Among the Million Love
Chapter 40. Enveloped in Fear

I touched the arm that was the focus of his fist. His eyes twitched, he opened his eyes.

"Oh my God, are you awake?" His words straightened his body. I chuckle, "why sleep here?"

"I didn't accidentally last night. How are you doing?" Doctor Andre asked, I shrugged both of my shoulders.

"I don't know, you're the doctor. Just check my health." My speech.

"Ahahah, right too. Let me check on you, ma'am."

The stethoscope touched my right and left chest. Doctor Andre nodded, though,

"okay." When the stethoscope is attached to the right chest leaning to the left.

"Good again." Once again the stethoscope was attached to my left chest.

"Okay too." Then he removed the stethoscope from his ear.

"So, how am I doing, Doc?" I asked, inclined to joke. Because I know, if I'm okay.

"So worrying." He said with a serious expression.

"What?"

"Yes, there's something empty inside your chest." He said while fixing the messy mejalu because my medicine was splattered.

"Whatis that? My lungs are starved of oxygen?" teraku.

"No, but yanh under the lungs." Her speech.

"Oh yeah, my lamb. I haven't eaten yet. It's empty." My word.

"Ck, not that. You haven't thrown away any food last night, how can it be empty." Clumsily.

"Hahaha, you mean ketoprak? Haha." It is true what he said.

"So what's that empty dong?"

"It's not an organ problem anymore, but a feeling. You're empty here, right?" His words pointed at my stomach, pointing right at the location of the human heart.

I snorted, "It could be you, doctor."

That's right, what I think right now is the void. There's hardly any taste in here.

"Can I fill it?" His word.

I rose from my position, "Why did you fill it? Of water?"

"Sort of water, but a million flavors." It is a very dramatic expression.

"Hahaha, please if you can. But, baby, it still seems closed. Still want to try opening it first?" This sentence made him frown until his eyes narrowed.

"Can?" She asked.

"If you want to try please, don't blame me if it doesn't work." My spoken.

Now he's up and going to the door, "where are you going, doc?"

He looked again, breathing out. "You're looking for that million-flavored water source first. So, please let me go or do you want me to be here all day without eating and bathing?"

"Yes, okay. Let me know if you find a million-taste water lake guarded by angels huh."

He nodded, "there are you."

This afternoon I went home to my apartment accompanied by Dr. Andre who led me to my apartment doorstep.

"Wanna stop by?" I bargained, he has been kind enough to drive me safely to my destination. Wrong if I don't offer to stop by maybe just to taste my tea water.

However, he shook his head. "Other time, rest. Take care of your health, don't mind much. Solve your problems one by one, if you need a friend don't hesitate to tell me?"

I smiled, had not heard a chatty person in front of me in a long time. "Ready, I'm working on it. Be careful on the road, doc, don't forget to eat."

"Oh yeah, you haven't eaten yet? Let's have dinner." My words were like a lighter to her, she pulled my hand to go to dinner.

"No, I'm still full. I can order online."My speech.

"Really?" He asked me to look me in the eye.

"Hem, yes." I'm nodding.

"Huft, take care of me. Bye." She rattled my hair and ruffled it.

I'm getting scared, the demonstrators are actually reporting the case to the legal realm. Now my family photos become a free spectacle in all media. Even the news of papa and mama has been known by the media, the condition of the mother who was in the mental hospital was also exposed to the glass screen.

"Mama." I cried, the mother who was on the screen refused to be interviewed by reporters. They should know that my mom is not okay. I could only cry looking at the mama who was being urged like that.

What else can I do? I have no power, I am unemployed now. No income, the money in savings is just enough to meet my needs some time ahead.

Tok to tok. Ting tong's.

"I don't want to go to jail."

Plentung... Notification of incoming messages from my phone reads.

"Dysa, I'm in front of your apartment." From: Dr. Andre, 8.19 Pm.

"Oh doctor Andre." I was relieved, it wasn't the police.

I straighten my appearance and hair. Fold a blanket over my bed and arrange the sofa pads. Turn off the television, then I walk towards the front door.

"Hi, Doc? Tumben stopped by?" I asked him who was still dressed, seemed to have just returned from work.

"You look nervous, what's up?" I think he's aware of the uneasiness of my heart. I don't answer, what should I answer?

"Hem... Can I come in?"

I jumped, "oh yeah yeah, go ahead." I opened this door wide, letting him into this not-so-great room.

Long enough we stood up, and I was again surprised by the question, "May I sit down?"

"Yes yes, please. What do you want to eat or drink?" I started to bounce spontaneously. I was misbehaving because of this confused me.

"You're like a restaurant waiter, I just wanted to stop by to see how you're doing. How are you, hem?"

"Me, I'm fine. Why indeed?" I sniffed my shoulder, did I look okay in her eyes?

"Sit down, why keep standing there. Sit down here."

I was completely immersed in my thoughts, scooping this face roughly. How can I behave like this in front of others?

"Yes, I'm a little upset right now. Yeah, there's just everyone's problem." I said as I sat next to Dr. Andre.

I cupped my face with both palms. I'm really fucked up right now, my mind is everywhere.

"You don't seem to be doing well, Doctor Dysa. What was? Can you tell me something's going on."

"No, nothing. I'm fine, I'm fine. Oh yeah, what to drink? I made you?" I said as I got up from the sofa. Taking over myself not to think about the bad things that were going on outside.

Doctor Andre looked at me strangely, astonished, and suspicious. He threw a curious gaze, it might be strange to see me acting so unusual. I try to be ordinary, but I can't.

"White water." she replied.

"Ouh, okay. White water, wait a minute." Now I leave him in front of the television room. I washed my face with cold water from the sink. Try to think clearly and be calm.

"Related Dysa, there's no police in front of your apartment. Calm. Calm. Huh.. hufft." I talked to myself, took a breath and exhaled slowly I repeated the ritual many times. Until the water is boiling, hot steam billows out. I unplug the cable from the socket and pour the water on a cup.

I went back to the television room, I saw Dr. Andre still sitting there. He was looking for something on the sofa. The thing he was looking for was found, a television remote control.

I snorted, ran and put the cup on the table violently. I took the TV remote out of his hand.

"Don't turn on the television!" Ketus.

The one I took the remote from his hand then looked at me in wonder, "why?"

Ah, true. Why did I take it so roughly and why am I angry?

I dropped myself on that couch. I massaged my nose to neutralize my dizzy head.

"Uh, sorry. I'm in a mess, don't you see my family's news going on trial? I'm a fugitive now, you don't know the news?" I asked the man next to me with resignation.

"I actually know,"

"If you know, why are you here? Why don't you leave like everyone else who ran away after seeing and hearing the news?" I'm straightforward.

"Why should I go if I choose here? You want me out of your life too?" His answer left me in this grief. I could not help but hold my tears, feeling the heavy weight on my shoulders. I needed someone else to stay by my side, support me, and listen to me.

I hugged him tightly. I put this sadness on his shoulder. My tears were no longer blocked, all gushing over his shoulders.

"Please don't go, don't leave me alone." I pleaded with him. I felt a gentle caress on my head that made me calm and reconcile my heart.

I'm pretty calm right now. I pulled my body to release my embrace on him. "Don't cry, I'm here." Doctor Andre said while wiping tears on my cheek.

"Where is my water?" Doctor Andre asked.

"Oh yeah, this." I took the cup I had brought.

"Tea? How is tea? Didn't I ask for water?" His word.

Stupid, I forgot. Why can I serve tea, if all he asks is water before.

"Hahaha, it's magical means water. Cool."

"We're having dinner outside?" Bring along.

I shook my head, "fear."

However, he smiled and grabbed my right hand. Grasping it tightly, "no need to be afraid, there I am here."