Sarah
The Confusing Taste

"Lisa wait!" call Eza.

"What the hell is bang? brother wants to blame me too and defend Rissa huh? there bang! just keep defending Rissa! why is someone else's child more important in mom's eyes than I'm bang? I don't believe reincarnation is true, if reincarnation is true why should I meet it? I don't want to meet him mas, I don't want to meet him if with his presence all things become different, all things become different, mama is very proud to say that Rissa is Ika's aunt but what is the proof if Rissa is Ika's aunt? until this moment alone aunt Ika's body was not found, right? mama once told me that the body of Aunt Ika never could find it since she went with her lover, if Rissa is a aunt Ika and that does not mean I was wrong, right? if I don't believe Rissa is Ika's aunt it doesn't mean I'm wrong! why do they blame me?" rissa asked, pointing in any direction.

"Sir, you are patient!" said Eza who immediately hugged Lisa who seemed very depressed over the treatment of her family.

"I'm tired of it!"

"I understand your feelings.."

"No! you don't understand my feelings! I could never understand you! just like my mom who can never understand how I feel!"

"Sir, I don't know what it's like to lose someone and not be able to see forever again, yes, aunt Ika is our aunt, but we don't feel it directly, right, how does it feel to lose someone without ever being able to see him again, not even his grave, we can only see the grave of the deceased papa, but mama can not see directly his grave aunt Ika, let alone the tomb, let alone the tomb, his body was never found and disappeared just like that in the middle of the sea, it must be very difficult to accept the situation, thinking if Aunt Ika had died in the middle of the ocean even without a body being found, even if there was no body found, I understand how you feel, it must be very painful when our loved ones care more about others than us, but we also do not know how deep the wound when it comes to accepting the reality, especially when you find someone whose face is very similar to that of Ika's sister, it must be difficult to accept everything, accepting the situation and the bitter reality is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand, so you must be able to understand the circumstances that exist even though it hurts for you, but it also must be painful for those who feel it directly, in contrast to those of us who only know the name and story, only, never feeling his presence, a person who had felt his presence would definitely feel extremely hurt when he left and disappeared just like that, nor do I believe that reincarnation is true, but what's wrong if Rissa has a facial resemblance to Ika's aunt? Rissa must not know Aunt Ika too right like us? Rissa must also feel the same confusion as we feel, you are calm yes, there is a mas that is always there for you, we face destiny together, mas promise will be papa for you, he said, yes, although I do not know how papa, but as a boy and the first child, it is only natural that I bear all these responsibilities" said Eza smiling with a sad eye.

Lisa, who heard Eza's words, hugged him.

"I know if my pain is not worth your pain, but you don't go away"

"No, we're twins, we're gonna grow up together, through the two of them, yeah, we're in!" invite Eza to smile stroking Lisa's head.

"Yes mas" said Lisa smilingly nodding her head.

"Mas, let's go home yuk, I don't want to stay here!" take Rissa to pull Amir's hand.

"But why the deck?"

"I don't want to make this family quarrel, with me in this house, will definitely make them continue to make noise like that, I don't want to make him sad because his family defended me, I don't know why I'm like this, nor do I want to be in this position mas, is it true that I am the reincarnation of that woman? if that's true, why can't the family accept me? I don't want to stay here anymore mas, let's go home" asked Rissa to pull the hand of Amir mas.

"But the deck." said Mas Amir who followed Rissa's steps.

"Where are you going hm?" asked Shiva's aunt who suddenly came.

"Hm, we.." said Rissa stopped her words and lowered her head.

"I heard your words, you can't leave this house!"

"But why aunt? why can't we leave aunt's house? this is not the place where we live aunty, kasian child earlier, he so cried because of the presence of me and mas Amir at the aunt's house, I'm the same mas Amir want to go home alone"

"Auntie doesn't forbid you from leaving your aunt's house, but at least you should stay here until your parents return"

"Do you know when my parents are back? what if my parents leave in a long time aunt? I don't want to make that kid sad because I'm here, I just want to go home aunty"

"Tante said no yes no Rissa! now you go back into your room!"

"No! I don't want to be in that room"

"Do you want to move rooms?"

"Yes, I want to be the same Amir, I don't want to be in that room, I feel weird in that room, I feel like I've slept in that room before, I had just arrived and had not slept in that room, but it felt like I had been in that room for a long time, I did not know why I felt it, I want the same Amir mas yes aunty, at least I do not need to feel strange things anymore, the room makes me comfortable but uncomfortable, I was also confused as to why I felt that, on one hand I felt the comfort of being in that room, but on the other hand I feel uncomfortable because I feel a comfort that I have not even felt before, aunty understand the meaning of my words? I'd like to be with Mas Amir if we weren't allowed to go"

"Well, if you want to sleep in Amir's room, it's important that you stay here until your parents come"

"Yes aunty, ayok mas" asked Rissa to pull the hand of Amir.

"I'm sorry aunt" said Mas Amir, smiling, nodding his head.

"Yes Amir" replied Shivanya's aunt with a small smile nodding her head.