Love without limits
Unendurable

The room became quiet

Don't be like that "takasugi"

This is the first and last ...

It was Takasugi who made me 'look like this' with those words.

hmm .. "my speech"

I have a lot to say, it's all stuck in my throat ..

Takasugi didn't say a word, whether he agreed with me or not.

Until this first ceremony is over, I cannot speak.

And he knows it, of course.

he won't let me talk .

I want him to know how I really feel.

At least, that I love her, that I want to stay with her.

and I can't even say please.

My lips almost quivered, and my tears almost fell.

For him .. It was all his wish that I became a woo.

And now, I'm stymied by the rules of the woo.

There will be a battle from now on "takasugi" said"

takasugi then gazed out the window where clouds floated in the night sky, and whispered ..

To gather weapons ...choshu had tried to drag out the hostilities, but this would not last much longer. But this is a war that can be won. This was not a fair war, and on the shogun's side, there were low morals in every clan.

The satsuma-choshu alliance is a reality and weapons can be obtained.

Choshu has a good tactician. And not only soldiers, but people also rose up.

And if I don't fight here? “Obviously takasugi”

As my mentor wanted, I once wanted to travel abroad. But my body will not survive. Then, I want to use the remaining time for my country and avenge my teacher. “Ucapnya again”

Maybe the moon was hiding behind the clouds, but the room was a little dark.

Takasugi narrowed his eyes and stopped talking.

For a while ... there was only a flickering light in the lantern.

When the moon appeared again and light filtered into the room, takasugi looked straight at me and spoke ..

So .. This is the first and last. That's what I decided. When the battle begins, who knows what will happen to me. I can be killed on the battlefield, I can be shot and I can die. I can faint from coughing blood. “Ucap takasugi with low voice .. and scary”

In my mind, I saw a terrifying shadow of him coughing up bright red blood.

My heart was pounding and I felt like fainting.

Those who know my condition keep telling me not to overdo it. But I shook my head to them, and when I said my teacher's words, they didn't say anything more. “Ucapnya again”

*If in death I will find immortality*

All the students of shouyu sensei might live with those words ..

These people are patriots .each defies their own danger and moves forward.

However .. All I can do is watch them from a distance ..

My eyes are full of tears ..

My vision was blurry, because of takasugi..

So do the same for me, Sherry. Just like my friends. Tell me it can't be helped, and send me to the battlefield. This is my job. Even if I die, I won't regret it. “Takasugi speaks clearly, without hesitation”

I remember the words kogoro. Even from now on, he would burn his life to drop into the shogunate.

Takasugi's eyes are strong. There is fire in them ..

and I can even see it up close.

That fire, no doubt, would continue to burn ferociously.

And it will burn until his life is extinguished along with the shogun. And he'll turn to ashes and disappear.

Then, my vision blurred. I winked tears.

Sherry . "takasugi call my name"

You are very beautiful “tapnya again and she smiles beautifully”

Among all the women I've ever seen in my life, you are the prettiest.I know I'll never meet anyone who surpasses you "she said again"

I want to say it, regardless of tradition.

But my throat was burning with fire, and I had no sound.

The days I have with you have been so much fun, you will definitely become a popular woo. Let kinomoto profit from this. “Ucap takasugi”

Her happy voice cut my heart painfully.

And I felt that our farewell was near.

At all ages, in times of war, women comfort a tired man.

On the scorched earth, you are the one who planted the seeds of my new life. We died to create a world where you can laugh. Be happy in this world, that's your job “cap takasugi smile”

No. .. I want to say no.

My happiness .. what I really want ..

I'm glad to see you as a woo in the end. I have something to talk to my friends about. “Ucap takasugi and laughs happy”

Unable to hold back, tears flowed down my cheeks uncontrollably.

Talk about 'the end' and 'something to talk about'.

When I was in kyo, I could love Shimabara's way. Is this what he's gonna tell them?

Will she say I'm funny .. that I'm beautiful?

I want to stay with her, that's all I want.

don't make me a memory *benakku*

One drop at a time, tears fell to their knees.

As if that was the signal, takasugi stood up.

see you, sherry. “Ucap takasugi”

All I could do was watch silently as takasugi broke eye contact without hesitation.

Then he opened the sliding door, and stepped out into the dark corridor.

Just once, he came back to me and laughed ...

Don't forget our promise "he said with a face that's hard to describe"

And this time, takasugi walked out of the room.

He shifted the closed door behind him, and stepped his feet further and further in the darkness.

Left alone in my room, I cried and cried.

Hiks .. “sobbing my unbearable cry”

Bending forward, I pressed my head against the tatami mat.

How could he call it a 'promise' selfishly?

The presence of Takasugi is my happiness.

I can't stop my tears anymore. Suppressing only my voice, I listened to tears fall.

At first, he slipped into this room.

I thought he was a thief, then, I thought he was a pervert.

and it was also when I became accustomed to life in this era that I became accustomed to the takasugi that always surprised me.

And when I started to love her, I started to wonder about my own takasugi.

He is full of mystery, and has an alluring appeal.

when we met again, he saved me from being kidnapped by a group of men.

At that moment, I also knew the other side of her, how powerful she was ..

and how amazingly good he is.

The desire to know him grew and grew, and once, I even followed him to Edo.

His only mentor.

Takasugi's face as he spoke to his late teacher, looked the same as when he waved at me and left.

His eyes had the same steel determination.

I've known since then.

That I would never be able to catch that flickering flame, its ice blade, or the lightning fast rod.

That if I reached out to make it mine, my fingers would be full of wounds.

But I knew that I would still reach out to him.

But my fingers couldn't reach him.

My tears can't hold back anymore.

And that's part of the time I loved so much.

Hiks .. “sobbingku”

The festive sound coming from the other party room seemed so far away.

This room that Takasugi left behind, seemed to be cut off from the excitement of the world.

My head's pulsing. My breath is very difficult.

For what seemed like forever, I thought of takasugi and cried.

I wonder how much time has passed?

A woo? It's time for you to party next "clerk said"

Hearing the chief officer's voice, I slowly opened my eyes.

I felt as if my tears were rusting and hurting, and I couldn't move properly.

I can barely lift my head, and I can't talk ..

not hearing my answer, the chief officer peeked into the room.

A woo? “Call officer”

Looking at my tears, the chief officer gasped.

He asked if the previous guest had done anything, and I shook my head.

Sherry, you have to go back to the boarding house now. “ucap officer”

But before I could speak, he frowned.

you can't go to the next party with that look. It would ruin kinomoto's reputation. So come back, you don't have to worry, "said the chief officer"

I wiped my wet, silent face.

My makeup is gone because of my tears, and my hands are bleached. Even without looking in the mirror, I knew I must look terrible.

Takasugi won't come back here.

And even if he did, I don't want him to see me like this.

I stood up and left the room. There's no point in crying here.

But I don't know what's best to do right now.

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*continuing*