
This loyalty and holiness has been taken for granted.The memory of the beginning and the beginning of the meeting always haunts me at this time.
The self that is so fragile, looks more and more fragile.
the love that I was so proud of turned out to be just wishful thinking*.
Relax, calm down you need to stay calm. Do not ignite emotions all need a process. You're a strong woman.
(my inner voice whispers like that).
I heard the frenzied laughter of my son who was playing, accompanied by his father.
He was so happy and happy, he felt like he had no heavy burden like an adult.
Indeed, being a child is much more fun than being an adult, especially if it is matured by circumstances.
Suddenly I remembered something, which is that I have not replaced this bed sheet.
I just replaced it and cleaned the bed.
then after that I immediately went into the kitchen to take a drink and prepare milk for Alzam.
"Alzam, let's sleep yuk. Now it's malem lhoo." (take me to him).
"Wait a minute, Mom, I still want to play with you.
Anyway I still want to play the point. "
"Alzam darling, let's go to bed!
Tomorrow I promise I'll take alzam Sama mom for a walk. "
"Tumben is so good."
(i answered to yoga).
"No papa is the deck mumpung tomorrow weekend right.
We can walk the animal garden or anywhere, it's up to you anyway deck. "
"Yeyeye engrossed me tomorrow for a walk. If so, I want to sleep."
Then the three of us immediately went into the room, before that I took a little snack for Alzam. Because maybe later he will be downstream or want to pee must always ask for a snack.
"Mother, before going to bed Alzam wants to be read a fairy tale sikancil dong!"
"alzam has not peed yet?"
(asked him).
"Udah kok ma'am, it's fast I read the fairy tale."
I picked up a book and read it right away.
"In ancient times, there lived a farmer who lived alone in the forest.
Call it Mr. Sahid, he's a good farmer and so friendly.
Once upon a time the rainy season came with a rush.
Because at that time Pak Sahid only had a supply of cassava, so he could only cook cassava.
Either boiled or burned.
Gradually, the field of sahid sir planted with cucumbers will soon bear fruit .
Incidentally because of the rainy season, Pak Sahid waited for his cucumber in a hut.
Suddenly from a distance came the sound of asking for help, or like the roar of a wild forest goat.
Without realizing it, Sahid immediately reflexes to find the source of the sound.
It turns out that there was a donkey trapped in a rat trap. Pak Tani immediately helped him and brought his shackles.
Long story short the donkey even stole all the cucumbers sir Sahid, and ate all. "
I haven't finished my story yet, I see Alzam asleep.
Then I immediately blanketed and I put on an anti-mosquito lotion.
"Like him I'm also sleepy mas, I want to sleep." (my word on mas yoga).
"Okay well deck, go to bed soon you must be tired."
These eyes actually do not want to be closed. But since I've been willing to sleep, so inevitably I have to sleep.
I see yoga mas still engrossed with his cell phone, like he was on a video call.
Without thinking any longer I ventured to open my voice.
"Who's phone?"
"So he said he wanted to sleep on the deck, I haven't slept yet."
"Jawab mas, who's the same phone?"
"What the hell is the deck, why are you so bawell like this.
Can you trust your husband?
Who did the bone slam work for? if not for both of you."
"You are what mas, just answer the same phone who would even reveal the work.
Just so you know, I'm silent like this not because I don't know anything.
And all your words are lies."
"What do you mean?"
(ask yoga to me).
"You're just as cheating, aren't you, your relationship has been too close and it's been a long time? "
"What do you say, what's the evidence? To the extent that you accuse me like that deck."
Without waiting for long, I immediately called Rossa to send a photo of mila and mas yoga this afternoon.
"Yeah Ross, just send it.
Okay thanks Ross."
"Okay Din's the same."
(Jawab rossa to me right now).
"Here look, look fast!
You still want to lie how else."
(without me noticing these tears coming down, not because I was too weak, but because I had harbored this disappointment for too long).
"I'm close to her because she's just a coworker deck.
And for the photo, because I think he's sad so I immediately embrace him.
I mean nothing else to him. "
"Why should sad people smile at you?
Do you think that's a good thing?
Married men alone with other women, with reason because it comforts women who are sad.
It's bullshit."
"Have the deck don't be like a little kid who is a little angry, a little bit cranky like that.
I as a husband feel quite offended by what you accuse me of."
"It's fine, but one day if I have the right evidence to make you commit an affair I won't stay silent. Remember that mas! "
After the incident, I could only cry and felt very disappointed.
Why is my husband so happy with me? (In my heart I wondered).
"I'm sorry deck, if my words make you sad.
But I don't think you're like that anymore. Do not be too overprotective you should be able to be a wife who believes in her husband.
Remember the most important thing for you, the husband has provided birth and the mind is enough.
I'm just asking for that deck, all you have to hold is my responsibility. "
After a moment of silence, I finally opened my voice.
"Well, what should I do? With my eyes and head I saw for myself how you with mila like a married couple.
Then what should I assume again?
Every day you call, you chat with her. Can't I be angry? can't I be jealous?
And while you were working I also saw what you were looking at.
Bulsittt if it's no special relationship mas."
"It's free to deck, explaining to the wife who can't trust her husband. "
"Well, if you think so. I'm following your wishes, and don't blame me if I ever find out about your secrets."