Gavin - Survive On The Terrible Island
Chapter 42's

humm . My head feels heavy..

looks like I'm completely out of the way.

the wounds on my body still hurt.I think I'm dead.I almost never rest makes me forget that I'm not superhuman..

and when I try to open my eyes..

under the big tree I saw everyone sitting down and shedding their tears.

" what are you crying about ?? I'm not dead yet.. "

" gavinn...?! "

" vinn.. ! " little screams rara as soon as I clenched my body lying on the ground "thankfully "

" you've kissed vinn...? thank goodness. hiks. I think. I think I can not see you again.hiks " said Marissa standing while rubbing both eyes that continue to shed tears.

cih. I'm very bad.., to the point of worrying girls like this

" be calm.wounds like this are nothing.. "

" you've always been like that vinn." replied marissa again.and Rara still didn't want to take her arms off my body, I was so claustrophobic..

" bro. ? "

" oh. are you better nico ? "

" bro I'm sorry" said Nico holding back tears with one hand covering both eyes.

" what did you say nico?? you don't have to apologize to me. You didn't do anything wrong "

" but because of me you got like this bro.., huu.u "

" hey stop it. Your crying is so bad to hear .. "

" what about the wound on your leg nico ?? " just ask again

" it's okay.I'm fine.just look at it. "answer nico shows his legs wrapped in taro leaves and wiggling his legs in front of me.

" oh, you said fine, when I could see your very tight face withstanding the pain as you moved your feet "

" oh you know bro.. "

" everyone knows to pay attention .. "

" ehh !?? meaning. " murmured nico while staring at the clara beside him. he seemed to make sure that he did not succeed in lying to clara

" don't be strong-willed" said clara, glancing at nico "your wound may open again and it may be amputated "

" ehhh really... up to the whole thing ?? " tanya nico with a pale face facing clara

" haha, you guys always look funny.. "

after laughing loosely, I looked towards them, but they looked like they were holding back a smile with a sad face

" it's the first time I've seen my sister laugh so loosely " said clara smiling slightly looking up at me "I'm happy "

it turns out that she was holding back her tears for me too. I really didn't like this atmosphere

" can you all not put on a face like that ?? I am very uncomfortable with this atmosphere.This wound is nothing. soon it will also recover. "

ah.., again I feel strong.when I can feel my left leg that seems to be injured quite badly.

It's sad.. ! maybe I'll walk limping from here on out..

" all because of my fault.because of me you guys get hurt.if only I was more careful when taking water for drinking... "

" no clara. it's my fault.., because I'm so weak that I can easily get bitten with the crocodile "welcome nico to answer rara's words "if only I could help you unharmed "

" dumb. What are you guys really saying ?? "

for a moment, everyone became silent after I said that.

yes, because I was feeling that way too.I kept remembering the incident about Adit who might die from my carelessness. words of forgiveness and self-blame will only satisfy me for a while .and the burden will continue to fill my body and mind..

" LIST.from now on no one can blame himself like that. I don't want to know any reason.just do what you can to help us get out of this hell. understand ?? "

" me. understand. bro "

" meng.erti sis "

" umm. yes vinn "

you have to be like that. Let me carry all the burdens myself. Because I am strong enough for this.

" it seems like the sky is getting darker and the air feels so humid.it may rain.we should look for a place to take shelter "

" do you mean our brother went to the palace building ? "

" yes, there is no better place than that "

" even if you say that, bro, but I feel that place is very bad for me "

" it's just your feeling nico. There's no bad place in this forest.you have to remember it's "

" humm. "

" all right come on "

" can you stand up vinn ? " tanya Rara looked closely at my face

I looked at him and said

" do I look like a dying man ?? " i replied with a small smile.I mean with this slick smile I connected my words "I don't even feel pain anymore.so calm down "

once again I forced my body to get up. It was very painful and so difficult to move.

but.., uh...,

" arghhh ! " along with that cry of compulsion I managed to lift my body that felt so heavy and began to force to walk

looking at me who seemed to have trouble, Rara grabbed my body once more from my left side to guide me

" let me help you too" said Marissa who came to put my arm to her shoulder from the right side

" it's okay to let Rara guide me.. "

" humms ? ooh. okay.. "

slowly Marissa removed my arm from her shoulder.His eyes were reluctant to look at me.The look on her face showed like a disappointed person.

" i..

" well, let me lead the way in front.nico was also hurt.hehe" said Marissa cut my words.he walked quickly forward without glancing at me one bit.

this strange feeling.I feel guilty for her.., is it because I didn't let her lead me too ?

but I find it more difficult to walk led by two people, and it's dangerous because our path will be slower..

we set foot to walk towards the forgotten palace..

I don't know why I feel so bad..

but what can we do now ??

nico and I are hurting.Hopeing for the girls to protect us in the woods like this is suicidal.

I cannot despair if despair is tantamount to accepting death.

ah. the good life of people out there, they can be desperate at any time and lie comfortably in his bed

this time I envy the weaknesses of others.