ASA IS FADING
CHAPTER 8. Apparently Still..?

Jihan gasped in shock as her phone alarm rang loudly. He felt something heavy pressing down on his body. Still in half conscious he tried to digest what had happened. A flash of the hot wrestling scene they had done last night instantly swirled in Jihan's mind. Suddenly he realized he was already in a state of no clothes. Oh my...What has he done?? Jihan looked back at her body from inside the blanket. Then he turned to look at the figure of the man who was still sleeping beside him. The handsome man with a cold look was as if he had not been disturbed by Jihan's stuffing.

The jihan covers the face with both palms. He was no longer able to stem the tears when he realized the big mistake he had made with Sami last night. They had been in that forbidden relationship. It is no longer holy. Something that he had been guarding so far had been taken away by momentary pleasure. All because of his stupidity. Because it's so easy to get carried away. What should he do now?? Is this just a dream? Can he turn back time?? Jihan tried to hold back the crying. He has made a big mistake. Crying blood will still be free. Her virginity has disappeared with the sighs and groans of favors she had felt with Sami last night.

"Damn?" A gentle touch felt on Jihan's shoulders. The girl flinched. He looked at Sami who was now looking at him with a sad look.

"I'm sorry."

"What have we done? I have to what now? I'm no longer valuable. I've..." Jehan sobbed while covering his face with both hands. He cried lamenting all that had happened. Last night's struggle now left only pain in Jihan's heart. Her honor as a woman is gone. He felt no longer valuable. Sami then grabbed the tiny body. Gently hold it.

"I'll take responsibility. We've already been. I'm not gonna let you go."

"No mas. I'm the stupid one. I was wrong. All because of my stupidity for letting you in here. If it wasn't for that you wouldn't be here." Jihan breaks away from Sami's embrace. He then got out of bed with his body wrapped in a blanket. As he stood up, Sami noticed that there were traces of blood stains that had dried on the bed sheet. It turns out that Jihan is still a saint. It's fair that their struggle last night wasn't as smooth as Sami used to do with Naya. Jehan is hard to penetrate. Sami even had to go the extra mile on their unification last night. It feels very narrow and warm. They do it with great pleasure.

"Go mas. Don't see me again." Jihan shuffled away from Sami. Only regret now did he feel after last night they sipped the heavenly pleasures together. Somehow the disgust with everything that happened was present enveloping Jihan's heart and mind. He hated his stupidity. He is disgusted by her being so easily lulled by Sami's gentle touch.

"You don't dodge anymore, Jihan.We do it both with full awareness. You're enjoying. Me either. There's nothing wrong between the two of us. There's nothing wrong with what we do." Sami turned the body of Jihan who had just turned her back. He saw that the face of ayu was filled with tears.

"It's all wrong. This shouldn't have happened. I should have rejected you. You shouldn't have come to see me here. You shouldn't have approached me. I shouldn't have let you in. We shouldn't have done that. Should've.." Jihan could no longer continue her words. He was drowning in Sami's arms. The man who touched her last night for the first time. A man who has touched every inch of his body with passion and passionate desire. Stupidly Jihan was unable to resist that wrenching touch. Sami manages to get her to drift in lovemaking for the first time in her life.

Jihan cries in Sami's arms. The man hugged her very tightly. As if reluctant to let go of Jihan. It was as if she was afraid that the girl would get away from him. Her warm hands gently touched the girl's head. Try to give him a sense of comfort and calm. Trying to help ease the emotions that are plaguing the sweet girl. Sami really understands that at this time Jihan is being hit must accept the fact that she is no longer holy. That she is no longer a virgin. That he is no longer the same as before. It is not an easy thing for a woman to accept the fact that her upbringing has been taken away at an inappropriate time and place. Sami let Jihan let go of all the regret she felt. Hopefully after that Jihan will be calmer. He could talk things over with a cold head.

"Go mas. I want to be alone." Tukas Jihan wiped away traces of tears. He then turned back to Sami. It feels like he has no self-esteem after doing that struggle.

"What do you mean?" Ask Sami.

"Leave me alone mas."

"You want me to leave after everything we've done last night?" Sami repeated the question. Very funny this girl. Why is he so hard to refuse. What was on the girl's mind. After his chastity is gone then he wants Sami to just leave him??

"You're rejecting me?"

"Yes. Refused you. A man like you would never want to have a serious relationship with a girl like me, Sami. That's just not possible. I'm just a lowly girl who works odd jobs. I'm just a comfort girl who used to serve guys at night clubs. Do I have to believe it if you say you'll take responsibility? Is it that easy for you to trick me?" Said Jihan with a trembling voice that she hid while turning her back to Sami. He must be willing to open his eyes if it will not be that easy for a man of Sami class to seriously pick it up. Take responsibility for what happened. It felt very sorry that he had agreed to work at the entertainment venue. Even though he had no intention of selling himself but still the negative stigma of the comfort girl had lingered in him. Cap negative girl night has she got. Although he tried not to heed the judgment of people about the work he did but still his pride has now been hurt. Even now it's gone. That man would now definitely consider her a cheap woman. Women who are easy to sleep with.

"Who said I lied to you? Sami then twisted the girl's slim body. Jihan slightly flinched as Sami now looked at her with her eagle eyes. Both of the man's hands now tightly wrapped around his shoulders.

"Look good, Jihan. We've already been. I'm not kidding around. I'm serious about you. We can no longer turn things around like before. I'll take responsibility for everything we've done. Whatever happens trust me." Tukas Sami was very serious. His face looks so cold. There was not the slightest high note from his voice but the sentence that was thrown from the man's mouth sounded not playful. Jihan looked at the eagle's bead. Looking for something in there. Jihan tried to believe that what was said from the man's mouth was true. I hope it's true as he said.

Is it true Sami will keep all his words? Will Jihan believe it? How was their relationship after what had happened???

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