My Love Was A Wind Then
Self-righteous...

Early in the morning I was busy in my room breaking down all the clothes in the closet, I wanted to look more fashionable and stylish I was trying to start a new life with a new style . My clothes are negligent or from my village put in the box, I will give it to people in need .

Although this is not important but at least will change me, I do not want to be forever humbled by people especially to have no results living in the city of Jakarta.

I'm the kind of person who's always responsible for everything in my life, before I'm willing to work , I changed the contents of the room and rearranged the location of the goods to make it look more attractive even though my room is mini-sized but I want to have a room like a five-star hotel room, small but charming , anyone who enters will be comfortable.

after my things were all neatly arranged and threw away the cobwebs hanging from the ceiling of my room, I rushed to the bathroom, the morning ritual began , where before taking a bath indulge in goat milk scrub that I bought last night, because I was determined to look like a classy woman, ' she said , so that the word village no longer stuck in someone's mouth to say me that again.

Okay fix ! cleaning the dirt on the body is ready finally mempermakself not as easy as I think , like her I have to buy some makeup tools, stylish hair , and some models of clothes I also have to change also , ehhhh.I forgot I have to help the needs of the house as well as how I can buy for myself while the finances at home are also critical.

okay, I have to find a way, so I can have enough money, I try to sell my wares with me who wears it myself and take pictures like a top model, ' ' I'm trying to sell my wares , I think the cooperation of people is not this drag to get enough money to spend energy already get a benchmark salary every month, especially if the high school and smart will certainly get a classy position.

inevitably I dare to show off my role as a model in my live FB . This is also one of the tricks in selling so that people do not judge me insecure sales, or anyone who sees it must be my sales Chanel has many people who know .

Incidentally also today mother does not make cakes just to cook for lunch only, so I have a lot of free time .Fad open the most phenomenal online shopping application with various interesting and not boring discounts, I type in the shop** application** tool make up and pretty well also the price is not expensive and not cheap, the quality standard is also not in doubt , as it is because of the average rating of many who give 5 stars.

Indeed, nature also supports me to be beautiful too fun to see the make up list many notifications from shop** on my lap account that orders my clothes , although not much but ordered 35 pcs women blouse, and 15 men t-shirts total 50 pcs . Like a star falling from the sky, When my house was spending a lot and I was busy fixing the beauty there came an unexpected opportunity.

Without waiting any longer I immediately packed the order of the person, wrote the entire address listed in the billing address and brought the order to the delivery place, to be ready to be sent to the recipient.

After going out of the house to remember in my mind at this time that is a jacket yes I do not want my efforts to be in vain just because of the sunlight that dares to make my skin color darker and decile.

After wearing a rather thick jacket and covering my hair with a hat so as not to be limp and smell of the sun .

after walking 7 minutes from the distance I traveled from home to the expedition jn* finally arrived as well...

"Mas ... This is all the payment of COD yes, the rest is just photoin through my wa.." My message to admin jn* and we've known him for a long time because he already knew I was here for sure what he said was just that and he agreed to what I asked as usual.

because I was the laziest waiting a long time" there because it was hot, people passed by at the delivery place there were busy sending goods, someone wanted to take goods , and there are also complaints because the goods are not running or still take off in certain areas.

I left the expedition and headed straight home again , I think there is something less than my mind but what?? like there is a block of thoughts and feelings but do not know what it is. Maybe playing fingers open social media scrolling there is no harm while walking towards home . Up to 1 homepage on Facebook I met him again and he again is mas Indra , he uploaded a video with several men and I was more curious about him , I noticed exactly her posture, the way she spoke and her gestures, so cool that was the word that popped into my mind right now ....

somehow I was hypnotized by her style, from her dress and the layout in her is the hallmark of the husband that I crave.

plaques!!...I clap my wide eel so that I am self-conscious and not too far to think about things that should not be thought of especially about a man who is nobody I do not let me get carried away flow and being a lazy woman, I do not want myself to be considered always busy chasing or called a smart ass. Yes that is the characteristic I always care about what people judge because only others can judge ourselves is wrong or right even though not completely the person is wrong , ' ' ' ''cause , but why the figure of Indra always makes me want to find out more and like himself he has his own chemistry for me.

Already at home I immediately clean the house and want to try to learn to make up even with a makeshift tool.

"Tika .. why do you hunt once, I pay attention today you like other and not as usual. go back and forth just clean your face..." appeared the figure of the mother who suddenly appeared behind the door of my room .

" Ohhh ..ini Ma'am..anu...anu ma'am...I just want...hemmmm" I touched on how I wanted to relate to mother with what I wanted to change from my lifestyle...

"Anu ..anu ... Speaking of which is true tika, you why? you sick? or again there is a problem?".. Mother's attention is always there for me but the gimna yes do I have to be honest with what I want to do so that mother does not think anything of me.

" this is Ma'am..I want to learn make up and want to learn to be beautiful Mom let's like artists on tv" it's loh ma'am.I don't want to be dwarfed by the women of the village continue Bu , ' she said , I'm embarrassed, I promise mom I'll take care of myself, Mom, just calm mom after all just make up for it and not anything else "....I held my mother's hand while explaining what I wanted I was afraid of my minded mother who was not the same I was , because I see here a lot of women who have crossed the natural boundary is very different from the atmosphere in the village.