
Pov Arini's
I feel confused about how I feel right now, my heart ached when Aditya answered my question, saying to him that I had remembered my time with Rangga Wisesa when my soul was trapped in the snake demon realm, is it possible now that Aditya is disgusted with me? my heart began to guess everything.
"Arini, we should now eat first yes mungpung food is still warm," mas Aditya now raised his voice, but that's not what I want to hear from his mouth now, and I think my appetite is gone.
Suddenly Aditya's hand now gently rubbed my head,
"Have you not much mind, we should eat first, soon the Maghrib prayer time will arrive, later after finishing eating and praying we talk again all this," said Mas Aditya who then gently pulled my hand out of the room to eat.
Finally, the two of us ate without anyone making a single sound, until I suddenly finished eating the remaining half.
"Arini, it is not good to leave food, let's quickly spend everything, you must be grateful because there are still many people out there who are hungry" said Mas Aditya to me.
Then I finally forced myself to spend it, even though my food now feels bland, as if my heart was upset.
The voice of Adzan Maghrib has now reverberated, we both as usual do congregational prayers.but, after finishing the prayer, mas Aditya seems to continue it with dhikr, dhikir, so that I who have felt soybean after a long trip was finally sleeping on the prayer mat still wearing mukena.
Suddenly I felt someone lift my body and lay it on the bed, so I opened my eyes slowly as Aditya tried to open the face I was still wearing.
"Sorry Arini your sleep is disturbed because of the movement of my hands" said Mas Aditya.
"It's okay mas, I should be the one who apologized for sleeping, so the mas so bothered to move me," I replied.
"Yes already if you do not want to continue sleeping again, it would be nice now you pray Isya first, there is something we also have to talk about" said Mas Aditya.
I finally obeyed what was ordered by my Husband, after finishing praying now I pensively think about everything, it is true in reality mas Aditya is my husband who is legally and religiously martyred, and in fact he is my husband, how guilty I have been for not being able to carry out my duties as a Wife by serving her biological needs, so now I feel guilty towards my husband.
Mas Aditya so faithfully waited for me from my coma for two years, whereas what I had done in my subconscious really did not reflect a good wife, I have had fun with other men in nature even to the point of having a child, Astagfirulloh... Have I sinned? but the late Rangga Wisesa is also in nature there already married me? now my heart wondered, until I finally heard the voice of Aditya who called me.
"Arini..have you finished your prayer?" ask me Aditya.
"Yes," I answered by opening my face and then about to wear my hijab again.
"Why can I see you now without wearing a hijab? now we're just the two of us in the room, it's okay if a husband wants to see his wife's letter" Aditya told me.
I also felt strange hearing Aditya's request, and I finally undo my intention to wear the hijab. Then I sat down next to him.
"Sorry mas ya daritadi did not directly answer your question about your time with Rangga Wisesa, so that the mas has made you feel confused," said Mas Aditya who is now trying to gently wipe my hair.
I was crying and hugging her tightly, there was a fear of losing the figure of the man who had been my priest all along.
"So mas is only confused with the status of our marriage, so it was after the prayer maghrib mas tried to try to communicate through the eyes of the bathin, with people who know more the law of our marriage."
"He said that our marriage is legal and religious, and you are also not including adultery with Rangga wisesa, because you are also married in nature there."
"In fact, the marriage that you do also takes place simultaneously with our marriage in the human realm, and because now Rangga Wisesa has died, and mas also has not given an inner living to you, so there is no problem with our marriage" said Mas Aditya with a sweet smile to me.
"So what now Aditya mas still want to accept me for what is there who has been married to another man even to have children?" ask her.
"Of course, honey, it's not all your fault, because you also don't know the marriage we've done in the human realm, do you?" ask Mas Aditya who I answered with a nod of the head.
Now my heart finally felt relieved after Aditya answered all my questions.
"Yes, now we better rest, pity you must also be soybean," said mas Aditya.
"Aren't you going to ask me for my rights tonight?" I asked Aditya.
"Mas will never force you if you are not ready, because you marry and love you because of God, not just lust," said Mas Aditya who then laid his body beside me.
The weather tonight was so cold that it stabbed into my bones, I felt cold because it rained so hard tonight.
Mas Aditya who saw me being cold was now trying to hug my body tightly. But I still feel cold, until finally he tried to take off his clothes and clothes and then put his skin on my body.
"Sorry Arini, I just want to make your body warmer" he told me.
I know as a normal man he must feel very tortured because he endured the turmoil in his body, so that finally I turned my body to face his body, and now his eyes seemed round to see my actions which a moment later immediately kissed his lips.
Tonight I intend to carry out my duties as a wife by serving my husband wholeheartedly, so that finally the long-awaited night by the Aditya mas happened.
A very beautiful night now we passed by together with unification without any coercion from any party, we did it on the basis of love and worship.
Now that the dawn Adhan has reverberated, the Aditya mas who was beside me is now trying to wake me up.
"Honey let's wake up at dawn" he asked me.
"Yes," I replied. However, now I still feel pain in the core of my body, as well as see the blood patches that stick on the bed sheet.
I also became confused because during the nature of Rangga Wisesa I have done it even until I have children, but why here I am still a virgin.
Mas Aditya who saw me grimacing in pain and was confused then said, "Thank you dear you have given me a beautiful night, you do not need to be confused, you do not need to be confused, maybe your soul has done unification with Rangga wisesa, but not with your body, because I was the first to get it," said Mas Aditya with a smile on me.