Enough One Wife
Just one Wife

"Nr ...." I rested in front of Jihan again, she remained silent. No flinching, like I don't exist. "I'm sorry, brother, sorry. Please forgive." I cried bitterly. Jihan remained unmoved. "I'm not leaving you, everything Ica said is not true. I promise I won't marry anyone. My wife is only one daughter, you. Forgive me.sorry." Like a child, I begged him. But Jihan remained silent. As if he wasn't here, his mind was completely empty.

***

Our neighbors told me about that night. Jihan came, with a fucked up face. Eyes swollen. She said she needed help because one of the babies had a seizure, while the other was crying non-stop. Actually the neighbors had been worried to hear a cry that did not pause since noon, but because our baby was twins, so it was thought that it was two babies who took turns crying. But it turns out that it was only Nabila who was not held by his mother because of the focus on her twin. Meanwhile Nadira had a fever and then a seizure.

Jihan was confused. Ever since I left, she has been overwhelmed with our baby. I didn't know Nadira had a high fever, only to hear her cry for a few nights. Maybe Jihan has said it but I ignore it because I only think about my own ego. At that time the most important thing was just my feelings, while the condition of our son I did not think about. Jihan really handled everything herself.

***

Jihan's condition really makes me sad. He can't communicate with me. Empty look. The doctor in charge offered me to take Jihan to a psychologist. There it is said that Jihan experienced a big shock so that her brain was unable to digest events after events. He's hit. Need something to get him back excited. Something he likes that makes him happy, I think hard about it.

Meanwhile, amidst the hassles of taking care of Jihan and Nabila. I also have to meet the needs of our household. Finding a new job is not easy because Ica does not mess with her words. He really faced me.

Bram advised me to make peace with Ica. Apologize for sure he will forgive. Ica can give me a job, but she still hopes for me. Especially now that Jihan is like that. It would not be selfish if I married again.

"Suami .. if his wife is like Jihan, it's natural to remarry, San. Getting married to that Ica will give you an advantage. He is now the director of a large private company. You can work there. Later, your son and wife can also be taken care of by Ica. He won't mind finding and hiring a maid so you don't have to dizzy anymore." Bram.

"What's? What kind of advice is that?" I said, looking at Bram's cynics. "You know, chaos after chaos in my life, there's a little bit of you, Bram. Try not to know you, maybe my life is still safe, my wife is healthy even though I am also guilty of many because I want to follow the advice of the devil!" I said.

"Lho is raging. What I'm saying is true, San. You're the one who loves Jihan too much. Just so you know, San. Your wife is approaching madness. Memory loss. What to expect from a woman whose memory is no good. Good thing I'm still good with you, San. Remember, opportunities don't come twice. If Ica has turned away from you, you will not find an established and beautiful girl like her. Understand!"

Bram and I got into a fight. He continues to boast of Ica while humbling Jihan. I can't wait to finally hit her in the mouth so she doesn't talk much. The blow made Bram angry. I make sure our friendship ends. I'm fine, it's better to lose a friend like Bram that I should have done from the start than to listen to people talk about my own wife condescendingly.

"I swear you've been sorry for your whole life and!" Bram said, then left me alone.

"You who will regret, have influenced others until the household is in a mess!" I'm swearing.

***

"If messing around to Jogja, do not forget to stop here, Mr. Hasan. May Jihan and Nabila be healthy and happy in the future." Said one of the mothers who helped us the most.

After everything was sold, I returned to my village. With Jihan and Nabila. We're not here long, just to finish selling the house and the mother's paddy field that automatically belongs to me because I'm the only heir. I've asked Pakde for help as a person I trust.

The big family is certainly not happy. Accusing Jihan again. But this time I can't be quiet. I say firmly how my wife is. His condition right now is also because of my selfishness that is not concerned with his feelings. I was determined, from now on will be the front guard to defend JIham. I'm not gonna let anyone hurt her again. It's been enough my wife's been suffering. He deserves to be happy!

After all the business was done, I took Jihan and Nabila to her village. Yes, we returned to Sumatra, in one of the small towns in northern Sumatra. Here we will restart my life, with Jihan and Nabila by buying a simple house and also rice fields as our capital to start life.

I will start farming, aided by the Jihan brothers who are so warm. While Jihan, without needing further treatment, slowly her condition began to improve. The more days he can respond. Perhaps it was because his heart had again found the warmth of those who loved him sincerely. Actually I was very sad to see this, here he recovered so quickly while with me he was sickly. It means I have failed to be a good husband to her.

"Bang," Jihan surprised me. "Why dream?"

"Nothing. Brother is just sad because you have to go to the rice field when all this time you never did it. I'm sorry, brother, it's not good to be your husband, brother." I said, rubbing his head.

"It's okay bang, I'm just happy to be able to help brother. After all, you do not understand about farming. Although I had never before but in the past I often saw our neighbors to the rice fields, so a little I know how to plant the morning. The important thing is that we are together and you don't think about your wife." For the last sentence, Jihan shrunk her voice.

"I'm afraid you're replacing your husband with a better man considering I'm not a good husband, brother." I said, with regret.

"I was angry at first, so my body was hard to move. My mouth feels Kelu when I want to curse you. Maybe this is how God keeps me from saying no good. But now I realize, there's more good that God's love shouldn't make me bad just because of your little ugliness, bang. You've chosen me so that I can be a twin parent even though I've been with Nadira for only a few months but I'm happy." Jehan's tears spilled. He sobs. I took it in my arms, promised, the past will never happen again.

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