The Way of Love for the Doctor
SEASON 1 Part 27's. I'm Unstoppable (1)

Today Song: Unstoppable by Sia (sihlakan search for the one that blm has listen in the background)

I put my armor on, show you how strong how I am

I put my armor on, I'll show you that I am

I'm unstoppable

I'm a Porsche with no brakes

I'm invincible

Yeah, I win every single game

I'm so powerful

I don't need batteries to play

I'm so conflicted

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Romantic Bali, with golden light-studded beaches with candles and lanterns. You were there with the people who loved you. See those celebrating love. Under the shadow of the silvery moonlight magic that hypnotizes your mind and someone who holds your hand.

Last night we had dinner with colleagues, were among the comrades in arms who celebrated our hard work this year. Storytelling, laughing and joking take the pressure of a short job off our shoulders. The feeling of standing at the top was indeed pleasant.

Ten years ago I also stood on this beach myself at the faint of dawn, I woke up from my slumber. But I was 25 years old when I was at the lowest level of my life, when I knew all the truth about Simon, my perfect world was blown to pieces like a piece of glass in my hand.

I'm getting away from her. Unable to accept reality, unable to decide, between abandoning comfort and starting from the ground up, facing the fact that the world is no longer friendly, fake friends start to leave you because you're not even a nobody anymore, or sacrifice myself but still hold a false comfort to my life.

As I pityed myself, I saw those fishermen coming home from the sea. They work from night, earning a living for their families. Suddenly I realized my complaints were nothing compared to them. They try and believe in the Creator who nurtures them, walking day by day from living it with gratitude, entrusting their lives and thanking the life-giving Hyang Widhi.

What does all the treasure in your hand mean, if your heart is not calm. If your heart is always hurting, overshadowed by a cancer-like feeling of jealousy that dries out your heart, that your husband may be more affectionate towards other women, she said,  there may be one moment your son will come and ask who another child claims to be his brother. Your son will live with such an understanding. What I fear, God even preserves the life of one meaningless canary. I'm human, I'm young, my blood is turbulent, my parents never grew up I was a coward to face the world.

I turned on my phone that I never turned on for a few days because I didn't want to hear anything from Simon. I opened a local radio and a song as if Sang Hyang Widhi had sent me. I remember that moment as if I were enlightened.

Break down, only alone I will cry on out

You'll never see what's hiding out

Hiding out deep down

Yeah, yeah

Is the only way to make friendships grow

But I'm too afraid now

Yeah, yeah

I put my armor on, show you how strong how I am

I put my armor on, I'll show you that I am

I'm unstoppable

I'm a Porsche with no breaks

I'm invincible

Yeah, I win every single game

I'm so powerful

I don't need batteries to play

I'm so conflicted

Yeah, I'm unstoppable today

Unstoppable

(Red: search for translation in Google Yes )

With the dimness of the dawn, my heart became firm. What has fallen to pieces cannot be saved anymore. I was going to go face the world, so I went back to Jakarta, faced Papa and Mama, told her about my problems, decided to get divorced. Which Papa directly supported, at that time my dear Papa was still strong to hold my hand. He was so angry and had no intention of apologizing to Simon, I knew if I dared to tell him that's what he was going to do, he sent a lawyer to arrange my divorce.

I don't care about Simon, or any effort he makes to keep me by his side. I focus on learning to walk, walk, learn to run and time passes so fast, sometimes I fall but for my family I can always have a reason not to give up and get back up.

“You'll regret ever dumping me. One day I'll make you see what you're throwing away.” I remember his last words. But today I stand here, not regretting anything from my ten-year journey. I am grateful to have passed all the transverse arals and to be on my track now.

I’m Unstoppable, it is not my own strength, because I believe I am walking on the right path, and dare to carry my burden to be strong.