
The afternoon I came out of the room to help Aunt Ida cook, with a gloomy face and a broken heart, I stepped into the kitchen with a muddled mind.
Today is the second time my father-in-law has fucked me, the heinous thing that an in-law has done to his son-in-law.
a daughter-in-law born into a family cannot afford to receive ill treatment from her in-laws.
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In the kitchen I helped Aunt Ida cook food for her father-in-law, with a mind that was still thinking about the indecent incident that my father-in-law did to me. until Aunt Ida was confused what was with me who was silent silent like the day before.
"what's with you yu, your face looks moody unlike the days before, are you still thinking of Farhan?" ask aunt Ida
"there's aunty, ayu is fine" I replied
"you can not lie aunt, from the look of your face aunt already knows you again there is a problem, the same story aunt, who knows aunt can love you solution"
"no aunt, ayu is fine and not feeling well" I replied with a fake smile
"if you are not feeling well, you are resting for what help aunty, this will be the task of aunty, you just rest there let the aunt prepare food"
"i'm tired of aunty if I stay in the room without working, let me help aunty ya"
"you're sure you're okay, right?"
"Dad, ayu's fine"
I deliberately lied to Aunt Ida and did not tell her about what my father-in-law had done, I did not want to tell anyone because it was about my mother's life, my father-in-law threatened me, if I say the things she did to me, my mother's life is at stake.
I could only keep everything to myself, though I was afraid that if I became pregnant I would be confused as to what to say to everyone, including my husband, how should I tell them that my husband and I have never had sex while we were married.
After the food was ready, I and Aunt Ida took him to the dinner table as usual where dad sat waiting for the cooking to arrive, the father-in-law who was sitting staring intently at my face who was putting one by one food on the table.
The gaze that frightened me to look towards the father-in-law, the vile man who had taken away my honor, I put down the food with my head bowed.
I told Aunt Ida to stay in the dining room, accompany me and my father-in-law, because I could not afford to be with that vile man.
"tante ate here with me huh" I said
"mmmm, Aunt eat it later, you're the same father-in-law you eat first"
"please' is aunty, ayu please"
"have sat down and eaten Ida, anyways not good if I just want to eat alone" said the father-in-law
"well then, sir" said Aunt Ida
We who used to eat four now only eat three, my husband is going abroad to run his business.
after we finished eating I went to the room, lying down while playing hp to calm my mind.
I poured out my heart by creating a status with the caption "too heavy a burden that I have to bear until silence is the way"
I locked myself in my room with the door I had locked so that the wicked man would not enter my room again, the clock was showing at 9pm I was still lying down with a cellphone playing my favorite music.Our closed eyes I listened to the song until I fell asleep.
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The day changed, today I woke up in the morning with a different face, cheerful face as usual, because today I intend to go home to mother to release my longing for him. I got out of bed to clean my body and went to my mother's house.
After I exited the room I met my father-in-law at the front door of the house, he stood up with his hand stuffed in his pants pocket,,, with my head down I asked her to get out of the door because I wanted to go out to my mother's house.
"excuse me. Well, I'm going out" I said
"where are you going so early?"
"i want to go to my mom's house"
"you want to go to your mother's house?, what do you want?, tell her that you've been fucking you?" said with a slow tone
"no, I want to see mom because I miss"
"remember the word father, if until you say everything, father does not hesitate to hire people to eliminate your mother" the father-in-law threatened
"i promise, I won't say anything to anyone else about what you did to me, but the one I ask if I get pregnant I have to take responsibility and talk to Farhan my husband"
"Dad, if you were pregnant, I'd say it was Farhan's son"
"what???, Farhan's son, remember well Farhan never touched me how Farhan would have believed all that"
"you said you had sex with Farhan when Farhan was asleep"
"daddy can slander father's own son?, father can Farhan be father of the seed that father planted?"
"you don't have much to say, follow what you say and don't fight"
"alright, I want to go and get out of front of me" I said firmly
After my father-in-law stepped away from the door, I got out and went to hurry to my mother's house by ordering an online taxi that would take me to my mother's house. I got into the taxi and told the taxi driver to drive me to my mother's house quickly.
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After I reached my mother's house, I saw my mother sitting on the terrace drinking warm tea and eating 1 piece of yam. mother's simplicity makes me want to go back to the time where I still live with her.
If time can be turned I want to repeat my story with my mother, I don't want you to owe to the man who is now my father-in-law, a vile man who has taken away my honor and also my pride.
But everything is impossible, rice has become porridge, I can only surrender and accept all the harsh realities in my life. at a very young age I had to bear a very heavy burden after I was fucked by my own father-in-law.