A Flick of Asa For Love
CHAPTER 56

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Since the last meeting with Nathan, Cindy's life has been completely unsettled. Many things have troubled him. Ranging from car tires that suddenly deflated to confined in the campus bathroom all day. Now Cindy feels vengeance from Nathan. Until he asked for an escort to his parents, but was rejected by his father because it was considered lebay. As a result, almost every day fateful events happen to him.

“Gue did not expect, you actually sell this to me, Nath,” groaned in his heart as he was again confined in the campus warehouse.

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Vina is still trying hard to get Nathan's attention. He even pretended to be sick and was treated at IGD. But Nathan remained in his decision. He will try to stay away from Vina so that Widya will come back to him.

This week he was active on campus to see Widya, but only today Dewi Fortuna sided with him. He saw Widya from a distance. He wanted to approach the idol, but he did not have the courage. Finally he could only see Widya from behind the library wall, hoping to slightly treat his longing for the woman he loved so much.

“I miss you. Do you feel the same? This love is still big for you. I will fight for us to get back together, Nathan's inner” when he sees Widya smiling at Karin and Kartika.

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A few days passed, since he saw Widya the other day. Nathan never saw Widya again. Although he always comes early and willingly waits until the afternoon on campus. The hope is only one, he wants to meet and try to restore his relationship with Widya. Nathan can no longer live without Widya.

“I'm really tormented without you, Yang. I miss you.” The longing was getting stifling for Nathan. Suppose he could, he wanted to see Widya at his home, but his guts were quite shrunken if he had to deal with his father and mother. The guilt of Widya's parents always haunts her. He had already hurt their daughter and it made Nathan never feel at ease. “One day, I must have ventured to meet my father and mother and I hope they can forgive me,” he murmured inwardly.

Today luck is on Nathan's side. Eventually Nathan accidentally meets Widya on campus, but Widya avoids him when she sees Nathan walking towards her.

“Lo where to go?” asked Karin who was watching Widya turn around.

“Sorry. I didn't go to the cafeteria. You guys go first!” Widya chimed in with anxiety. Afraid that Nathan would approach her.

“Lah, said lo laper?” Kartika looked confusedly at Widya.

“You guys pack batagor, yeah, make me! I'm first, bye.” Widya hurried away from Karin and Kartika. It makes Kartika and Karin shake their heads to see Widya's strange behavior. However, when Kartika and Karin realize the existence of Nathan they finally understand.

Nathan, who sees Widya running away after seeing her, feels hurt. His heart feels so sore. “It's that you hate me, Yang? Until you don't see me anymore. Is it my fault that you stay away from me?” Nathan stared at Widya's back, which was further away from his sight. “But I cannot be discouraged. I will prove that I still love you and you mean so much to me. You are the most important thing in my life.” Nathan cheers himself up. He tries to find Widya's whereabouts, but Nathan fails to find her.

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Every time Widya went home from college she must have been in a hurry, as if not giving Nathan the slightest gap. Today, however, luck is back on Nathan's side. They met at the cafe, but Widya was indifferent as if she did not know him. Nathan wants to come over, but when their eyes meet, Nathan is again hurt and guilt increasingly squeezes the recesses of his heart. There was a deep look of disappointment in Widya's pretty eyes and it made Nathan undo his intention to greet Widya.

"Darling, is that how you are the same as me? How deep was the wound I had cut that made you no longer want to greet me? Can I still heal that wound?" inner Nathan, when he saw Widya who passed him just like that without saying hello to him. I don't feel her tears dripping. However, soon he rubbed his rough cheeks that had been wet. He ventured after Widya, until he managed to grab Widya's hand when Widya was about to ride her matic motorcycle.

“Wid,” call it sad.

Widya. There was a warm feeling running through his heart when he heard the voice he so longed for. But, soon after that voice also ripped his heart again to formless. “Lease!” lirih.

“We need to talk, Honey. I'm really sorry. I can't without you. Give me a chance to fix everything. I beg!” Nathan cuddling.

“Nothing else to talk about. Everything is done,” circus Widya.

“Now, Honey. We can't just finish. The love we have still thrives in our hearts. Come on, let's start over again! I promise I won't repeat the same mistake. I'll stay away from Vina if it makes you give me a chance.” Nathan's voice was shaking. It feels like he is almost desperate to see Widya who does not waver with his decision.

“The feeling of love may still be there, but for a truly serious relationship, love alone is not enough. And I thought, you're not that serious about being in a relationship with me. So, instead of forcing ourselves to continue together, but in the end hurting each other, mending we do not need to be together. We live our own lives.”

“Neg. I really can't without you. Don't ignore me like this! I can die, darling,” beg Nathan, “law me as much as you, but don't leave me. I beg!” This time Nathan really did. In fact, now he knelt before Widya while holding both hands Widya.

“Wake, Nath!" widya Lirih. He could not deny, his heart also hurt to see the person he loved begging like that in front of him.

“I won't wake up before you give me a chance.”

Widya spread her gaze. Seeing the gazes of everyone who was now fixed on them, he began to feel uneasy. “Nath, don't be stubborn! I don't want to be the center of attention. Look, people are watching us,” exclaimed Widya.

“I stick to my decision, if you stick to your decision.”

“Are you unhappy with me?”

Again, Widya sighed. It'll take a long time to explain to Nathan. “Don't be like this, wake up! We sit on that bench,” Widya said as she pointed to an empty bench in front of the cafe.

Nathan also got up. They ended up sitting together on that bench. “Dengerin me! Honestly, my heart was still so hurt by your treatment back then. It's like you showed me that I mean nothing to you. You've broken my heart to formless, Nath.” Without feeling the clear details escaped from the corner of Widya's eye.

Nathan who saw it rushed to wipe it off with his thumb. “I'm sorry. That's the stupidest thing I've ever done. I'm sorry,” he said grudgingly.

“I've forgiven you. But in the end I realized, I had to save my heart that was living in the rubble. I don't want to get any fainter. Please respect my decision. Leave me alone. Give me time to heal my wounds. You know, right?” Widya looked expectantly at Nathan.

Nathan's heart was pierced with pain. Maybe it felt like thousands of needles were stuck in his heart. Nathan was silent, trying to digest Widya's words. “It turns out the wound I gave was so severe. Lord, punish me for my mistake, as long as you heal the wounds in his heart, Nathan's inner” screams, sorry for what he has done. Without him noticing the clear details again greeted the corner of his eye.

Widya, who saw Nathan tear up, felt pain, but the pain in her heart was worse. “I go.” Widya got up from her seat.

Widya's words awaken Nathan. “Can I ask for one thing?” ask Nathan himself. “Let me hold you for a moment,” please.

Widya nods. Nathan hugged Widya so tightly. It was as if he could no longer embrace his beloved heart. He kissed Widya's head with great affection. Until quite a long time, Widya finally said goodbye because Arini had been waiting at home. With a heavy heart, Nathan took Widya off.

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Nathan immediately drove his motorbike back to his home. Arriving home, he saw Liana watering her beloved plants in the garden. Immediately he approached Liana, a cry that he could hold when in the cafe was broken in his mother's arms. Nathan could no longer, his life spirit was gone. Now his life feels empty. Various ways he has done, but Widya still does not want to change his decision.

Liana who knew the state of her son also felt sad. Just a warm mouth and hug he gave to his beloved son.

"Ma, how's Nathan going, Ma? Nathan can't lose Widya. But Nathan's fault is huge, Ma. Widya doesn't want to go back with Nathan. Nathan is evil with Widya." With a hiccup Nathan complained to his mother.

Mama Liana was getting sad to see her son. No matter how mature he is, it remains like a child to him. "Let's have room for Widya, yeah, baby! Don't be so pushy! Poor Widya too. If you are a match, God will love the way for you to be united again" said Liana.

"Nathan niesel, Ma. Stupid Nathan wasted Widya. What if Widya really hates Nathan? Nathan can't live without Widya" said Nathan, still in tears.

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Two weeks have passed since his last meeting with Widya. Nathan really doesn't have the spirit of life. He is in the life phase of refusing to die. Nathan keeps shutting himself in the room. His body looked thinner because it rarely ate. The time can be spent remembering Widya in the room and sleeping.

Liana, Vina, and Nathan's two younger siblings are so saddened to see Nathan's current state. There were various ways they tried to persuade Nathan, but all of them were nil. Nathan became cold and did not want to know.

“I didn't expect, that much love you made Widya,” Inner Vina as she was again rejected by Nathan. During these two weeks he tried to meet Nathan to seek sympathy from Nathan. However, all ended the same, namely Nathan's rejection. He could not even see that handsome face anymore. Nathan only allowed the mother to enter his room.

“Until when are you like this, Son?” Liana, unable to solve the problem of the son, tells her husband everything. Lesmana finally intervened. He sends Zacky, Nathan's best friend in Singapore to see Nathan.

Zacky is one of the people who can control Nathan's emotions. He was considered a big brother by Nathan. Zacky's plan to persuade Nathan was successful. He offers a side job for Nathan so he can forget a moment of his heartbreak.

However, even so, Nathan's attitude is no longer the same as before. He does his work in the room. Every day he will struggle with his laptop to design the interior of Zacky's house that he just bought in Jakarta.

Liana never got tired of reminding her son to eat and rest.

“Did Nathan still not want to see Vina, Tan?” asked Vina while visiting Liana's house.

“Nathan still locked himself in the room. Maybe he still needs time to heal his disappointment. So auntie hope Vina don't bother Nathan just yet!” liana Pinta.

Vina again swallowed the disappointment pill. He misses Nathan, but Nathan doesn't want to see him. Even his number was blocked by Nathan.

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Who, huh, Zacky? Definitely not Zakir's twin sodara, yes 😅