Alam Mandala
lonely disease

Everyone born in this world will carry two invisible guards. They will guard the spirit born until its death. Provide help and guidance on all kinds of problems in life.

The two guards will be happy to be by his side and will never be seen or felt. Xue Yan had heard and read about it, but she did not believe in any of it. Everything is just nonsense that people used to say to make everyone stronger and always have hope in his life. Words are made only for deceiving, but for good.

However, Xue Yan now had to believe it. Whether it is completely true or not. He has seen and felt it. But it was only one spirit, and had the same appearance as him.

Compared to guarding, this guard was extremely miserable and lonely. Every day, at night he dreamed of seeing the guard. He will squat and cry in a place filled with fog.

Xue Yan fell silent and watched him. He felt a deep sadness from the sound of his crying. He wanted to get to her, but he hesitated to approach her.

As he convinced himself and approached him, the figure disappeared before his hand reached the figure's shoulder, and he then regained consciousness from his sleep.

It had not been counted how many times he had experienced it and it had already become something ordinary.

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But now, he suddenly woke up. Tofu sweat filled his forehead and the sound of his breathing seemed to be chasing something.

He looked towards the open window. The wind blew, causing the white-colored curtain to lift slightly.

He breathed, then approached her. Waving the curtain, and seeing the yellow lights from other places.

Regardless of what happened, he suddenly thought of visiting the library in search of something that had urged him recently. Is it that, his sleep is disturbed?

He quickly went to the library.

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The candles were already half left beside the entrance of the library. He pushed the library door slowly, and a special sound came out.

The smell of the ancient book instantly spread outside.

He entered, then looked at the tall shelves filled with thick and thin books.

After finding a suitable book, he then sat down and began to open it.

He came looking for a way to end all the cycles that burden humans. He wanted to leave this place without going to hell or heaven; he wanted to go somewhere else than that. Therefore, destroying those two places might be the answer. In addition, he also wants to end the cycle of reincarnation and birth that brings suffering, especially for children who do not get the same kind of parental affection. Only by destroying those two places would he be able to fulfill his wish.

As he began to read, he remembered and wondered why he felt like he had another brother in his body. Does this have anything to do with the guard?

He felt it might have something to do, but until now, he didn't know for sure the answer.

He began to focus on his reading, and time passed.

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Bing Jiazhi stopped walking. Zhu Nan, Zhu Han and the boys stopped and began to wonder why Bing Jiazhi had stopped moving.

Bing Jiazhi turned to look at the three people, then said, “We rest now.”

“But, we have not found my brother,” said the boy.

“Can't! My brother might be in danger now. If we don't move fast, I'm afraid he can't hold on!”

Bing Jiazhi remained calm before the worried boy's face. “If you want, you can go by yourself.”

The boy was shocked and disappointed. “But you said you'd help me find my brother! You also said you'd meet me with my brother if I told you, I want it now.”

“But today is over,” said Zhu Nan approaching the boy. “We can continue later. If we continue, we will not be able to survive if any danger comes. You shouldn't want that to happen, right?”

The boy's face was filled with disappointment. He wanted to continue the journey, but he did not want to be in danger. He thought for a moment, then said, “Alright. But we won't rest until sunrise, right?”

“No will.”

Zhu Han agreed to the decision. He was exhausted and wanted to rest. But before that, he wanted to warm up his body. This cave is too cold and very humid.

He walked over to Zhu Nan. Without saying anything, Zhu Nan gave her sword. Zhu Han nodded, then walked past them. He stopped in front of Bing Jiazhi.

He then pulled his sword. Then cross those two swords. His right hand pulled out a sword.

Sparks of fire formed, then the Sword disappeared, and finally the bonfire of the sword was formed.

The boy's eyes sparkled as he watched the miracle. He forgot his disappointment.

The four of them then circled the bonfire. Then find food and rest.

After two hours of them resting, Bing Jiazhi woke up. Then walk forward.

Throughout this short journey, the sound of raindrops and the sound of bats filled the room.

He stopped walking and looked at the white figure before him calmly. Liang was like he had been playing tricks on him, he suddenly appeared and suddenly disappeared just like that. It was as if his existence did not want anyone else to know about it.

Bing Jiazhi approached him. The sweet smell of a beautiful woman was very tempting. His right hand moved and touched Liang's pointy chin, then raised it. He always does this when he meets a woman.

Both of Liang's lotus-like eyes looked at Bing Jiazhi's two eyes deeply.

“Why did you turn yourself in?” ask Bing Jiazhi.

Liang turned around and took three steps, then turned around. “because you saved me.”

Bing Jiazhi thought for a while, then wanted to ask, but Liang first said, “You don't remember back then? The girl you saved. You must remember these words ‘loneliness is a disease that can kill you.’

Bing Jiazhi nodded. He had heard this from a girl who wanted to kill herself, but he saved her by pulling her and making her fall back and the girl hugged him.

“Stupid! Why are you doing that!?”

The girl's face was shocked, then looked at Bing Jiazhi with a strange look. “Because I'm not strong anymore!”

The girl then told me why she did it. He felt alone and alone. Feel your own pleasure; feel your own sadness. It tormented her and made her want to end her life. But thanks to Bing Jiazhi, he failed to do so.

“You must know if loneliness is a disease that can kill you slowly and viciously.”