Back To the Beginning
Fainter Light
For almost two weeks I exchanged short messages with Candra and almost every night she called me. We exchanged stories until we forgot the time, for hours talking about unimportant things, not sometimes I feel annoyed and hang up from him when he starts doing his pranks, sometimes I smile or laugh at his jokes, like two new high schoolers dating.
"tomorrow holiday, want to walk?? watch yuk?" take Candra while our phone is still connected and even hit 02.00 in the morning.
"no ahh kayak high school boy dating"
"it's okay let's try"
"no!"
"why the hell? am I not handsome? or less established?"
"everyone who loves sees him handsome and well-established? I think you're wrong, I'm closing, you're sleepy!"
"bi.buntar, don't sulk dong, sorry I was wrong to say"
"ah ah bye" I hung up.
I'm upset with these guys, they think women like us can be just as flattened as they like the material, I convinced my heart to stay away from a creature called MAN.
I fell asleep until noon, thankfully it's a holiday.
tok. tok..tok.tok the sound of knocking on the door built me, I looked at the clock.
I then took a hair tie and twisted the height of my hair and immediately opened the door.
"Hay.. good afternoon" Candra greeted me and looked surprised at my appearance, because just woke up I forgot to still wear my husband's shirt that was a bit oversized and not wearing pants, he said, not even a bra, my God.
"sorry you go in and sit on the couch first"
then I quickly changed my clothes and headed to the living room.
"why replaced? pretty tau" Candra held back her laugh.
"it's uda noon princess.. 11:00 woyy"
"whatever!" I replied still upset, I decided to leave it alone and started making drinks in the kitchen.
"don't bother, no longer thirsty anyway.we just talk first" Candra's voice surprised me, jeez this is why people suddenly come in here anyway!!
after the tea I made so I put it on the table in front of Candra.
"please drink it"
"bi... Can we talk seriously?"
"what's wrong?"
Candra approached me and took my hand, "bi.... I honestly like you, can our relationship be more than just friends?" candra said expectantly.
I'm actually not surprised if Candra evaporates her feelings, mature women certainly understand if there are men who approach her, but my heart is not ready.
"i don't think it's like, it's just comfortable because for almost a month we've been together, you don't even know me at all and vice versa...." my words were suddenly cut off by him
"just because we don't know each other, let's both find out, fill and complement each other".
I smiled cynically.
"do you know I'm a widow with one child? it's no longer the virgin you want" my words this time kept Candra quiet for quite a while, I knew she was shocked to hear it but I had to be honest so that she would no longer expect me.
"i don't care about bi... and about virgins? who cares?" the answer is steady
"it's Candra's time, you should just find a woman who is appropriate and suitable for you, sorry I can not take long to receive guests because I am at work" I said standing up.
"okay I'm home, thanks for the tea.Good afternoon". Candra walked without looking back at the car and drove away, my heart hurt a little but I was confused as to what I was feeling.
