My Payman
My Rasaku (Aksa Pov)

Wet.... cold..., angry. All mixed together, in the rain that soaked the earth as it covered the tears that flowed my cheeks I flocked home with my chosen Great husband. He's a good guy and I'm interested in him, it's just that I can't handle our age difference which is pretty much different. The habit of closing myself since childhood made me build a wall to not open with anyone. I look cold only to cover up my shortcomings that cannot communicate well with others.

As soon as I got home I got off the motorbike and immediately entered the living room, there was already a Haikal, I had stopped in front of the entrance, noah..., I just felt so foreign at home that there was someone else in it. "Wear this mbak" Haikal said as he covered a towel over my body. I was still silent at the door, not knowing what this felt like, which obviously my chest was tight suddenly I returned to tears, in a drenched state I felt more pain than cold.

Agung came and held both of my shoulders, which had been covered in towels, I dodged, Agung fell silent. Haikal tried to approach me and do the same with Agung. Holding my shoulder and rolling me into my room, arriving at the door, Haikal said. "Dry up the body mbak, will be sick, for other problems can be discussed later" said Haikal calmly and sympathetically. "Yes.., immeasurably" I said coldly and expressionlessly.

I entered my room, as soon as I got to the room, I just closed the door and leaned against the wall of the room door. Suddenly a knock on the door was heard, "snake...., your okay? " a great voice sounded from behind the room door. "Open the door mbak, let me in, I. I. do not want you to be sick mbak, listen to my explanation first" said Agung pleading. There was no reply to every word of the Great, I still sat quietly behind that door. "Alright mbak, calm yourself first, but do not forget to warm your body mbak y, do not get sick, because I am worried about you mbak" said Agung attentively. The tone of Agung's voice sounded a little trembling, probably from enduring the coldness in his body.

Not long after the voice of Agung was no longer heard, I sat leaning against the door of the room lamenting my fate, all these years I kept my distance from my opposite sex just for fear of his attention, his love, his love, her affection for me is not like mine for her. The experience of life was raised with solitude, making me afraid to start a relationship, if later to be left begging for attention like the love of my parents who only love but forget to hone the love is still warm. Then suddenly I had to marry Agung because of the selfishness of my parents who wanted me to get married soon, fortunately I had met Agung. Worse, I started to like him but he was too young for me, and the swearing of the people around me made me hurt as if I was just using Agung. Even though that's true, at least they didn't speak that sassy to me. I am as cold as anything, still have the heart to feel my race.

I began to feel cold and then got up from my seat and cleaned my body, some time later I had changed clothes and moved up to my bed. The shadow of the girl's slap was still haunting me, her sharp words were still jostling by me, was I really as bad as she said? maybe he and Great did have a relationship and I came as a bully. And in an instant I ruined their relationship? does the Great really love me?, should I take off the Great? though I was getting comfortable with her, all these questions made me fret.

Five hours I was in the room, I saw it was one o'clock at night, then suddenly I felt hungry, yes I had not eaten from this afternoon, I had not eaten, then I planned to go downstairs to find some food, but a sense of laziness followed me. I finally opened the door of my room, and walked slowly down the stairs, but not a few steps I heard a sneezing sound from the upper balcony. Out of curiosity I also climbed the stairs again, and checked the balcony, it turns out there there was Agung who sat and hid behind the balcony curtain, the balcony, her legs were bent and her head was leaning on the hand that was folded to her knees and her face was pointed towards me.

"Hm..". " finally Agung voiced . "Wake up, we move, change your clothes" I said. Agung raised his head slightly and looked towards me. "Mr...., it's okay, isn't it? " Great even worried about my situation. I fell silent and just nodded slowly. "We moved yuk" I said again. Agung gave a slight forced faint smile, it seemed as if he was enduring the overwhelming coldness. I helped her up and swept her into the room. His body felt very hot, he seemed to be carefree, once in the room, I also laid the Great body on the bed, he looked half conscious and shivering.

I then helped remove the Agung clothes that were still moist, he was cold I thought, he was shivering, and all this was my fault. finished undressing the top of Agung, I finally had to take off his pants. Agung's body was very well proportioned to a teenager, I slightly swallowed the slavina looking into the elokan of his body and finally I had to take off his underwear as well. Geez what the hell is this Alexa I think, should I let go?? but otherwise, he would still be cold, there was no way I would ask Mang Dadang for help, because they knew we were husband and wife.

Finally I had an idea, I covered Agung's body with my blanket, then my hand crept into the blanket to undress Agung, my blood flowed profusely, my heart beat like a rumble, Agung seemed to wake up and hold my hand and then look at me. "Alexa" he said slowly, "yes." I replied.

She was like she was back asleep, then I continued undressing her and finally succeeded. It was unthinkable to me that I would do this to a man, I ended up sitting next to the Great who was already asleep but still in a state of slight shivering, his body covered in my warm blanket, which was still my own, I held the face of the Great and saw it fixed.

"Good, you're a good man, you're also very handsome, am I wrong to want you to be the one I chose to be next to me?, I don't know, just now I wanted to let you go, I just wanted to let you go, but seeing you like this, I'm not even willing to think of you near another woman. Is this love?, am I in love? if so, how could I possibly love someone in this short amount of time?. Is this my real race?? .