A Flick of Asa For Love
CHAPTER 73

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What the hell happened to him? What pain is he? Why do my friends know better first and I know nothing? Widya's head was filled with such questions, as she occasionally wiped a circle of tears that did not stop coming down from her cheeks. Still seen the photo of Nathan as if to find out what happened to Nathan through the photo. Nathan's face on the phone disappears and turns into a phone call. The name of Harsa is visible on the screen of the phone Widya is holding.

"Hello, assalamualaikum, Wid. It's okay, right?" In an anxious tone Harsa started her greeting. She has made phone calls to Widya dozens of times, but her number is always out of reach. So that Harsa was worried about Widya's situation.

"Vaalaikumsallam's chat. It's okay, Sa. How's Nathan doing?" The first thing Widya worries about is Nathan's condition.

"Where to go? The phone wasn't picked up, and there was no response either." Harsa ignored Widya's question. Because he was more worried if Widya was the reason why.

"HP I'm dead, Sa. I forgot not to worry from noon," explained Widya.

Harsa sighed in relief, "That's exactly what worries me. I kept thinking the same. Afraid there's nothing with you".

"Ih, so overthiking, anyway! Time because HP is dead, keep happening something with me. I deliberately matainin HP when tutoring with lecturers, fear of guidance I disturbed. Uh, it turns out I was even preoccupied with chatting with friends, and forgot to turn on again," explained Widya.

"Oh, I think you lost kidnapped people," joked Harsa trying to melt the awkwardness due to his attitude that seemed excessive. Simply let Widya get comfortable with thinking she's a good friend who's always been there for her, without having Widya know that she still harbors a great sense of love for the girl.

How not so much love does Harsa have? Even when Widya has chosen the man she loves, she is still at home to be single. It's not that Harsa doesn't want to try to forget Widya. However, whenever he tries to get close to the girls who are interested in him, Harsa finds absolutely no vibration in his heart like being close to Widya. And so, he decided to go it alone. Until he can completely forget Widya.

"Tried, Sa! Tried it! Who knows for a long time you like 'tresno jalaran soko kuline', as the Javanese say" Such advice Zakir who somehow suddenly crossed Harsa's mind. Those words were always responded to with mockery by Harsa, because the self-admonishing ones fared the same. Both are still jomlo. Actually, Harsa is afraid to try, because she is afraid that she will hurt other girls again by pretending to love the girl, while in her heart there is still Widya.

"It can, lo. You haven't answered my question. How's Nathan doing?" Widya's voice across the phone broke Harsa's daydream.

"Gue doesn't know, he's still in the doctor's care. I was gonna ask for Nathan's mom number. I want to tell you Nathan's in the hospital."

Silence without any answer from Widya. Harsa who realized Widya was holding something back whether it was a cry or a curiosity tried to tell. "So I met him in the campus parking lot. His face looked pale, hot and limp, so I took him to the hospital. He even fainted in the car" Harsa said.

Until Harsa finished telling the story there was no response from Widya. Harsa tries to understand Widya's feelings by calming her down. "Lo don't worry! I'm sure Nathan will be fine. Maybe he's just exhausted. Don't be sad! You want to see Nathan?" Harsa's question throws Widya into a tight fit.

"Ehm .. how about later, Sa. I thought about it. I am busy again." Widya.

Harsa knows that's Widya's only excuse. Widya must not be okay. Maybe Widya needs some time to think, so Harsa ends her phone.

"Yes, it's okay. I hung up the phone, yeah. If there's Nathan's mom's phone number, please send it to me, yeah!"

"Yes" said Widya. The call is over. A moment later Widya also sent Liana's mobile number via WhatsApp chat. Simultaneously, a personal chat notification from Karin appeared.

Karin: Widya, Nathan is sick. I'm the same Kartika wants to see him. You want to come by, don't you?"

The message was long-sighted by Widya. The sound of notifications on his HP was heard alternately. Widya did not care, even though she knew the notification came from the room chatt 'friend forever'.

Actually Widya feels sorry and anxious about Nathan's condition, but her ego is strong enough to make her still reluctant to meet Nathan. Especially to communicate with his ex-girlfriend. She was afraid that her heart would waver and accept back the guy. The trauma from the pain in his heart had not healed.

When he daydreams about his relationship with Nathan. He again saw a photo of Nathan that Zakir sent in the group. Suddenly, his conscience came back. Nathan looks pale, so thin and looks unkempt. Was Vina's words right then? Nathan's life is destroyed by his separation from Widya. Is it true that Nathan suffered after the breakup? The sound of HP's vibration shifted his attention. The name Karin was calling on the main screen of her phone. Perhaps because the message was ignored, Karin called Widya.

"Girishal, Wid. Lo why, anyway? My message was read, not answered. If you don't want to come see Nathan it's okay, but at least reply to my message. I know you're still angry with Nathan, but now it's another condition, Wid. Nathan's sick again. Ehm .. I'm the same Kartika can, right, see him? He's our best friend, after all." Karin hesitantly revealed her point. He was afraid of hurting his best friend's feelings.

"It's okay, Rin. You guys go look at Nathan. I'm coming too." exclaimed Widya. He was finally ready to meet Nathan.

"Yes, Wid? Do you want to go with Nathan?" ask Karin to make sure.

"Yes." Yeah." Widya nodded her head even though she knew Karin could not see her.

"Lo is a good friend, Wid. I know you're not a vengeful person. I'm proud to have a friend like you."

"Gruby." Widya chuckled softly, and Karin chuckled at it. Widya realizes that Nathan is not only her ex-lover, but also a good friend to her. However, for now he is not ready to meet Nathan.

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The plan to see Nathan they did in the afternoon. The right time when campus routines and routine work are done. And now, they are in one of the private hospitals in Jakarta, where Nathan is being treated. Nathan is being treated in a VVIP room. When Harsa, Edo, Zakir, Karin, and Kartika entered the room, there was already Liana accompanying Nathan. Nathan himself closed his eyes.

Liana invited the five of them to come in and sit on the available sofa. Liana was a little surprised to see Widya coming. The first thing he did was hug Widya's body tightly. Not expecting if Widya is willing to visit her son who has hurt her heart.

"Thank you, yeah, honey. You've been going to see Nathan" said Liana behind Widya's back. Widya just nodded her head, then unraveled their embrace. After that, Liana's gaze turned to Harsa, Edo, and Zakir in turn. "Thank you also for those of you who yesterday had brought Nathan to the hospital" said Liana sincerely.

"Together, Aunt. Nathan, right, our best friend. We let him pass out on the streets" Zakir licked.

Zakir's voice awakens Nathan. Both of his eyes slowly opened. Try adjusting the light that fills the room. The first thing he saw was Widya. Nathan tried to sharpen his vision.

"Darling ...." Nathan's voice sounded soft. It made everyone's attention turn to him.

"Where are you, Nat?" zakir asked first.

Nathan commented with a faint smile, his eyes still fixed on Widya. "It's good, Zak. Thanks, yeah, for bringing me here, including you, Sa!" For a moment Nathan's gaze moved on Harsa, but seconds later he looked back at Widya.

"Sama-sama," Harsa briefly replied. He knows that Nathan's focus isn't on him. Makes his heart a little upset.

Other friends realize that. Slowly they retreated from their place. To make room for Nathan and Widya. Maybe they want to talk to both. That's how they think. Although it was hard, Harsa did that too. Slowly her body moved, following the movements of her friends as well as Liana. "We're out first, yeah. You guys talk!" pamit Liana who immediately led Nathan's friends to leave the room.

Silent. Nathan and Widya were both silent.

Until Widya's voice is heard first, "Why can it hurt? You have a body, don't you, dear?" widya asked, while watching Nathan's body look thin dry with cheeks more thin than before. I want him to cry when he sees Nathan's situation like that, especially he said it was because of breaking up from Widya. However, of course Widya had to hold back her tears to come out. Therefore, all also did not escape the fault of Nathan.

Nathan sighed and tried to smile even if slightly forced. "Maybe because I don't know how to love properly. I hurt people who love me too. So much my love, but so much the hurt I gave," Nathan said. Of course Widya knew what Nathan meant. "Yourselves why does it look so much more slushy? Think of me, huh?” nathan asked, followed by his eyebrows that went up and down asking for an explanation and tried to tease Widya.

"No need to get into the topic! My body has always been this way, too" Widya said. Although a little awkward, Widya can still show her angry face. Looks like Nathan's attitude is back.

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