The Azahra Heart Investigator
The Longing of the Tormenting

Rama fell silent and looked at Zahra's face, not wrong as he said, Because it is true that Rama was very tormented with all this.

"I beg you, end it all" said Zahra, hoping that Rama would make peace with him and the situation.

"Never dream, my life will never calm down before fully uncovering the case of Hana's accident" said Rama with a sharp grin.

"But instead of you promising Aminah's mother to let go of this case," Zahra told Rama.

Rama frowned, from which Zahra knew all that.

"You?"

Zahra began to clumsy, she could say that, "I heard it in the hospital," Zahra replied honestly because she had already been caught red-handed.

"Well, besides the killer, you're also a lookout, too" Rama's quip made Zahra stare intently at him.

"Go, and remember one thing, don't ever wish I'd let you live quietly, Azahra.." Rama closed the door rudely right in front of Zahra's face.

Zahra closed her eyes, just as she came and spoke at length, Rama would never let go of her, and Zahra had to prepare for the worst she might face next.

40 Days to commemorate the death of Hannah, the mother of Aminah and Rama went to Hannah's camp for nyekar and sent Doa so that Hana would have the best place by God's side.

Although sincere, both people still look sad and can not hold back their tears when sprinkling flowers kemakan their most loved ones.

"Tonight I have invited orphans to the house to pray for Hana" said Rama.

Aminah smiled, even though Hana was dead but Rama's concern never diminished in the least.

"Mom will prepare everything, thank you," said Aminah.

Rama just took a slow look and looked back at Hana's headstone.

Zahra stared at Tiara who was preparing.

"Hana's 40 days?" Ask Zahra to make sure.

Tiara nodded, "Rama invited the orphanage children to do'a together to the house of Bu Aminah,"

"Tiara," called Zahra and put on a hardened face.

"You coming?" Tiara knew very well what Zahra wanted.

Zahra nodded quickly.

"But I don't want ya, you're in trouble with Rama" said Tiara, who knows Zahra and Rama's relationship.

"Promise" said Zahra, then rushed to prepare.

The Do'a together that night began, with so much wisdom, that the voices of the orphans chanting Yasin's letter were so soothing to the soul.

Rama closed his eyes, berdo'a with all his heart, soul and mind for the peace of his lover's soul.

So did Zahra, who was so sincere in praying that Hana always got the best place on the side of Allah SWT.

Rama already knew that Zahra was present at the event that night, but he did not want to find trouble by reprimanding her and would make a scene, so he deliberately ignored Zahra and considered her to be non-existent.

After the meal, guests get a prepared meal, Zahra and Tiara help to distribute food and drinks for the children.

As soon as it was over, Aminah's mother met Tiara and Zahra who were still helping clean up on the ground floor.

"Thank you, you have helped me" said Aminah, grateful for the presence of Tiara and Zahra.

"No papa kok Bu, we are happy to be able to help" said Tiara.

"Yes Mom, you don't have to hesitate, if you need other help, I can too" Zahra said with a smile on her face.

Aminah looked very happy to hear the words of the two women in front of her.

While cleaning up the rest of the drink, Zahra accidentally spilled his blue drink, until it was wet and dirty.

"Akhs..." Peek Zahra while wagging her wet clothes.

"Be careful dong Ra" said Tiara.

"Son Zahra is not papa?" Ask Aminah.

"No papa kok Bu, just a little wet," replied Zahra did not want to make Aminah anxious.

"Well come with me, do you have to change your clothes?" Aminah.

"Udah come, you will catch a cold, you know," Aminah pulled Zahra's hand towards the top floor to change her wet clothes.

Rama was in the balcony, enjoying the beautiful sky filled with thousands of stars that night, the memory of Hana continues to appear and make him sad again, if Hana is still alive they must be happy because of their marriage,and would spend a wonderful night together like this.

Rama rubbed his hair, no matter when he would continue to imagine Hana, how could he forget the woman who was like a part of him.

Zahra wore the clothes of Hana that Aminah had given her.

"Thukan is very suitable," said Aminah who was like finding the figure of Hana in Zahra.

"But ma'am, why don't I wear this shirt," Zahra felt uncomfortable.

"No papa really, besides many clothes Hana who still have not had time to finish," said Aminah.

Zahrapun just nodded, and returned to tidying up his hijab.

"Mother down first yes, you just clean first," said Aminah who stepped away leaving Zahra alone in Hana's room.

Rama walked and intended to go home, but as he passed through Hana's room he stopped, looking at the room whose door was wide open.

Seeing a woman from behind in familiar clothes, her eyes opened wide and her heart that had expected Hana's presence seemed unable to control herself anymore.

He ran and immediately hugged the woman's body tightly from behind, pouring out all the hidden longings.

Zahra clamped as she got that sudden hug, her body stiffened and her lips locked.

"I miss you, I don't want to lose you, Hana, please, don't ever get out of my life, I can really go crazy without you," rama said with his voice that shook with the cry and embrace that felt increasingly tight in Zahra's body.

Zahra closed her eyes, so great was Rama's love for Hannah.

"I don't want to lose you, I love you very much Hana" Rama added, closing his eyes.

Zahra was increasingly unable to dwell, if Rama knew who the woman he was holding, he would surely be angry, but until when Zahra would be silent.

Zahra slowly removed Rama's hand from his body, and turned his body with a face full of anxiety.

"But I'm not Hana,"

DEG

Rama widened his eyes to see the woman standing in front of him, he took a step back with a sharp look.

"You?"

Zahra was confused what to say to Rama after the incident, honestly he became misbehaved.

"How dare you enter Hana's room and put on her clothes" Rama snapped with his fiery eyes.

"I'm sorry, but the mother who loves these clothes is me" replied Zahra who did not at all relieve Rama's anger.

"Get out of this room right now, get out! " Rama slightly pushed Zahra's body, Zahrapun stepped away.

Rama immediately fell to his knees on the floor, he could hope that Hana was still alive, he covered his face and cried, feeling that he had completely lost his mind.

Zahra was still watching Rama, but she could not hold back her falling tears seeing such great sorrow in the eyes of Rama .

"Why should I be such a great destroyer of love among them, O God, do I still deserve Your forgiveness?" Inner Zahra.

On the way home, Zahra was still daydreaming after the incident in Hana's room.

"What do you think, Ra?" Tiara asked seeing her best friend was so agitated.

"I deserve to be hated, but if he always wanted to get rid of me, I've destroyed such a great love between them, I don't deserve forgiveness from anyone," zahra said with her gaze continuing towards the window.

Tiara felt incomprehensible to Zahra's words which confused her.

"What are you saying, I don't understand" said Tiara.

Zahra sighed and tried not to make Tiara anxious.

"No papa" replied Zahra, who tried to hide her anxiety in front of Tiara.

"I know that you are restless, but whatever the case, give up all the same God, for He is the only solution to every problem we face" Tiara told Zahra.

Zahra nodded and smiled even though she still had sorrow on her face.