The Tomb Next to the House
52. They Are Still Present While Not Already

"I-it's because .... "

"What?" I started to get frustrated.

"Citizens are afraid because their spirits are wandering. According to the stories of people around, there have been visited by the spirit of Raihan asking them not to tell you anything before you yourself know it," explained Bryan who even makes me dizzy.

I distanced myself to see Bryan's facial expression. "Why is that?"

"I think your husband intends to keep your heart from being sad."

"Kalay kayak gini way even make me more sad. To be lied to is not good. Does he not know, the slightest lie is sick?"

Bryan flicked his shoulder in response to my curhantan. Back the shitty clear water filled the eye bags. Actually I hate the moment when I can't control the tears not to block the view. But what can I do.

Bryan again tried to calm down by hugging and stroking my back. Akhs! I hate the situation when I'm weak like this.

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My crying has subsided, leaving only a trail of dried water on my cheeks. I opened those puffy, hard-to-open eyes when the blue sky had turned orange. It was so clear from the window of the room that I had not yet closed. Bryan is no longer in this room. I kicked him out because I was aware of the limits.

Guiding my feet to get out of bed, I walked out of the room with a blurry look. Occasionally this body staggers because the energy is quite drained. It turns out crying takes extra energy, huh?

Sets.

A burly hand held my body that was about to collide with the floor.

"You need something, you can call me, '" grunted the owner of the hand, who was holding back his annoyance.

"I want to go home" I broke up.

"Feed first, I'll take you back."

I'm shaking. "Eat at home. Raihan must have waited for me."

The silence hit us for a few seconds. I intend to take another step back if Bryan doesn't respond. But that heavy voice first stopped my intentions.

"I'm taking it."

I replied with a weak nod. Although Bryan drove me, but we rode each other's bikes. He's just worried I can't get home alone. I want to protest, but my heart does not want to argue.

"Thank you" I said before parking the bike on the terrace.

"Via's." Bryan got off his bike and walked up to me, who was almost at the front door.

"Yes?"

"Are you sure Raihan's coming home?"

"I'll wait for him."

"You Raihan don't come home, you can stay in my house."

I greeted Bryan with a smile and a nod. After taking a deep breath to strengthen my heart, I entered the house that was not locked door.

'Mas Raihan came home, ' my mind was nervous.

"Assalamu'alaikum .... "

This is the first time that a voice that has always been able to make my heart flowery even feels bitter. Seeing the Raihan mas approaching to welcome my arrival, suddenly made this heart more sore. Unbelieving with a figure who was smiling warmly was a spirit.

"I-I bought a side dish, Mas. Make us eat. I bought Mas's favorite pock, "my reply reasoned with a trembling voice. While lifting the plastic containing the chicken that I had bought earlier.

Hold back the tears as hard as possible so as not to drip. Makes my chest feel more claustrophobic.

"Loh, isn't chicken meat in the fridge still? Why buy a chicken?"

"Males cook, Mas."

"Yes, let's eat. It just so happened that laper."

There was a sense of rustling in the heart as Raihan grasped my hand to guide towards the dining table. As much as I could, I was acting like an ignorant fool.

We enjoyed dinner interspersed with laughter like the days before. However, when again the reality slapped hard, I realized. We can't keep going like this.

"Mas," call me, start a discussion.

"What's up, Dek? How's her face so tense?" Mas Raihan who almost moved from his seat is now back in his original position.

"I know everything."

My words made Raihan's facial water instantly turn dark. But a second later he smiled wryly while looking at me meaningfully.

"I know."

He could have behaved so calmly. Though I desperately held back the desire to vent emotions through a roar.

"Why didn't I tell you from the beginning?"

Mas Raihan lowered his head, not daring to face my reddened bead.

"Then why are you still here, Mom? Why are you lying to me? Doesn't it matter how I feel? It was as if hiding my problems from me. I'm still your wife, Mom." I let out the uneg-uneg in my heart.

"I just want to say goodbye to you. But it feels so hard. It keeps me stuck here."

Raihan's voice sounded bright but sharp. Until it can tear my heart. Make it look like it's sliced into small pieces.

"Why after this are you going to leave me forever?"

The question came out in harmony with the dam that I had built so solidly that it finally collapsed as well. My heart says don't cry, but my eyes say something else.

"Yes. As long as you take us off."

Deg.

I scooped my face roughly to wipe away the tears that kept seeping out of the eye bags. Because the back of my conscious hand was used to wipe it, still unable to stop the speed of the clear object.

"sorry. I've reneged on our promise to always be together" Raihan added.

I only cry what I can do right now. I can't remember when Raihan was next to me. Then pull my body into a hug. Althaf was present in our midst. Hugged my body from the other side.

"You really are, Al. Mama must be sincere," I whispered with tears.