Does Fate Have to Be Like This?
Ended Already

I really didn't think it would end up like this. I never once thought about Adrian leaving me for them. It really was such a terrible, terrible nightmare that it enveloped my soul.

After returning home from school that day, Adrian became late to go home because he was cool playing with people like them. Adrian also no longer cares about me, he really shut his ears just like adults who do not care about us.

When Adrian first became part of them, I waited for Adrian's return. I waited for Adrian so long in our room, drawing pictures, I kept waiting for Adrian to come home, and asked him what happened. What was he thinking to the point of being friends with them, and desperate to smoke.

But this is how it happened once Adrian has returned home, and he looks tired because it is too cool to play with his new friends. He immediately laid his body on the bed to sleep as soon as he entered the room. Then I saw him immediately approached Adrian to ask about the incident while at school.

"Adrian.. are you okay?" my spoken.

"of course! I'm perfectly fine, and it turns out that playing with them is so much fun!" said Adrian who suddenly immediately turned his body, and immediately rejoiced.

"But..why do you take a cigarette from them for granted, and suck it with pleasure?" I said who felt sad about it.

"I did it to get out of my rotten school life. I really can't stand to live like that forever" Adrian said.

"But why should you choose to be friends with them, and do the wrong thing?" my spoken.

"You why the hell? I just want to find my pleasure! why do you ask so many questions!" said Adrian who suddenly felt annoyed with me because he kept asking non-stop, and it seems my question has disturbed Adrian's feelings.

"No, it's just that the pleasure you're looking for isn't right" I said, wanting to make Adrian understand what I said.

"It's not true, is it? didn't you tell me to get out of this rotten school life after Junior High. But I just wanted to get out sooner, because I was fed up with all their bad treatment" said Adrian, who got angry with me.

"That's true, but you shouldn't be friends with bad people like them. Have you forgotten what they've done to us, and kids like the rest of us?" I said, but every word I said made Adrian even more upset, and not like.

"Then why? are you jealous of me? because you can be friends with them? do you envy me for coming out of our bad school life?" said Adrian who came down from his bed, and approached me with a piercing look.

"Then try to get people to like you. So that you are no longer alone, and look pitiful in the eyes of others. You're so pathetic you've always depended on me. You can't handle your own problems, it makes me a little upset with you" Adrian said in his scathing words, and it surprised me enough. Because it's the first time Adrian's been acting like this to me, and again it looks very serious.

"I've tried! but you know what about me!" my words were unintentionally carried away, and it even made Adrian even more upset, with my behavior.

"You even dared to talk to me like that. Yes, I do not know anything about you, and better I never know a little about you" said Adrian who continues to spit spicy words.

"People like me if trying to climb to the top is even free. It was as if time had never run its course, and kept me quiet down below without moving up, or down even once. Because I was at the bottom of a dark abyss" I said as I held back my tears. Because I don't want to fight, or break up with people I trust so much.

It feels like my heart is getting sick to see my best friend do something unexpected like this to me. It was so bitter, and it hurt. I couldn't turn it all on Adrian. Because I think I'm the one who made Adrian this way, because of what I said at the time

I should have realized earlier, because from that moment Adrian's nature slowly changed day by day. His attitude became more and more different from the Adrian I knew. I should have been there for her at the time, accompanying her beside him so that his heart would not be open to new things.

"You're really pathetic. The longer I see you're getting sadder. Just because you are compassionate like this, you want to take your destiny for granted? you haven't even tried it completely. You're just trying to make small things change, so your destiny never changes" said Adrian, who stared snidely at me.

"You've never even felt like me. You haven't even felt it at all. What do you know about me!" I said that I felt annoyed because it was needed like that by a friend I trusted so much. The Adrian I know, now really feels like a different person, a very different person than the one I knew before.

"What do you really know about me? have you ever felt like me?" adrian said that replied back with his words that made me speechless. I could only be silent as soon as I heard her words, because what she said was also true.

"Is this how you become my best friend?" I said with a blank look to Adrian.

"Don't talk nonsense! who would want to be friends with you! you are a disgusting monster" said Adrian who immediately went to his bed back to sleep, after saying his last words.

I was really very surprised again, hearing the word monster from my best friend. I can't accept this! no way! he is my best friend! there's no way he's saying such a bad thing to me!. I really wanted to cry because it was too painful.

But...why don't I want to cry too? I really don't understand myself. Why did I never cry, once I became an insult. Even this is a very painful right that I have never felt before. But again I can't cry, actually why can't I cry?. I just wanted to cry to know what the face of the other person who saw me was crying.