Bella's Script
Parting with the past 2
“Sorry suddenly sat here, I just accidentally saw you but it looks like you are busy. How are you?” Rangga who looked at him with full attention. He smiled a little at Bella, a special smile that used to always make Bella crazy.
This man's appearance looked different from before. With a thin whisker over his lips and a rough shaved beard down to his crest. Rangga is not usually as weepy as he is not thinking about his appearance. The inherent metrosexual impression of her was not seen in her present appearance.
“Good. What are you doing here?” Bella could not hide her shock at this man.
“Manage song copyright.” His word.
He took out a CD containing his songs that are the soundtrack for his film now.
“I'm not sure you've heard the song I sent you through wa. Lucky we met here, so I want to give it to you directly.” He gave the CD to Bella.
For a while Bella just looked at the CD in Rangga's hands. He admitted, he did not open a message from Rangga at all. Either already in order to how many messages sent Rangga through the chat application.
“Take it, it's still free.” Canda Rangga, to reduce tension.
“Hem, thanks.” Bella finally took the CD from Rangga's hand.
He noticed the cover on the CD container, the picture of Rangga hugging his guitar made a dark silhouette with a light point placed as if away from Rangga.
Grasping, the title of the mini album that Rangga made.
“I hope, you want to hear the songs there. 2 of those 6 songs, the inspiration from you Bell, from our memories.” Rangga without being asked.
The man smiled slightly and then turned heartily as he looked at Bella's face who looked surprised but could not do much.
“Yes, I'll listen to him. Thank you.” That's all Bella can promise.
“Thank God..” Rangga's speech sounded along with his relieved breath.
He leaned his body on the back of the chair without taking his eyes off Bella who was still watching the CD cover. To be precise, look at one by one the list of song titles that Rangga sang.
“Bell, may I speak something else?” Again Rangga spoke softly, like full of doubt.
“Please,.” It was only Bella's short answer that leaned her body and stared far ahead.
Seeing the meatballs seller brothers know the cart that is serving the buyer, much more soothing in appeal to meet with Rangga.
There was a deep sigh that Rangga scooped before starting his sentence. He looked doubtful but then smiled slightly as he recalled some of the memories that flashed through his mind.
“You used to advise me to go solo first, but I rejected it right away. Were you very disappointed then?” Rangga started the conversation.
“Why are you asking that now?” Bella asked back with a confused shriveled forehead. Isn't that past? Bella had forgotten how disappointed she had felt.
“I know, it's not worth asking now.” Rangga smiled obliquely to himself.
“Only, at this time I realize that you used to try very hard to support and improve my career. Stupidly, I used to think of it as your attempt to set me up.”
“I'm sorry Bell,..” Rangga's last sentence sounds sincere but does not necessarily make Bella turn her head. For him at this time there is nothing to forgive, his business with Rangga is done.
“I'm also sorry because I used to, I always thought that you wanted to always be in control of me. Not letting me do what I want. You were too busy taking care of everything about me to make me sick.”
Rangga sentence paused, he leaned his body then cupped his face with both hands that he rubbed rough.
“Now I understand, if it's because you know what I need, while I only know what I want.” He turned to Bella who was beside him and the girl only glanced at him a little.
“I used to be really stupid Bell. I'm too stupid and don't appreciate you.”
“When our relationship ends and you see for yourself all the cheating I've done behind your back, you ask, what should you change so that I don't leave. What you have to fix so I don't leave you.”
“I can't answer Bell, even to date.”
“Because I realized, there is nothing you need to change and improve from all that perfection. Only the real me cannot keep up with the perfection you showed in front of me.”
The stairs bowed lethargic in front of Bella. He could not even hide his tears which then just dripped.
Bella had to admit, she was quite surprised by all Rangga's confessions but unfortunately, her heart had not even shaken in the slightest while remembering everything Rangga said at this time. His heart was no longer crumpled by all the regrets and sorry Rangga.
“You're such a beautiful Rainbow, for me who is color blind, Bell. The words in the closing of your script, are indeed very suitable to describe all my folly.”.
“But now, my eyes are open Bell. I know what I need, I know what my purpose in life is. And I know that I should have stayed by your side. Not letting you go for any reason.”
“Then, can we start everything from the beginning of Bell? I want to fix everything. I want you to always be an important part of my life. I beg you,”
Rangga came down from the bench and rested in front of Bella. While bowed down, he truly expects Bella's forgiveness and forgiveness.
He did pity Rangga as a fellow human who regretted his actions. But to get back together? Is he kidding?
“Bell,.. Please..” Rangga dare to look at Bella. With red and wet eyes and full of regret. He hopes, this can all melt Bella's heart.
Bella smiled slightly at Rangga.
“Thank you for your sincere apology.”
“As a selfish human being, I'd really like to hear your apology long ago. I want you to realize that you've hurt me so much, Ga.”
“You are the fondest memories that taught me that that is how to love the real. Give the best to your partner, put your happiness and interests at the top of your priorities and don't betray them. For 8 years, I persevered with that principle.”
“I owe a lot to the learning you gave me.”
“But,” Bella sighed deeply to calm her heart that had been racing as her emotions rose.
“I don't live for the past, Ga. The present makes me so much more important and beautiful. Because what?”
“Because someone has taught me, that, there is no need to be perfect to be loved by someone. Occasionally, show your weakness in front of him so that he knows that you are not a perfect human being. If he really loves you, he won't leave you for any reason. And we've never been in that kind of condition."
"I accept each other's flaws and love each other's strengths. We always feel less for each other. I feel like you're lacking attention, I feel like you're giving me less priority, I also feel like you love me less and maybe less than you get from me, until you find the others behind me. I understand that, completely.”
“For such a relationship, what can Ga fix, what?” Bella looked at Rangga questioningly.
Rangga could not answer, only tears that then dripped as a form of regret.
“We've been together for a very long time but only briefly we have a heart for each other. It's not wrong actually if you feel bored but, you've made a choice over our relationship. And your choice at that time, for me will never be able to fix.”
“You should know Ga, I'm very happy at the moment. So happy that I feel like everyone should feel this way.” Bella puts her right hand over her thigh, making Rangga able to see the ring embedded in the ring finger of Bella's right hand.
“Bell, do you have a partner? Are you married?” rangga quickly shrank her tears and was about to grab Bella's hand, but Bella immediately dodged.
Bella nodded slowly while smiling.
“When you came and sat beside me, you should have seen this wedding ring on my finger. But you never changed Ga. You've always been insensitive. You never try to understand the situation around you. You only have a purpose, if other people have to know your wishes. That's what makes us different and will never unite.”
Rangga's body collapsed in place. Both of his legs were already trembling unable to withstand his suddenly feeble, powerless body. He could only grieve what he had done all this time. His heart was broken and his hope completely wiped out. Is there no other way for her to regain Bella's heart?
“I'm sorry for my mistakes all along. And I beg you, please stop thinking that we can be together again. Our chances are over. Now, me and you are just two strangers who meet in the same job."
"Thank you for learning for these 8 years, it means a lot to me.” Bella's tandas which then passed left Rangga in her place.
Just two steps away, she realized that her husband was standing in the distance, looking at her with a smile. Devan extended her hand to Bella and Bella rushed a small run over to her husband.
While beside Devan, Bella wrapped her hand around Devan's arm.
“Did I leave you too long?” Tanya Devan who kissed the head of Bella while glancing at Rangga who fell sitting on the grassy ground. The man looked broken.
“Long enough to solve a problem.” Timpal Bella. He followed Rangga who was behind him then offset Devan's footsteps that went away from Rangga.
"You're angry, 'cause I talked to Rangga?" Bella looked at the face of the husband who was right next to her face.
"I admit, I'm jealous." Devan's words sound stern.
"But not on the man but on your memory."
"I'm always afraid that the old man will be the winner."
"But, after I heard that you have never lived in the past and are happier in the present, I felt that I had nothing to worry about. I know, your whole heart makes me Bell..." Devan asserted with complete confidence.
He moved his sturdy arm to embrace Bella. Put his arm past Bella's neck. He wanted to cut the distance to his wife.
“Sorry Ga, I will never be able to repeat anything to you. You're just the past that I have to remove from my script.” Inner Bella. Just a few moments Bella looked at her ex-boyfriend, before wrapping her hands around Devan's waist.
“I love you...” Bye.
“I love you more, dear..” Reply Devan with a brief kiss on his lips.
“Mass,, Habit.. This is public place tau.” Bella's face was red with embarrassment.
“Hahahaha.. I forgot.” It was only Devan's answer that he would keep saying whenever he couldn't help but kiss Bella's lips.
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