Daughter of the Widower: The Single Daddy'S Daughter
#57 End of Own Game
“Rizki.”
Huh uh?!
I looked towards Nisa who was already in front of my desk. My mind drifted everywhere. All of these activities are difficult to accept at one time. My brain was kept busy by many things in this one year.
“Why, Nisa? I'm busy.”
He took some papers that were temporary notes. His face was not happy. This woman will ask a lot more.
“You are still looking for cases you can report?”
Nisa with a million questions. Since he already knows what I've been doing all this time, I can't cover anything. That curiosity could have gotten even more wild if I had let it go.
“Hust be urged continuously. So they have no other time to take care of it other than running from the police.”
The thing is, not all cases I can dig. Those cases have limits too. Sooner or later I have nothing left to protect us. I need to find another way quickly.
“Today can rest first no?”
I looked at that face. He looks sad for whatever reason. He always smiles and laughs in any situation.
That hand I pulled until I took off the paper, “What's up?”
His face instantly changed giving off an angry expression, “Why the hell are you this way on?!”
Why is he suddenly so angry? Today maybe his mood is disturbed about something.
“Is there anything? Or do you want something? Buy it, it's okay.”
“Not that I mean!”
Nisa's never been this angry before. His slightly uninspired attitude has always worried me. It always happened on his face after Riza's death.
I thought the longer the wound would be treated. With my money I collected, I made her satisfied with whatever she wanted. I rarely accompany him. That should be enough, right? Is there anything I do less?
“Nisa want to go somewhere? Tomorrow I can accompany kok.”
“Not it!!” he screamed louder.
My sweet fingers were drawn to my hands. Soft touch. Calmed slightly.
There must be something he's hiding.
“Then what happened? Just story,” I pulled both his hands closer to the side of the table. While I'm still sitting in my chair, “OK, if Nisa doesn't want to tell me. Just tell Nisa what you want.”
“Basic insensitive!”
The curve of my lips rose, smiling in response to this woman's behavior. He really is emotional.
“Yes, I'm not sensitive. Nisa won't tell me?”
“Chiih!!” she was getting upset but I could see her face blushing. Surprised I received both his hands pressing on my cheeks, “Stop rallying here dong!”
This woman really confused me.
Patience. I have to stay quiet and wait.
I held her hand on my cheek. He was still raging, but he started to sweat coldly. Over ten years we were together and he still couldn't bear to look me in the eye.
Huh uh?! Nisa's? Don't tell me he's offended.
I was immediately made a fool. Find a quick word that can ease the atmosphere, “Sorry.”
“Iya! You must apologize!”
Stand me in front of him. Touching a face that looks sad and scared. My brain can't walk. I can't straighten out where the mind of this woman who's been my partner.
“Basic!” he hit my front shoulder slowly, but he didn't continue after the first blow, “That should have upset me! Why are you even upset here?!”
My eyes were surprised.
Could it be that I've given him less attention over the course of this year? It seems that I was distracted by her smile that had come in the first week of Riza's departure. I know it was her sweet acting.
However, I can't let go of Day and the others roam around. Don't let them run rampant.
If I let my guard down just a little bit, it could all be messed up.
Hahaha, when viewed from that side, I am indeed in a state of confusion. Not letting go of his son.
How else would you like? This bad luck has stuck with me since birth.
I hug the woman, “Sorry.”
He shook his head slowly, “No. I'm the one who's sorry. Though I already know you like this to protect me too.”
“Where? Want to vacation to a faraway place once in a while?”
Raised his head towards me, “I said that's not what I meant!”
“I am indeed insensitive.”
Her mouth was back on the side, but I knew she wasn't really angry, “No, Rizki was sensitive. Time should I say anyway?”
Nisa with her stubbornness, always make laugh, “If not told how do I know?”
His face again blushed red. Make me wonder what he has in mind.
“Next week will be Riza's death anniversary, but...,” but? “I haven't been able to grant her request Riza.”
Riza's request? Wait, that's what that request means?
He let go of my embrace and pulled my right hand. Hide some of her face, “Riza wants to have a sister, know.”.
“Puh,” can't I hold, “Hahaha...”
“Ah! Don't laugh!”
“Haha, sorry,” is funny, she is still shy ‘begin’ first, “Alright, your honor. Want direct now?”
“D⏤a⏤adda it's still day!”
Though he has vent his frustration because I pay less attention to his heartache. This woman always had a way of comforting me.
“Ya already, tonight?” I kissed the backs of his hands.
His face still looks embarrassed. Nod him slowly.
I was made to smile again. I couldn't help but feel happy and relieved every time I was with her. He is like the sun. If he's safe, if he's always with me, I won't ask for anything.
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Am I being too naive?
Sound of ambulance sirens. I usually stand by every time I hear it.
This pain. My body is stiff everywhere.
“There are trapped here! Fast!”
A thousand one obscure sounds all piled up. Horns, people shouting, the sound of tools. My eyes are the opposite. It's unclear what's ahead there.
Dark and glare. It was as blurry as my consciousness held him.
“Here is pregnant!”
Nisa, what about her?!
No, I beg you.
You where….
Nisa⏤
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“Nisa!”
The figure of a man holding me back from earlier, “Rizki, calm down first. You just woke up.”
How can I calm down?! It shouldn't be like this.
“Kak Iki, please. Brother wound is severe.”
Nisa's waiting for me. She's eight months pregnant. I have to go with him!
I kept trying to block the hands of these two women. Forcing yourself to leave the hospital bed even though it feels unable to shift in the slightest. Move, I must move my body.
Nisa, I⏤
The thought behind my shoulder bandage shocked me. Hendra has gripped him hard, “Nisa is no more, Rizki!!”
Shaking back. That's not possible. No way!
No way!!
“He died of bleeding! After childbirth! I've said it to you so many times! He's gone!!”
“Shut!!” I unconsciously shouted.
I'm squeezing my hand. Sitting limp in a position that did not change much from earlier.
“You focus on recovering your body first. Let us take care of your son. He's in a moment out of the hospital,” Hendra steps away, “Ayo.”
The sound of many steps away. The door rang twice. Stay quiet in this clean room.
Nisa.., I can't even say goodbye….
Sorry, Nisa, I can't make you happy. Riza's gone. Your life is ruined in just two years. I should have tried harder.
Haha.
I'm too naive.
This is all like a game. From me and torturing myself. Whatever bad possibilities may come unexpected. Although it was unexpected, all of it was unavoidable. That's the bad luck of small.
All of that stuff is attached to me.
Hahaha, right too. If not close to me, from the beginning they are guaranteed to be safe.
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It's okay, Nisa. Rasyiqa will not feel all this.
He doesn't need to know who his father is. She must be safe.
He needs to be safe.
