Post-divorce
The Part 11

Four years later....

"Mother, Atma, let's eat! The food is ready." I half yelled for Mom and Atma. Atma was almost five years old in a few months, she grew up to be an intelligent child, although she used glasses to help her vision but it was no big deal for her, when wearing glasses he actually looks more handsome, with white skin, round eyes, sharp nose, thin and red lips, and a body that contains.

"Me and Omma came Mama, we were ready to finish the food you were cooking" said Atma, smiling at her words, but I saw that she was not excited lately.

"Mother why? don't like Amanda's cooking?"

"Mom always loved your cooking, maybe even miss it later when we don't live at home anymore, because your lecture is over and you are accepted to work at Abi's hospital." Yeah, I've finished my education in medical school, I graduated on time as I and Abi had targeted. During my time in Bandung, Atma and I lived with Ratri's mother, while Mas Rama lived on the second floor of the boutique owned by Mother who was not far from the house we lived in, mas Rama's profession as an architect and managing a company in the field of property makes him busy with his work but he always took time to meet Mother every day, not only mother but also Atma.

"Mama, can't Atma just stay here with omma and papa Rama?" Atma is very close to the mother, he calls with the name omma, and Rama mas with the call of papa. Not without reason he called mas Rama papa, at that time Atma was once ridiculed by his friend, Atma was said to have no papa like his other friends, he came home with tears, at that time I, I, rama and his mother are at home.

"Atma doesn't want to play anymore, they say Atma has no papa, Atma hates them" Atma said back home crying as she pleased, not feeling I also shed tears seeing my little angel crying, not even crying, my mind was like a replayed recording considering that the time of the little Atma was not recognized by his biological father. Seeing Atma crying, Rama quickly carried her, and calmed Atma.

"Do you need Om to be angry with Atma's friends who have made Atma sad?" Atma shook her head while still crying

"It is true that Om, Atma has no papa"

"Okay, you want papa right? Atma can call Om Rama as papa, how? Hmm?" Atma stopped crying, and hugged the body of Rama and drowned his face on the neck of Rama. Seeing all that I could not bear the sadness, I immediately ran into the room and cried, my strength was when I saw the happiness of Atma, and my weakness saw the tears in her eyes. I promised Atma I'd introduce her biological father when the time was right, and I was sad when I was a kid she had to understand all these complicated circumstances.

And when Atma asked to stay with his mother and Rama it was natural to remember that they were very close, even though Abi, was, Ummik and Gita often visit him to be close to Atma but still every day that is always there for him is Mother and Rama.

"Who will accompany you to sleep?" Atma just fell silent while hugging mother, and her eyes began to glaze over like tears would break if only Rama did not come,

"Assalamualaikum," he kissed the mother's hand, and kissed Atma's cheek "it seems like again talking about serious things, papa's son why silence?"

"Papa, sad not if I join mama stay in Jakarta?" Atma began the conversation with Rama

"Atma sad no? Hmm?" Atma nods her head "meaning papa is sad too, but you have to follow whatever mama says and always take care of mama, okay?" Atma just nodded.

"Omma tasa, maybe omma will also join Atma stay in Jakarta"

"Horeeee, papa too, right?" 

"Papa may in the near future can not, while going back and forth Bandung-Jakarta to meet Atma, how?"

"Okay, we'll live together, right? Papa, mama, omma, like other Atma friends" Atma's remark to stay under one roof may be just a wish that won't be real, because Janu's sister will soon propose to me, my communication and Janu's brother went well, I could not resist the love he gave me because he was too good for me to hurt and had waited a long time to make me his wife.

"Later to live with grandma, Grandpa and Aunt Gita son...."

"Omma how? Why do you have to live omma by yourself and not invite omma to live together? Bad mama, not dear to omma" Atma ran towards her room leaving the dining room, even she had not had time to touch her food.

"Please Amanda, Atma needs time, let mom catch up" 

"Yes Mom...."

"Let Atma stay at home while in Jakarta"

"But mas"

"For a while, don't be selfish, they're so close" don't think Rama was close to me all this time, he's still a stiff and gluttonous Rama, but I think that attitude is special to me, because when he was with Atma he was a very warm and caring figure. Is it just my feelings?

"I just don't want our presence to disrupt your relationship with Tasya"

"meaning?"

"Don't pretend not to understand, your relationship with Tasya will definitely be serious, right? I don't want any problems with your relationship with Tasya because of us." Mas Rama had a special relationship with someone named Tasya, he often went to the boutique to accompany Atma and also Mother, although I rarely met him, Atma always told me about Tasya, Tasya, unbeknownst to Mas Rama, he came to Me and warned to stay away from Mas Rama and Mother. Therefore I want to immediately move to Jakarta so that Mother, Atma and Rama are not close, I do not want to be a source of problems for Mas Rama in his relationship with Tasya, because the age of Mas Rama is very enough to make a household, Mas Rama deserves to be happy.

"Just your reason." Rama rose from his seat. Staying away from Atma with them must not have been easy for me and painful for Atma but it feels like I have no choice anymore.

****

Today the last day I was in this house, things were packed, Atma came to me in a doldrums.

"Why is your son silent?" I sat down next to Atma, and pinched her gnarled cheek.

"So Aunt Tasya came, she said she was going to marry Papa Rama, is that really my mom?"

"Perhaps dear, mama also does not know, indeed why if Papa Rama married Aunt Tasya?"

"Why not marry your mom? Why Aunt Tasya?"

"There will be Om Janu who will become Papa Atma" Atma has known Kak Janu, every two months Kak Janu will come to Indonesia to meet us, Atma child who is easily familiar with anyone, and, cheerful, and fun, therefore he was close to Kak Janu and told anything if he met him, every Sunday we would make a video call, he said, Brother Janu is no stranger to Atma although Atma tends to be more sticky to Mas Rama.

"Certainly Mama? Then I'll have two papa, okay?"

"Where is my real Papa Ma? Who looks like me, Om Janu or Papa Rama? I saw a boy friend whose face was similar to his papa, did I look like Ma too?" I let out a deep sigh, to explain to Atma what Papa means and what Papa means to him. He was a very critical boy, after I explained it, he said ....

"That means Atma has three Papa dong, Atma's friends must have ngiri because Atma has a lot of Papa." It feels like to drown yourself, as simple as Atma thinks of all the explanations I give, Atma said, I could only smile with amusement at Atma's absurd babble, so that gradually as she grew older she would understand. 

"Assalamualaikum we came ...." The voice I knew echoed in this house, it was the voice of Gita, she came with Ummik and Abi to pick me up and Atma.

"Aunty, Grandpa, Grandma." Atma immediately ran to hug them, he smiled widely, Abi immediately held Atma and Ummik stroked Atma's head while Gita kissed Atma's cheek many times.

"Auntie is sick." Atma protested

"You're gemesin anyway, have you prepared? We'll sleep in the room at Jakarta's, okay?"

"Each tantee ...." Atma saluted Gita as a sign of approval, we who saw her laughed.

I saw Mas Rama and Tasya also come to this house.

"Mr .... Papa Rama and Omma drove me too, right?" Atma asked, but it was not Mas Rama who answered but Tasya.

"Papa Rama can't be Atma, because we'll be preparing for the wedding to be held in three months."

"Papa will take you dear, don't worry." answer is different from Rama, Tasya's face looks upset.

"If there is no need to drive Mas, another time Mas can play at home to meet Atma."

"You know Amanda, thank you." The cynical smile I saw on Tasya's face.

"Tante if married to Papa Rama means Aunt Mama Atma too right? But Atma doesn't want to have a rich mama Aunt, Atma's mama is just Amanda's mama, but Atma's papa is a lot of loh, right ma?" Hearing Atma's words, we laughed at once but not Tasya he went to the kitchen upset because he wanted to take water. Plain atma, right?

****

I have arrived at the house that I had left for a long time, Mas Rama and Mother finally drove us but not with Tasya. I want to stay a few days at this house, he will also move to Jakarta in two weeks. When we had just arrived, I saw a car parked in front of the house, and was shocked when someone in the car came out, I saw his figure, he Janu Kak. With an expanding smile he approached all of us, Atma immediately ran towards him.

"Om januuuuu ...." Brother Janu immediately caught Atma's body, hugged her and carried her. He approached me while holding Atma with a smile that could not be separated from his face.

"How are you doing Amanda?"

"Alhamdulillah I'm good brother, why not tell if going to Indonesia even to this house?" 

"Surprise to you, I'd like to see you wear a snelli of pride while on hospital duty the day after tomorrow as a doctor." 

"Ckk ..kak don't overdo it, let's go in is gathering inside Brother."

"It just so happens that it's a good opportunity for me."

"You mean Janu?"

" We're going in first." 

I left them in the kitchen to prepare drinks and snacks, I saw my mother was following me, maybe I wanted to help prepare food, I thought, 

"Amanda can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Of course Mom, is there anything I need?" 

"No, is that a man close to you?"

"Yes Ma'am, Janu's sister who Atma used to tell Mom."

"Is he serious about you?"

"Yes Ma'am." hearing my reply, Mother took a heavy breath, I felt a burden and sadness on her face, but I did not understand.

"Mother's child's rama will break her heart when you are owned by another man later."

"I mean mother?"

"Mom knows Rama loves you very much son, he likes you before you married Papa Atma, he once saw you dibutik with Ummik, he immediately asked Mother to propose to you at that time, he said, but Papa Atma's birth had already proposed to you. And now the love for you in Rama seems to be getting stronger even more he also loves Atma, I can not imagine how broken the heart of the child Mother." My heart gripped to hear Mother's words, Mother, I don't feel like believing this.

"No way ma'am, he's always been cold and tight to me, so how is that possible?"

"The attitude is just to cover up his feelings for you" said Mother with a sad face. I could only freeze in silence with a raging feeling, it was like a dream. Many questions came to my mind, is it true what Mom said? If it is true I feel bad to Mas Rama and also Mother, they are very good to me. Then what about the sacrifice of Brother Janu who has been waiting for me all this time?