
Flashback, a few years ago!
Sidqia is my sister. More precisely my foster sister. Father and mother found him in a baby basket located right in front of the door. At that time, I was still my age.
We all don't know, who would have deliberately disposed of his own flesh blood in such a manner. Obviously, both my parents were very happy about it. Because mother ... can no longer have children, after giving birth to me. So, the presence of baby Sidqia is the greatest gift in my mother's life.
Sidqia grew up to be a cute little girl. Every day I take her to play with other kids my age. However, it seemed that he was not very comfortable with it. Finally, I decided to take her home, and just play alone with me.
People say; love grows out of habit. Yeah, because I'm used to being together, I finally can't be a minute away from him. At that time, he was in his teenage years. And I ... have reached adulthood.
Feelings that arise from the habit, long ago turned into love. Yeah, just tell him I love him so much. Not just as my sister, but as a teenage girl her age.
Over time, my feelings seemed to be unable to escape from the heart. I know, she's my sister. However, there was a feeling more that made me want to have her as a companion in my future life.
Do you think my feelings are unusual?
I think it's just legal. Because we were born from different wombs. And .. different fathers. So, this race of mine is definitely acceptable to anyone, including both parents.
Well, the lucky thing is .. dads and moms want the same thing. Sidqia as a son and daughter-in-law in their palace. However, Sidqia had not yet known about it.
From that moment on, I immediately determined to be the hero-like figure he wanted to be. I mean, what Sidqia wants.
Yes, our goals are the same. Both want to be state officials. However, the dream went extinct after we learned that he had a dangerous disease. Sorry, but I can't mention it.
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Treatment for treatment has been done. Therapy here and there, alternative medicine to and there, to the point in and out of the hospital in and out of the state.
However, God willed another, he .. could not be saved. Until finally, Sidqia left us all in high school age ahead of graduation.
However, as a servant, what can I do other than hold my chest and wait?
Maybe at that time I felt that I was the most unfortunate human being in the world. To the extent that the period of education I passed with a broken heart, but still have to be cheerful. Spirit and never give up, in order to achieve the ideals and dreams of the late Sidqia.
Yes, I still denounce the education in the police academy, when Sidqia breathed her last. What hurts more is that I can't even attend her funeral procession. That is why, the pain in the chest can not leave just like that, until years.
Unfortunately!
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Perhaps, at that time I did not realize that behind the test, God was wrapping the most beautiful gift ready to be sent to me.
Three years later, a different body-substitute figure - an Arona Maulida suddenly came as if carrying a sprinkling of roses to decorate my days.
I once thought that Rona was Sidqia-my sister. However, in retrospect, how could a dead person, possibly come back to life like that?
Maybe some of you think that I love Rona because of her stature which is almost similar to the late Sidqia!
If so, my initial answer would be ... YEA. Let's just say I fell in love with her at first sight. Without having to go through a very long process, such as the plot of his love story of the characters in famous novels. Every point of his feelings must start from a sense of hate which then turns into love.
No, my feelings are completely different!
However, beside it all I felt, there was another side within a Rona, which seemed to keep tying me tight to her.
Don't ask-what?!
Because up to this point, I don't have the answer.