Post-divorce
Part 8's
Today Janu came home to meet Abi and Ummik, deliberately came in the afternoon to meet Abi, said Kak Janu when we replied to a message, he also knew that at the end of this month I and Atma would move to Bandung to continue my studies there, now we are all in the guest room, I picked up Atma who was playing with the toy I was holding.
"Sorry before Om, if I'm presumptuous, I want to have a serious relationship with Amanda, if Om pleases I want to make Amanda a wife and bring her and Atma to Australia with me." I was flabbergasted by Janu's words because in our conversation before he came there was no discussion about marriage.
"I don't mind your good intentions, son Janu, only this time Om will make conditions for you, if you're serious about Amanda you have to wait until she finishes her education in four years, how? Can you?"
"But om. .. I don't think I can wait any longer, I was separated by Amanda when adopted from the parlour, she said, during that time I kept my heart for him until I had the opportunity to return to Indonesia to meet him."
"Om wants Amanda to finish her college first, and the decision is inviolable, and everything Amanda has agreed to before, she said, om selfish this time in determining Amanda's life because not only Amanda who om think but Atma life."
"Sister, Amanda feels inappropriate, Brother Janu can find a better woman than Amanda, especially Amanda does not want to marry again, maybe there will be no second marriage for Amanda, for Amanda, don't expect more from me brother because I can't promise anything."
"Don't tell anyone the worthiness of your judgment, no matter how long I'll wait, four years isn't worth my wait. I'll be waiting for you, just you keep your heart and mind so that other men don't get in here." Brother Janu pointed a hand to his chest "and here ...." He pointed at my head while smiling warmly at me. Ummik and Abi smiled, my mouth felt locked to reject Kak Janu's request and I could not accept it at this time, but there was a sense of comfort and happiness when with him. Am I selfishly hanging on Janu's status?
After I finished talking with Abi and Ummik, I drove Janu's sister to her parked car, occasionally pinching Atma's cheek and kissing her, but he did not dare to hold Atma worried about the wrong position in carrying, he seemed to like and love Atma, many gifts he gave to Atma and also me.
"Lusa I will return to Australia, if not busy take the time to take me to the airport with Atma."
"I'll try Brother, I can't promise because the day after Atma's control schedule." My answer made him smile meaningfully.
"No problem, I'll call you before I get on the plane. We're like a little family to Amanda."
"Hm ...." I smiled bitterly, four years long enough time, I do not know what happened next in my life, is the hope Kak Janu knitting happiness in a marriage with me can be fulfilled?
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Today Ummik asked Rama to take Me and Atma to the hospital, because Ummik could not accompany me, Ummik and Bu Ratri were busy preparing to open a new boutique branch that they managed. At this time I was in the hospital parking lot, during the trip in the car I just kept quiet and focused on Atma so as not to feel bored when in the car, when getting out of the car, when getting out of the car, Mas Rama took over carrying Atma without asking my permission first, his attitude was very rigid with me but being warm to Atma, it seemed like he was the type of man who liked children.
"Boat food for Atma as long as we wait our turn!" I also prepare food for Atma according to his orders, if like this I am like a baby sitter for Atma my own son with the orders of the master that is Rama mas, even though I am his mama, but I am his mama, he didn't give me a chance to carry Atma while we were at the hospital, even giving ASIP he would hold Atma while holding the bottle, and hold it until Atma fell asleep. We arrived late so we got the last number.
"I'll let you rest for a minute." I feel very pain in the left abdomen, such as squeezed and stabbed, this week the phase I get a menstrual schedule, these two months feels very painful when the monthly routine schedule arrives.
"Wait, your face looks pale, does it hurt?" He led me to sit down, gave me a bottle of water, and gave me a handkerchief. "your silence is sweaty." I received the handkerchief, amazed by his attentive manner, I thought he was very indifferent, I thought he was very attentive, it turns out he noticed my situation.
"Finished in the children's polyclinic, take me to the gynecological polyclinic" I saw him widen his eyes when he heard my words
"You pregnant? Are you not an ...." His sentence stopped, I knew what word he meant
"Widow ....?" He nodded his head "geez, you think only pregnant women are in control of the gynecological polyclinic?"
"Then?"
"I just want to check the condition of the uterus, before pregnancy Atma I have endometriosis, explain that to you it feels pointless."
"Clear" he said briefly, holding the sleeping Atma.
Now the arrival of Atma is examined by a pediatrician who handles Atma since infancy.
"Well my doctor will do the advice that the doctor gave me" I'll do anything for Atma to make her normal like any other child, enough of Atma's eyes and heart were affected by the TORCH virus that I suffered during her pregnancy, not for Atma's growth. I also completed Atma's health consultation, I will prove to everyone that my son is perfect. I went to the uterine polyclinic to check the condition of my uterus to stay with Rama and Atma who accompanied me.
"Mas, let me change my arms around Atma, worried that your hands are sore."
"No need, he's comfortable don't bother"
"It's okay." I also took Atma from the sling of Rama, and sure enough Atma was crying not want me to carry, Rama immediately took over the body of Atma and fondled it again.
"And I told you earlier, you just disturb us, stay quiet, baby, your mama is a prank, already not crying, already angry mama Amanda her" said mas Rama talking and cradling while glancing at me, I just chipped irritated, mas Rama and Atma very sticky within a week, even Atma prefer mas Rama than I mama his, even more, can I be jealous of their closeness?
"Don't look at me like that, you know, you look really ugly with that kind of expression"
"I don't care"
"My blood is flowing in the body of the Atma at this time, maybe that's why we're close even though the Atma is not my flesh and blood, so don't give such protesting gazes!"
"Excuse me, can I sit next to you?"
"Please happen to be empty" I stopped the debate with Rama, although he still glanced at me, and smiled nosily, as if he was happy to see me upset.
"Look at your mad mama dear" she brought Atma's face closer to me "kiss your mama, let her anger disappear" as I smiled seeing Atma's face giggling amusedly as her face stuck to mine, it seems like they are really compact to judge me, behind the cold and thin attitude of Rama, I find warm and caring attitude in him, several times I have met I have become accustomed to the rigid attitude and his insistent speech but he is the type of man who is loving and caring. Duh what do I think of her? Remember Amanda, keep your heart and mind from thinking about other men like Janu's sister said before leaving. I commemorated myself....
"You look harmonious and happy family" said the woman beside me, I just smiled at her, felt wrong when called family because there was really no relationship between me and Rama, I was just smiling, I switched the conversation to not focus on us.
"Who's pregnant?"
"Call me just Vanya, just want a check on the health of me and my husband, just pray that soon be given confidence"
"I'm Amanda and this is Rama and my son Atma"
"She's so funny Amanda, her cheeks are stuffy, and handsome, can I take a picture of her?" I nodded too
"So please grab my phone in the back pocket, it looks like there's a message" I also took Rama's cell phone, I heard the voice of someone greeting a woman I just knew, a voice that is not familiar to me, a voice that is not familiar to me, doubt I turned my body towards the source of the sound, and it turned out....
"Mas Denis" I muttered softly, Rama turned to me, and whispered
"You know her?" I nodded too
"He who has cast us off"
"Be normal" said Rama
"Mas introduce this Amanda, Rama and also his son, funny yes mas his son, handsome, I want a cute and handsome child like this if later we have children." vanya said excitedly with a fluffy smile, Denis nodded stiffly looking at us. Had Vanya known I was Denis' ex-wife and the child he called handsome and funny was the son of her husband who was not recognized by him, could she still smile like this? Because I also forgot how to smile when dealing with him now ....
