Penance (I'm a Sinner)
Chapters 1.

...Title: Penance (I'm a Sinner)...

My name is Suci Syahputri. I was the first child in my family. At first everything seemed good and happy, but then it changed to be different in my family. Mom and Dad are always busy. If there is only a fight at home. My ears hurt to hear every day of their quarrel.

I am currently attending High School at the final level. I was just about to go home, a glimpse of the sound of azan reverberating in my ear. I stopped in the middle of the road listening to the azan. I don't know why my heart feels so empty.

I went back down the road to go home.

Religion, in my family I have never known the word prayer and teaching, because Papa and Mama are too busy with their respective affairs. I've been lost for a long time and I don't know the direction anymore. Next to me there was no one to guide me and teach me. I don't even know, what's my religion now? only with a family card stating that I am Islam, but Islam is 'is I? what is Islam? I don't know either.

In school I was very wayward, probably because of the lack of family attention that made me not recognize the name of family warmth. So the teachers were already overwhelmed with my wayward attitude. My family was very harmonious and happy. My mom and dad loved me. I remember very well how when I was a child I loved them. From newborn to kindergarten age, Mama always told me how she used to be pregnant with me and Papa who was always a father and husband on standby. They always showed their affection for me.

Then I went to elementary school until that happiness Junior High was still there. But, after I graduated Junior High and went to High School, that happiness started to disappear. Mom and Dad were always at home. Anything could be their mess. I always felt pain every time I heard the fight between the two of them.

My father, Devan Pramundia is a successful businessman and my mother, Marisa Miller is a descendant of Indonesian mixed Caucasian, Mama a career woman who is also successful at her job.

Both were successful and equally busy. At first they had time for their families and children. However, after both of them were equally successful they increasingly did not have the time. If there is only a fight at home.

I survived only for the sake of my brothers in this house. To be honest I'm not at home in a house that seems like hell to me. However, for their sake I still try to survive.

My sister Bima Satria and the youngest Winny Sakila are my sisters. For their sake I can still survive in this house. I try to be a good brother to my sisters. Although I don't know if I'm good enough for my two sisters.

I'm SMA level and Bima level SMP, while Winny level SD grade two. Winny used to ask me, "Sister, Mama and Papa why are you so rarely home? and why is everyone in the house always angry?" that's what my little boy, my sister, likes to ask me.

Honestly, I just don't know what the main cause of Papa and Mama often quarrel. I only know that now the two of them are often marahan. Both maintain their own ego. They either still remember or not with their children who always wait at home and expect the love of parents.

I can only answer to Winny, "Oh yeah deck, we'll just go and don't look at their fights." That's how it is, like, this is it, I'd better take my sister away and not have to see our parents fight.

Unlike Bima who is used to and does not want to care anymore with our Papa and Mama. He is more focused on learning and learning.

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At school.

I don't have so many friends at school. Too lazy to hang out with all of them but only my two best friends from Junior High always communicate with me. However, they are both different High School with me. Vira Wijaya and Sofia Rahayu are my two best friends.

If I get bored then I will just skip school, go hanging out and shopping with my two friends. We release all the fatigue and saturation that exists. If I am with my two friends, I feel happier. Happy continues.

But if it is found out Mama if I ditch then I end up getting scolding from Mama. So annoying. At home always scolded or saw the quarrel of Papa and Mama. Always has.

"Holy! Mama heard from your school, if Suci ditches school again? what do you want to be, Holy? Not when your Junior High was an exemplary child. Why is this now? this must be the result of the association of your two friends, right?" Mama was angry and glared towards the Sacred.

"Bising, Mom! know where?" The saint felt the ogah-ogahan answer.

"Your school called Mama. Where are you going this time, Holy? can not seh, do not make Mama dizzy head." Marisa felt a headache from the Holy One.

"Dizziness? Suci is more dizzy see Papa and Mama fighting constantly. This house can't be peaceful anymore, seh?" The saint replied that made his mother rise in blood.

"Based on you the child doesn't know himself!" Marisa slaps her cheek Holy. The saint stared intently at his mother.

"Holy hate Mama!" The saint ran towards his room. She slammed the door and cried on the bed.

Marisa is sitting on the sofa. Both of Marisa's hands were squeezing her hair. Marisa honestly regretted slapping Saints. From the little Saints never got hit. Surely now the Saints are very sad and devastated.

Marisa's phone rang, and she was asked to return to the office. Marisa hurried off. Yeah, that's how it always is. Leave the house and the children.

Her night.

"Sister, let's have dinner!" take Winny to the Saints.

"Not Deck, Brother is lazy to eat." Sacred refused.

"Well." yeah." Winny showed a sad face.

Suci saw the sad face of his sister. He approached Winny. Kasian too he saw Winny. Again and again, Winny felt lonely and ate alone. Winny certainly doesn't want to. He can only take his brother. Bima is focused only on herself.

"alright. Let's eat together, Deck!" Sacred smile. The two eat together.

***

Saints were bored that afternoon. He just got home from school. Suddenly the two friends called for a hangout together to the mall, and Suci went to meet his two friends.

Arriving at the place, they are shopping together and having fun. In a bookstore, Vira, Sofia and Suci collide with a hijab girl.

"Eh, look around Neng .. where are his eyes, seh!"

Vira is looking angry.

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