Tone of Nara
CHAPTER 17 Changes 'Beauty is Pain’ Slashed, Crushed, Siphoned and Drugged (part 4)

This time I woke up with my whole body, hands and feet wrapped in elastic bandages. My current situation is exactly like a large Egyptian mummy. According to M, I have to go through this for the next few days until everything is completely healed. My body is really stiff and aching, it's hard to move. I heard from the talk of Mahardika and the doctor who treated me, they will give painkillers by infusion for a few days. My mind and head are very light. I was kind of floating around and my mind was hard to control.

“Hai Tone, how does it feel? It might fly a little while. Like when you mabok. Or maybe you'll feel like a hangover. I'll keep here monitoring your situation. If you feel anything unnatural, sick or whatever, you should immediately tell me,” Mahardika said as she clenched my fingers.

“Then I will instantly become skinny? Does when this bandage is opened, my body will instantly look like July?” I asked innocently, without responding to her words earlier. M just smiled while shaking. I asked this question a few times but M didn't seem to want to answer it. It seemed like he was not willing to say what would happen to my body after these bandages were opened. Maybe he didn't want me to expect too much to end up in disappointment after a long painful surgery, without pause.

Tomorrow this bandage will be opened. I wondered if my body would change. M again still wanted to avoid answering my question. But this time I won't let go. He enjoyed his coffee while sitting on the sofa in the nursery.  I kept pushing him, until he finally raised his hand, asking me to stop asking. He took a deep breath before answering my question. While standing from the sofa towards me, he tried to diplomacy for answers

my question.

“Nara, I have not been able to answer your question. But certainly there will be a lot of incisions and sashes

leather,” says M.

“After this you will re-evaluate whether it is necessary to do repetition or not. If not, then the next process is an operation that will keep this state stable in the future. Only then will we overcome the excess skin, strechmark, cellulite and scars on your body. If already we will continue by taking care of your skin,” said Mahardika. I know Mahardika wasn't too happy to tell me this. Very visible from the face and the way he talks. I have my heart, before all the processes of Nada’s Project began, I have made this man in front of me swear to always be honest and open about my process and circumstances, no matter how bad it is. Without it all I don't want to do any process. I don't want to be comforted by lies or false hope. No matter how bad I am, I need to know. Whatever consequences I will face, I must understand. I have to be fully involved in this project, not just as an object.

From the results of the examination and evaluation, the liposuction process is declared successful. The doctor will perform the next procedure. According to what I read, this process is more of a medical action than a cosmetic surgery, although many consider this part of a beauty surgery. According to what I read, the Sleeve gastrectomy method is done by removing about 75-80% of my stomach. The remaining part of the stomach is slender and elongated like a banana. That way, the stomach capacity is significantly reduced and patients will become full faster after undergoing gastric cutting surgery. Once again my body had to be sedated, slashed, cut and removed some of the parts that accompanied me from childhood.

Unlike liposuction, the recovery process from this action is not very visible. My body is mediocre. Just pain in the incision marks and a little shortness of breath. I started to be friendly with the infusion hose

which clings to my hand. I am now getting used to the presence of needles, hoses and bottles that follow me everywhere, which is called this infusion. Even he has become part of the process of changing destiny.

Want to ask how I am? I'm fine. Although I realized that I became sensitive, some times shortness of breath, uncomfortable when lying down because almost every part of my body there is an incision. But I am Nada. Not a weak girl. I am a woman who is struggling to change my destiny and my love. So I'm fine.

“I Nara ... I'm beautiful .. I'm sexy .. I'm valuable ... I'm fine,” I told myself. You asked about tears? Sure exists. But should I tell the world about my story. Should I tell the universe how much fluid my body has shed in the form of sweat and blood? You should also know that I have wasted a lot and I can no longer count. I can what?

After I was declared fine, my hull was declared to be working properly, Mahardika offered me to go home and rest. He said he wanted to give my body pause from the roar of anesthesia, the operating knife and pain. Pradipta offered me to take a vacation from the pain, enjoy the beauty of Seoul.

“No need M, don't waste time and money. Time is a luxury we do not have. Besides, I will not be able to relax on vacation because I imagine after this I have to go back to feeling the pain of many years,” I said. Mahardika. He sat next to me and hugged me. After a while, He kept his body with his hands on my shoulders.

“Cry if you want to cry. I know it hurts a lot. Beauty is pain, isn’t it?” he said with a smile and winked his eyes. I laughed bitterly.

“Hell yeah! “ I said while continuing to smile bitterly. For some reason, my tears just flowed. There was a warm feeling of receiving this treatment of the man in front of me. There is a sense of awkwardness present in my stomach. Like tickling from the inside. Like some butterflies flying in there. Maybe this is what people say Butterfly effect . But isn't that effect just for people who are in love?

I decided to reject Mahardika's offer to go for a walk. Instead of a walk and rest, I asked for the next process to be carried out immediately. There's still a long way to go. There are still a lot of places I need to collect.

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After I looked better, Mahardika decided to continue the process of changing Nara's tone. Of course with my insistence that does not stop. To me, waiting for pain wastes time and it stresses me out. I'd rather all those processes be done together if I could. Unfortunately, they have a procedure that I can't force.

This morning, Sister and Mahardika again prepared me for an abdomonoplasty.  Actually not much different from liposuction, but this is more specific. Mahardika began to draw and mark my stomach with a special pencil. After the anesthesia was given, I began to be unconscious. But from what I read, the doctor will do the incision again. The location of the incision will be made based on the image created. My incisions form various elements of the abdomen, such as muscle, fat, and tissue, and change the position of the navel.  Then, my skin will be lifted up to the rib area so that the abdominal muscles are easy to reach and tighten. The skin will be tightened on the abdominal area, while excess fat and skin will be cut and removed. As the position and shape of my belly button were changed, additional incisions were made. After everything was done, the entire incision was sewn back in my stomach wrapped.

The second process was done on my back. The doctor performs circumferential. The procedure is the same as the one I was in. It's just the location right now on the back. Cuts, straws and blood again colored my struggle. The same thing was done in my breasts.

Operation after surgery I continued to undergo after completion of the circumferential procedure, a few days later I had to fall asleep at the surgery table to perform abdominal contouring by removing excess skin & fat left after Liposuction, accompanied by strengthening of the abdominal wall.  In addition, doctors also remove excess or sagging skin around the chest and tighten the surrounding tissue to form and support the new breast shape. The pigmented area around*****dairy dilated with this action is corrected until it does not become large.  This time all it did was cut and throw away my body parts.

After finishing and mongering wounds, doctors also do cellulite treatment. This process is not too painful in my opinion, doctors remove cellulite, and strechmak with certain chemical fluids and tools. The next process was the administration of certain chemicals to make my skin white, soft and hairless.