Being a Milk Mom For Twin Nieces
Prologues

Anindya Gradhita Mukti's

I heard a sentence once, "That men are created differently from men and women so that they mate." But then I thought, what am I going through right now is not really a true soul mate, but coercion because we are united because of imposing circumstances?

My Lord is so Great and so great in arranging the scenarios of the universe so epically. It started when I thought my life had been destroyed by the universe because I had to accept the fact that I was going to be a mother-to-be even though I was not married. At a young age I put a hard line on the practice of early marriage for fear of having children and fear of giving birth. But it turns out, my Lord instead brought something that I feared, namely the presence of an innocent fetus that grew in my womb involuntarily.

Not without a father, but I do not want to be married by the father of my fetus. He's an irresponsible man who steals opportunity when I'm weak.

Despite all that, as time went on I began to be able to accept my condition, I let this fetus develop in my womb because I realized that this was all my destiny, not because I intended to commit adultery or anything. Maybe God sent him down this way.

After trying to face the barrier of the stars, the curse, the curse, the blasphemy that I received from the people around me about me who was pregnant without going through marriage, I cut off all the babble. I then became suspicious at the word marriage and began to think, no longer need I married because of this I already have a baby who will soon be born. I already have children, so there's no need to get married, I thought one day.

But again God says something else. In the happy moment waiting for my baby to be born, it turns out He immediately took it back. The child I waited for nine is not long, waiting for his presence in the world. However, I could only see it in the blink of an eye before he was finally returned to the Almighty.

For the second time I felt broken.

There's always a cure in every wound, that's what I believe. My son's pleasure, there is still another hope for me to feel the cuddling of the babies of my sister's babies who are reportedly identical twins. There was a little light after dark on me, I could see a cute baby as my comfort, one day when my sister's babies were born in this world.

Again and again God has his own plan. Both babies were born healthy and safe, but my brother was then asked by the Almighty. After giving birth, she suffered heavy bleeding until she lost her life.

Since my brother's departure, I have shed more of my love for my two nephews. Every time, I suck them out of my own milk. It is sad to see those who cannot feel the affection of their biological mother for being left behind even before their eyes can clearly see her wingless angel.

Brother Amelia, I ask permission to take care of them as much as I can and until they grow up and become good-natured like you, InshaAllah. My promise when my brother was buried.

However, it turned out that it changed my life and I ruined my own principle of not getting married. After a few months of being her mother, I was married to my niece's father. For a moment nothing changed other than my status, but whether to be taken where this relationship is because basically between me and my ex-sister-in-law are both not in love and are reluctant to start a new relationship with the opposite sex.

Amelia Mukti

I used to ask God often, asking that my father and mother never quarrel and do not let them separate, asking for healing from my illness which often makes me headache. Miraculously, all my requests were granted by God.

The greatest request I ever asked was that I be given a little brother and I promised to love him and never ask for anything after that, and God again granted my request. So my only sister, Anindya, was present.

As I promised, I loved my sister so much, giving all I could and all I could give to her.

Until we grow up, we have our own lives. With him who studied outside the city, while I worked to finance his studies because the more days father and mother are getting busy with their respective affairs. Anindya's tuition fees are often too late to be paid, making Anin unable to take the exam. I don't want that to happen again because I feel responsible for my sister's life. Putting aside my dream, I'd be more unwilling if Anin didn't continue with her dream.

Until in the end, God came back to surprise me with the presence of a handsome man who made me fall in love for the first time and many times to him. We were put together because of arranged marriage, of course my father and mother agreed because my future husband from a distinguished family. In short, my husband doesn't like me because of my family's behavior. Until the years changed, he had not been able to accept me as his wife. I ignored her attitude and let me love her alone.

My insistence on having a child no matter how, I ended up pregnant and the time to raise my baby was the moment I was waiting for. I don't know what it will be like, I just live this life sincerely and happily though often lonely without ever feeling if my love will be reciprocated by it.

Arsatya Pramana

In my life, I have never regretted this much. Living with the woman I married without love for her was hard, but it was harder to see her go. Not for a while, but to go forever.

He left not without reason, but because his sacrifice gave birth to our fruit. For God's sake, if time could be turned, I would give everything to him. Everything she asked for I would fulfill, I would tell her a million loves like she always expressed and said every day.

Whatever I can I'll give her everything. However, I have lost my chance. Time cannot be repeated and I languish in regret for the rest of my life.

Her departure overwhelmed me to take care of the children I often ignored when they cried, the more often I saw my two babies whose faces were so similar to her mother made me forget to see them for longer.

I felt the pain in my heart all the way to the smallest part in there. There will be growing pains and I will come back to regret the time, to regret myself for being indifferent to him, always putting him aside, the mother of my children.

My soul, my heart, my love, and my whole life seemed to have been carried away with the body of Amelia buried before my eyes.