
Meanwhile, yoga is still engrossed with Alzam.
I saw the phone that sounded from earlier.
There was a phone call, the sound continued from earlier. "
"Yes deck, Alzam dear father pick up the phone first huh? You played with mom. "
Then yoga rushed to leave me,
he's on the front porch.
It's been about twenty minutes more but why haven't I entered the house, my mind in my heart.
Then I approached her, before I called the yoga mas I heard a woman whispering with her on the phone.
I faintly heard the woman say that she was very upset with my husband.
Unexpectedly yoga mas know me that I was behind him.
Falling down the coffee glass that I made earlier, because he was so nervous.
"Be careful dong mas, so if you drink coffee it sits. Who's on the phone to miss everything?"
(asked him).
"Old friend of the deck, yeah I took a shower first. "
Without saying a word, he left me alone.
Then I immediately entered the house, intending to check the mobile phone mas Yoga.
But my guess is wrong, it turns out his cellphone was taken to take a shower.
Geezn, take a shower just have to bring a cell phone, kekemblung closet to know the taste. (My mummy in heart).
While waiting for Yoga, I prepared dinner.
It just so happened that mom bought the grilled chicken and rendang that I brought this morning.
"Sir, is the food ready yet?"
(Ask my father).
"Already sir, let's pack our dinner shirts! "
"Yeah nduk, your mother just prayed isya'.
In a moment here, you call Yoga tell him to come eat. "
"Yes sir, he's the same old toy."
I immediately called him. He was still busy with his cell phone, but only his son momong.
"Mas called you to dinner. Let Alzam I take care, all you want me to bribe. "
"Okay deck ."
"Come ga! eat a lot to be full." (pater asked mas yoga).
"Yes sir is full sir.
Are you busy selling cows? "
"Yes still to ga, because the father if at home continues not to feel at home.
Even though my father is old spirit is still four and five dong hehe. "
"Yes should be so dong sir. "
The atmosphere at the dining table feels so warm.
the gathering of his children, son-in-law and grandchildren makes the mood of the father and mother look happy.
Before I got married, you told us to stay here. He made me a home to be close to him.
Because I happen to be the only and only child.
For him I was a favorite child, I was so spoiled and my life used to be all adequacy.
Until the time to get married the house is already prepared.
But reality is not in accordance with expectations, mas yoga changed his mind.
He asked me to stay with his parents, on the grounds that his mother was sick and his father was gone.
With a heavy heart I actually refused his invitation to stay with the in-laws.
I had a fight at that time, but because I was a person who could not bear so I agreed to his wishes.
Instantly my daydreams opened, when I heard my son's call.
"Mother, my mother is full.
I want a toy like Mbah kakung, was mbah uti buyin me a toy fighter so I want to play it. "
"Alzam, it's been a toy all day.
So now it's time to rest, Mbah kakung sama mbah uti must also rest."
"No need for toys. "
(while crying and wailing)
"Udah deck is not papa, just let the toy be the same as me.
"You're tired too."
(my answer is to him).
"No papa deck, you if you want to rest please deck. "
"Yeyeye I'm a toy with dad, mom watching TV!"
Without saying a word I left the two of them in the guest room.
Then I went to my room to see my favorite movie.
Suddenly I remembered my diary book long ago .
I looked for it and I opened it up sheet by sheet. I was amazed by my writing that reminded me so much of something.
"*Ki******birds chaos in space, the,
the rain that drenches the earth.
The blossoming leaves,
As if changing such a situation.
I saw the clock clanking on the sidelines of my daydream.
The beautiful chants of the Quran echoed in my room.
Make my heart keep calm pus syahdu****.
*K*****u hopes for the beauty that always envelops me and approaches me.
Sayup-sayup I heard the beautiful harbor dock****.
*Pe****boats that line up and sail
it looks so majestic sailing across the ocean.
I would love to be a boat that sails regardless of fate and circumstances****.
*Pe****heart will only be a hindrance to this life,
beauty debris is invisible only because of the seduction of haunting nestapa****.
*Pe*****questions and statements that always make the feeling of being worried and anxious
how not? my wait was paid with disappointment****.
*In****gin it seems I became a free-flying butterfly without load****..
*Su*****the rain spots wet the soil I was treading.
Shouted the night breeze
that is all the blessing and power of the Creator, the almighty God****.
Yes Rabb show me your way if this is the best.
*D*****attach me with your protection
grant me sincerity and patience
give me an ocean-wide heart to be a forgiver.
Without being a vindictor****."
I was so impressed with my writing. Which is still so neat without the interference of others.
I was quite fond of writing at that time.
I used to run a school poetry race.
I won that race and got the award. Then I was chosen to represent the sub-district level.
Although I did not get a champion 1 at that time, but I have entered the top three .
It makes me even more proud to be able to hone my skills.
Motivational hopes always ring in this mind.
Being a successful and devoted child to parents is a dream for everyone.
Despite his current reality, I have not been able to make my parents happy.
And can only trouble him.
No tears fell soaking this diary book.
I woke up from sitting down and I closed the book and then I returned it.
What is it about this self that is so fragile? This mind haunts all the twists and turns of love's journey.
The scattering of questions and memories became one moment.
Between me this can accept or as a submissive woman.
Those words are my motivation right now.
In my heart I can only say:
("Why did you really betray me, why did you have so much heart for me.
I really don't think you're treating me with her).