Ice Cream
Simulations

Nella was really thinking about Ryan, she felt guilty with a rude remark saying she was like a loser, it was wrong. Feeling understood for Ryan's actions because circumstances forced him not to fight.

Ryan was just trying to protect what he thought was important. No matter about self-esteem, shame, being trampled or even the pain of bruises on the face. It was a small wound as long as it was not a big problem for his family.

Hearing many stories from neighboring mothers at the vegetable stalls and the chat of the fathers while playing chess, telling how unfortunate the Ryan family life since Istianti and Abram married, until finally the head of the family was killed while working with Brahman.

As if living without any good for them, after Abram died Istianti worked hard half to die. Just a little compensation, insurance, or subsidy assistance, but all that did not make Ryan's family okay.

Brutal city of Jakarta who does not know who the brothers are, the cost of living is not cheap with all forms of illegal dues, and bullying in the school environment is accepted by Ryan.

Even if they try to resist, those people easily distort the facts for one reason, money is always the absolute price of buying justice.

Nela felt even more guilty, because compared to her life, she was very well off, with nothing less, and almost no one had the trouble to look for her.

Thinking of what he had to do when he met Ryan, this was like a joke to describe every way he could apologize.

Scene after scene begins to play in the imagination, where the man meets directly to talk...

'Yan... I'm sorry, Lo know I like to joke right, time Lo so offended.'

"No, no, no, haven't seen you in a long time, the cave can't be that familiar as Ryan."

Once again he imagines some dialogue in mind as a simulation of an apology to Ryan.

'Ryan, sorry for before, I really don't understand your family's current condition.... Bla, Bla, blah.'

"That's not a cave, the cave never says rich..." But there's a shame in having to say it formally.

Or ..... 'Go to the market to buy vegetables, sorry if I'm rude, I hope to get along."

The more complicated Nela's mind is..."Why do we have to pantun."

Nela looks upset herself, she gets angry herself and confused herself, even when the chicken noodleman passes by, she quickly runs away for fear of being mistaken if Nela goes berserk.

"But... Yeah but... Ahhh s*hit."

Loud Nela kicked the trash can, she felt annoyed herself at the confusion of how to apologize.

"The thing is, the cave has to apologize...." Nella said to be an excuse.

Just that, ten meters away from Ryan's house, Nella became hesitant, paused for a moment, then turned around. Just five steps he was silent on the spot, thinking many things, about relationships, friendships, memories, togetherness, memories of the past, hard, happy, sad and happy together.

Nela certainly did not think that one incident could make things awkward. It's wrong to stay wrong, pretend to forget wrong and blame others wrong.

"Ah... Fuck you." Hard Nela cursing herself.

But not far behind someone...."Who's fucking, you're maki-maki in front of people's houses."

And it was true, when looking at the figure who had just spoken.

"Ryan..." Seeing the man he meant now present himself, certainly made Nela confused and embarrassed for her attitude just now.

Looking left and right, he couldn't find any other reason to answer Ryan's question.

"What's Nela ?." Ryan asked confusedly.

"That's mm, I want to talk to you."

"Tell me." Ryan tried to relax.

"What about your wounds."

"It still hurts, but I'm fine."

"So... Hmm, that... Have you checked with the doctor."

"Only blisters and slight bruising do not need to see a doctor, maybe even the doctor only gave red medicine and bandages, so I consider it useless." Answer Ryan.

But Nella's reply was just a stiff laugh that was so awkward because she didn't feel that Ryan's words were a joke.

Nela hesitated, until she strengthened her determination..."I don't like this atmosphere, Ryan sorry for before."

"Why are you apologizing."

"As for me just talking about your attitude when you got beat up earlier, I should know you're just trying to hold back."

Ryan smiled to himself and then laughed..."It's not a big deal, you're not wrong, I can no longer be alone, just a little patient, for fear of making trouble."

Nella knows, for Ryan and his mother, the opportunity they have now becomes one of hope for the future. If Ryan couldn't hold back, that hope would be meaningless no more.

"A little walk, yeah you know, a lot of things happened on the first day I went to school, it made me dizzy."

"But it's been too late." Reply Nela.

"I should have said that, it's too late for a woman to walk around."

"My house is only a few blocks from here, so what are you worried about."

It won right, even if there were sane people trying to do evil to Nela, they would naturally know who to deal with. Mr. Jaelani is a famous former thug all over the city.

"Yes just mince words so you think a little about yourself, as the saying goes, evil happens not because there is the intention of the culprit, but also because of the opportunity."

"Beware, beware...." Nella is serious.

But after that they both laughed out loud, because remembering something long enough never heard again.

"I really remember the words from the noon news show.."

"Your father always mimics that scene." Ryan laughed with pleasure.

Just a little talk for useless things, they do not mind anything, because everything that happens is not a big thing.

"Ok, the cave's home first."

"Let me take you." Ryan followed Nella beside him.

"All right."

Although Nella's house is close enough, Ryan can't let her go home alone, because after all she's still a woman, and Mr. Jaelani once asked to look after Nella.

"Ryan, are you bothered about Juna." Ask Nella.

"May I say it's true, but I don't think about anything else, just finish school without making trouble."

"If you continue to let Juna act as he pleases, you will only be Juna's moons." Nella was worried.

"I'll think of a way to keep him from bothering me anymore."

"If... Yeah, if you need help, just tell me."

"Of course, even if I don't ask, you'll help me." Reply Ryan who understands the attitude of this one woman.

"That's what friends are for."

Nella feels uncomfortable calling herself a best friend, while previous events such as underestimating Ryan.

Feeling bad, but seeing the man now walking with a smiling face loose, gave off a strange and uncomfortable feeling because Ryan was too kind.

Never once selfish for herself, all the mistakes of her friends are forgiven easily, but because of Ryan's kindness, there is a sense of resentment in Nella's heart, where he knows that Ryan is only holding back for the feelings of others.

Until arriving in front of the house stall Nella, the figure of Jaelani was standing with arms crossed in front of the chest. It looks horror, not about ghosts or the like, but the sharp eyes of Mr. Jaelani make anyone hymen because of mental pressure.

"Night sir."

"Oh, you're Ryan, and... Nella, I thought you were asleep."

"On that..."

"Ah I know, you're taking a night out with Ryan."

"No, it's not that."

"Don't worry, I didn't forbid you from dating, even I did, but still, I don't want to have a grandchild before you graduate school." Reply Jaelani smiled strangely.

"Please don't talk weird, sir. We just had a little chat."

"Aah so." Jaelani said limp.

Ryan saw the strangeness of the way Jaelani answered...."Why do I feel that Mr. Jaelani is sorry."

"It's nothing."

"Then I go home first." Ryan also said goodbye.

Although Ryan understands for Jaelani's assumption about their relationship, but even a little Ryan never imagined if Nella had other feelings more than friends.