I Go Home Mas...
15. Go home Mirna
Yanto who seemed to have been carried away by emotions finally forced himself to bring Tita home to his own home.
His complicated mind now felt like it was completely dark.
It is understandable, the psychiatric condition of Yanto who is basically not calm, is now increasingly uncertain because of the events of this morning and also at his parents' house.
His mother who saw Yanto take Tita home just like that, to cry bitterly because she thought Yanto was very outrageous.
But Mbak Ukha and Lukman held back Mother who continued to persuade Yanto to stay even though crying and a little emotion.
The Maghrib reverberated from the mosque and mosque, when Yanto returned to his own home with his eldest son.
"We stay at home again, it's okay, later on the baby will also take you home."
Yanto said to Tita who nodded while getting out of the car.
The little girl followed her father to the main door of the house. Up there the sky began to rise.
The sun has completely leaned to the west, it has even begun to sink, no longer visible bright light.
Yanto turned the key to the house, which before long he was finally able to open the door.
Tita entered first, only then Yanto followed and closed the door.
Yanto turned on the guest room lights, while Tita walked directly to her room which was second only to the guest room.
While the main room where both parents used to sleep was opposite Tita's room, but with the door facing the front room.
Tita enters her room, Yanto follows to help turn on the lights.
"Pa, Tita's hungry."
Said Tita.
"You haven't eaten yet?"
Ask Yanto.
Tita looked shaken.
Yanto who was so hungry to hear Tita so remember he also some days did not have time to eat, suddenly he also so wanted to eat something.
"Tita wants to eat chicken satay."
Said Tita again.
Yanto nodded, though,
"Yes, I'll buy it."
Reply Yanto.
Tita is of course happy.
When at his grandmother's house, Tita was not so eager to eat because the side dishes there did not suit his taste.
Tita who used to eat was always asked what she wanted to eat, once at her grandmother's house, she had to eat who was already on the table.
"Despite Maghrib you'll be out for a while, Tita is it okay to be left alone at home?"
Ask Yanto.
Tita nodded, though,
"It's okay."
Tita does not want if later Mama will scold him because the book is a mess.
"If anyone says Mama's a ghost don't believe me."
Yanto said again, Tita nodded in understanding.
"We don't believe Mama's a ghost, it's a scary ghost, but Mama's not."
Said Tita plain.
Yanto nodded, knowing that Tita was missing her mother, there was nothing wrong with Yanto, if Tita hallucinated a little, than she was sad.
That's how Yanto originally thought.
That's why, Yanto was very upset and disappointed with what his brother did. He felt that Madam Ukha was too excessive to respond to Tita who spoke bathing in the company of her mother.
Why be that scared?
Tita is just a child who is very sad to be abandoned by her mother.
Why not let him hallucinate so that his sadness can be reduced?
Inner Yanto.
Yanto walked to his own room, which was several days empty.
Last afternoon he had slept at home, but slept on the living room couch while chatting a lot with Winda.
Consciously, it turns out that Winda has come home, and only leaves a message if he does not want to disturb Yanto who seems exhausted.
Ah yes, right, I have not contacted Winda to apologize because he stayed asleep while Winda was busy telling her his life story.
Yanto went into the room, the moment where he entered it, for some reason he felt like there was a gust of cold wind around his neck.
Just a glance, just a little.
Yanto looked behind him, but there was nothing.
It was then the room lights until the room was bright because all the lights in the room were on, including the lights in the picture figura Yanto and Mirna when married.
Their wedding photo, in which Yanto and Mirna look so mismatched, with Mirna clad in a gorgeous white dress, and Yanto in a dashing black suit.
A moment Yanto stared at the wedding photo, sliced back his heart, because he felt their time together turned out to be very short.
If Yanto knew if the second Mirna pregnancy turned out to be problematic and risky for Mirna, surely Yanto had chosen to just abort Mirna from the beginning.
Yanto sat weakly by the side of the bed, it felt like his heart was breaking again.
He missed Mirna again.
His face, his smile, his scent, his gentleness, ah Yanto really did not know if he would really be able to get through everything in front of him, whereas it had only been three days that it felt so heavy.
Yanto his eyes now looked teary-eyed. His chest felt like it was about to break because of the immense sadness.
"The mir... Mirna, come home Mir... I miss you."
Lirih Yanto who then lay curled up on his bed.
Unaware of the figure of a woman standing in the corner of the room looking at him with no less sadness.
Her tears flowed down her pale face. Tears of blood poured out, as if unable to stop because he was unable to do anything but stare at Yanto in the same grief.
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