now me, and Adrian are focusing on studying in the room. Adrian was trying to do some stuff in his textbook, while I could only play my pen by twirling it around.
"Hey Adrian! what are you learning?" I said I was bored because I couldn't understand the lessons I was learning right now.
"I was studying biology, about ecosystems" said Adrian, who did not turn to me when speaking because he was so focused on learning.
"Next week we will repeat, and today is Wednesday.God, why time goes so fast anyway" I muttered lazily while laying my head on the study table limply, and sleepy.
"Learn even if there is no real change" said Adrian who advised me suddenly, even so he still stared at the textbook carefully.
"Huh!? if there's no change, I'd rather just sleep" I said, complaining.
"That's not what I mean, even though you're not talented at learning, at least your spirit is what will be used in the future. Therefore just study vigorously like me, and don't complain too much!" said Adrian who looks upset because I was lazing.
"Alright fine! i understand! shit since when did you act like an old man" I said with a sigh, then continued to study as Adrian said despite being forced. But I think Adrian's words don't hurt to try either.
Even though I don't have the talent to learn, I have to keep my spirit up. Because maybe my spirit will show my true potential in the future. That way I was instantly excited to learn with a burning sense of passion in my soul.
"Uh. I think he's really serious" adrian said in his inner voice this time he glanced at me after feeling a terrible air from me that was emitting a burning fire that was excited in my soul.
Until finally the time had shown late at night, and I had fallen asleep at the study table unconsciously due to sleepiness. I kept forcing my brain to work out of bounds, understanding various lessons that were very difficult for my brain to accept.
Meanwhile, Adrian is still not asleep, and still eager to learn. Sia glanced at me who was asleep on the study table. Afterwards he immediately left his study, and took out a blanket to put on top of me.
The next day my mother came into our room to wake us who were still asleep at the study table. We were very tired, and still sleepy from studying last night. But the drowsiness instantly disappeared after we saw the wall clock that showed at half-seven.
We were very surprised, and immediately got ready very quickly to go to school. We don't eat breakfast just to go to school. Me, and Adrian used a bicycle from the fifth grade to go to school which we had previously left for between school by Adrian's father, Angga's uncle.
We had reached the school gate, and thank God that the gate was still wide open which indicates we were still not too late to enter the school. We paddled our bikes quickly, and stopped at the parking lot. We got off the bike and ran to enter our class.
"Hah.. hah.. thank goodness we are not late... hah" said I who ragged after entering class, and sat on the bench.
"Hey, why are you so late today? are you guys avoiding us on purpose?" said Roy who approached us, and put his left foot on my desk in a pretentious style.
"Stop Roy, soon the language teacher will come" said Arya who was working on the task with a cheat she got from children who fared the same as us. Even so they were not treated as badly as we were, they were only forced to cheat if there was a task, and only became a messenger.
After that the language teacher came, entered our class, and the learning began. As usual once the learning began, I could not focus at all while studying. Because thinking about their words just now, who will bully me maybe when the break comes, or go home to school later. I kept thinking about it, what it was like, and how the bullying they were doing for today, I always thought about it. Every time I was in school.
"There is no need to be afraid.You have to eliminate that weakness in yourself" said Adrian, whose gaze is still focused on the teacher who is teaching us. I don't know why it feels like Adrian looks more mature since then. He really became a little different from the Adrian I used to know.
The crane! the cring! finally the time of rest had arrived, instantly my heart immediately beat very fast, and the water remembered soaking up my body in an instant. Nah! again Roy put his left foot on my desk with a rattan in his right hand that he put behind his body.
"Roy later, today we go to the cafeteria first, I'm very hungry" said Arya who had walked out of class first.
"Hey Arya? what's wrong with you? why would a person who was usually so eager to oppress this monster become like this?" said Roy who was not happy with Arya's attitude that did not want to oppress us both with his face full of annoyance, and anger.
"Just follow me, you're hungry too, aren't you?" arya.
"Cih... alright.You're really lucky to be a monster!" said Roy who then left us both, and immediately went to the cafeteria with Arya. I really don't know what Arya's really thinking right now. But I'm really lucky that at this time of rest they didn't oppress us.
My claustrophobic heart immediately felt relieved the moment they left us. My heart that was beating fast started to return to normal. I sighed deeply with relief. While imagining that maybe today is a good sign for our school life in the future.
